she throws rubbish...

See… it started like this,

I saw some "learn, paste & fun" felt pieces, NEXT TO MY DVD PLAYERS, 2 pieces, squeezed in that little corner… in the TV cabinet…

Hm… I was like…

So, I asked baby, why these pieces ended up there?

She couldn't answer,

I asked, where's the rest?

She couldn't answer too…

I asked her to sit down there, and think properly where the rest are,

It's a set, of the story of red riding hood, felt pieces, sticking on the felt board,

Some characters, some furnitures, some trees, etc.

So, I asked, where? Where? Where?

She couldn't tell me…

I asked her to sit down and think, she told me, she wanted to stand up and walk around and think, I said, fine, but think, and tell me where the rest are…

Yes, I've such anxiety, I hate misplacing items,

Just thinking of the fact that, there're small tiny pieces of things lying around in some unknown corners of this house, I feel anxious…

On top of that,

She also misplaced some pieces of the magnet I just got her the other day,

I asked, where? Where? Where?

After a while, she found the magnet,

So, I was a little bit relieved…

I started nagging her again and again,

Where are the rest of the felt pieces?

She COULDN'T TELL ME,

She said, "I don't know!",

Then, she said, "I know, they're gone!"

Then, she looked underneath the sofa, said, "it's there!",

I asked, where? You saw it?

She said yes, I asked, where, tell mama…

She said, it's too small that she can't tell,

So, I asked her again, "since it's so small, how can you tell me that, it's there!"

She kept quiet,

Then, she told me, she didn't like those felt pieces…

*ting*!

I asked, "did you throw those away?"

"did you put them in the rubbish bin?"

She shook her head!

Fine!

After a while, I asked again…

"did you put them in the rubbish bin!??"

She said, "no!"

Fine…

I trusted her…

However, anxiety struck,

So, I started tidying up her toys a little bit,

Shuffled the containers, and spots, a little bit…

Wishing that, I couldn't find those felt pieces,

The last time I saw, she put them at the bottom of the paper bag…

I kept looking into the paper bag, the paper bag was empty…

Fine!!!

So, I texted him, and asked if he knows anything about it,

Nope, no idea…

Arrgh!! I can't live with this…

Anyway, in the evening, I went on to do some rewiring in the house, as one of the extension was not functioning anymore,

And also, we've changed to fibreoptic connection in our household, the wires, the switches, are in different spots now,

I went on to rearrange a little bit…

Last try!

I went to the rubbish bin and look!

Damn!

There, I saw the whole pile of them!

He asked me why I bothered looking for them, just small items…

I told him to just let me go after those small tiny useless felt pieces,

It's just me, I just gotta find them,

And I told him,

I also wanted to see, how "creative" baby is…

Ya, at first, she told me, she hide them,

That's why I kept asking her to think think think, think of the hiding spot,

Then, suddenly, she blurted out that, she dislike those pieces…

And lastly, I found them in the rubbish bin,

Yes!

That's her masterpiece so far…

I didn't know when she threw them away,

Luckily the part-timer hasn't come and got rid or the trash…

I retrieved all of them, gave them a rinse,

It's a waste paper bin anyway, can't be too dirty…

Funnily, this time around, I was not angry…

Cos, somehow…

I thought, she did something, quite different…

My baby!!

(shake head!)

my dear scanner's back onto my desktop… yippie! I then can start scanning my old old old pictures again… scanning project starto~

Everything is going to be OK...

ya, that's the last sentence in the book of Trace Moroney's "When I'm Feeling" series,

ie. "When I'm Feeling SAD"...

I was reading this book to baby this evening,

it's a good book of teaching kids, about feelings...

ya, I like these books...

I thought I've got one with "When I'm Feeling Angry", but I've not seen one on the bookshop, I supposed...

anyway,

when I read this sentence, "Everything is going to be OK",

I felt sad...

cos... I thought, whenever there's anybody telling you this,

or, whenever you've gotta tell other people this sentence,

or, whenever others use this sentence to another person,

generally... something bad/sad had happened...

and this is the one last thing that we can say,

to make the person feel a little bit better, a little bit more comfortable...

that, also reminded me of one jap drama I've watched N years ago,

"Shiroi Kage",

starring Takeuchi Yuko, and Nakai Masahiro... (ya, I suddenly thought of him, cos, I'm watching ATARU now... I mean, these few days...)

ie. nurse Nobuko, vs. doctor Naoe,

where, Naoe's dying of cancer, (can't remember what cancer LA!)

and he once told Nobuko,

most patients, ie. patients with terminal illness,

do not want to hear people telling them, "gambatte!", ie. work hard, 加油，buck up, bla bla bla...

in fact, what they want, is, "it's ok... it's ok..." (that you've already done whatever you can, you've already done your best, bla bla bla!)

he explained that, all patients, or, rather... most people know that, under difficult circumstances, one gotta work hard, 加油, or buck up or  be positive...

and one probably has already done so...

however...

what comfort most... is,

"it's ok..."

that's what Naoe said to Nobuko...

hm...

back to the book,

and it ends with this sentence as well,

and therefore, I thought, it's related to "sadness", or hopelessness sometimes,

ya, sometimes...

however...

though sad...

yes, I'll thank million, if and when I'm in difficult time,

when I'm feeling sad,

that, there're somebody who come and give me a big big hug,

and tell me this,

"Everything's going to be OK, dear~"

I love Trace Moroney's series of books, "The Things I Love" series, and "When I'm Feeling" series"... =￣ω￣=

Ooh... was kinda... amused by myself, that, I suddenly am in the mood to blog in english... hoo hoo~~ ∩__∩

birthday party

2012-08-21

we went to my best friend's son's birthday party...

phew... luckily, it's not like one of those rich kid's party's style, ie. expensive door gifts, with "expensive" guests...

I was pleased that,

it's just us,

us, ie. her close friends, we know each other, ie. mutual,

and her families,

and her other close friends, whom, we don't know much about each other, but it's ok, cos, I know they're close friends to my friend...

that's enough, right?

club house, nice club house,

kids pool, again, I'm happy to see that, the swimming pool's lovely, though baby didn't get to go in to swim,

cos, neither he nor me, were ready to get wet, after a long weekend outstation holiday...

you know? outstation? long hour driving? long hour entertaining other family members? ^_^ tiring... kinda...

so, baby was there, with other kids,

with my friends kids,

blowing soap bubble,

she obviously had enjoyed...

got her nicey nicey dress wet, cos, though, she didn't really go swimming, but she somehow went to dip her feet in the pool and played for quite a while...

luckily I've got spare clothes,

and since then, she changed from a little cute princess, to a little cutey boy look... (haha, of course, she's still my little cute princess!)

but then, maybe it's because of the outstation trip,

the pool, and the play, and the fun,

she's finally exhausted, and yes, that's the reason for the flu...

flu season...

hope, all will be ok,

tomorrow!

down with flu...

after... how many months?

2 months?

ya, I think, back in June, she's a flu, the package is usually, runny nose, cough, wrapped up with fever, high fever...

anyway,

after a long outstation weekend,

though, I thought, we didn't do much adventurous stuff with our extended family,

but then, I'm not sure why, everybody seems to be kinda tired, after this...

just after we got back last night,

little one went to sleep, straight away...

he needed it desperately, he wanted it desperately!

the remaining 3?

yep... I read all my "backlog", then, went to bed...

though, I thought, we've rested enough,

she finally started sneezing...

another one, then another one, then... runny nose...

then, cough...

then, tonight (2012-08-21)? mild fever...

however, she pooped...

after the poop, seemed like the fever went down a little bit...

as of now (2012-08-22), nope, it's back to normal temperature...

God Bless!

sophie

I saw that she needed some comfort, and all these while she's not been carrying or extensively using her pillows, or bolster, or plush toys..

so, I suggested her to pick one and make it the special one,

as... she sometimes, just wanted me to give her my hand, ie. when I'm asleep or when I'm carrying Gabriel,

yes, she even requested Gabriel's hand...

she just wanted to hold onto something...

some kids suck their thumbs,

some kids carry along a plush toy,

some kids, do don't know what... anyway...

so, I suggested her to pick 1 special toy...

from among all her toys...

she's many plush toys, mainly gifts from my friends, ie. her aunties, (sweet huh?)

among all,

she like that fat blue bear the most,

that's the one, auntie aileen gave her, when Gabriel was born, when I was still lying in the hospital... recovering after the c-sec...

ooh, she likes that, the most...

I then told her,

she needed to take care of the bear, treats her (ya, I asked, if it's a she, or a he, she said, that's a girl) better, ie. don't just throw her with her pile of toys, at the end of the day,

I told her,

she can take the bear on trip, to bed, she can read to the bear, talk to the bear, or hug the bear, whenever mama, or papa are not there immediately to give her a big big hug...

if she needs one... whenever she needs one...

cos, I told her, if she has to wait for people (even us) to hug her, or pay attention to her (as much as we do our best, sometimes, there're time that, we just cannot attend to her immediately, especially I'm taking care of 2, the little 8-month-old...) then, she'll feel disappointed half of the time,

as I've learned, all these while,

from my favourite jap dramas... 自己的幸福，自己的快樂，要靠自己，如果，你的快樂是靠別人給你的，ie. 等着人家弄你笑，給你禮物開心，還是什麼的，那你的快樂的基礎，是非常的脆弱的。。。

that's how I explained to her...

so, as most of the other kids, who know how to comfort, pacify themselves, (like I mentioned, thumb sucking...)

I want her to find a way, a channel too...

after 1 day,

I asked her, what's the name of the blue bear,

since it's going to be more special, right?

she couldn't think of one,

at first, I thought, Madeline, ya... that's the "origin" of her name, ie. my baby's name...

at first, I thought, Madeleine and Madeline, kinda cute, and kinda cool...

but then, after 1 day,

I suddenly recalled...

when I was pregnant with the second baby...

before we know of its gender...

I thought to myself, during those days,

if it's going to be another girl,

I like this name...

sophie (ya, like the one in "sophie's world"),

so, I asked her, if it's ok, to give the bear a name, ie. sophie...

she nodded...

and this morning,

while I was still in bed...

she was spending time with him,

and he told me,

when she opened her eyes, in the morning,

she suddenly said to him,

"papa, finally blue bear has a name, and her name is sophie!"

my baby...

sweet, ain't she?? ^_^

I have toys!

I don't know since when,

And I don't know who says it…

Since quite a while, we, ie. adults, or, ie. parents, have not really bought any TOY for ourselves… ^_^

Right?

Maybe you've, but we (ie. my husband and I) have not…

Cos, we somehow have the idea that, we, ie. adults, shall not have toys…

Toys, as in, those that you can get from toys r us…

Anyway,

We do have toys, but I don't know since when,

Those toys that we have, have turned into IT gadgets, and so on…

And therefore, the other day, I decided to get myself a set of this,

Lego duplo's cake set…

Ya, cos, baby didn't ask for it,

She's a very nice and kind kid, she rarely request for anything,

Though, if you ask,

She'll say things like, she'd like to go to certain shopping malls, or she'd like to have cupcakes, doughnuts and so on… but then, she rarely requests or gets us to buy anything, any toy for her,

Mm… or, I'd rather say, as kids, you give her any toy, she'll never say "no", ^_^

Anyway,

I really like that set of duplo very much,

And I want to have it,

(jus tlike, I like those plantoy wooden sets, and I bought her 2 sets…)

But then, I suddenly thought that, I shall not put that under her account,

Cos, she didn't ask for it,

And I'm the one who wanted it, right?

Though, I don't really play with this sort of toys anymore…

However, I still want to own one…

So, I told him, I just want to own one, "who says adult shall not buy any more such type of toy?"

In a way,

I wanted to try out,

If those toys are mine, will she learn to appreciate more?

As kids… you know I know, though they love toys,

But then, they love other people's toys, THE MOST!

Right???

Again,

I've to say,

My baby's a very sweet girl,

Though, that set's already in our household,

And though she loves playing cooking/food toys,

She… rarely pester me to let her play,

Sometimes, I feel like taking a look at the set,

I'll tell her, why not we take it out and build/make some cakes…

And that, she'll be very happy…

Whenver it's near the end of the day, I'll pack it up with her,

Though she still try to prolong the playing time,

But most of the time, she'll end up having it packed and put back to the shelf nicely…

^_^

That's my girl,

And yes, that's the set of duplo cakes…

ooh... I see!!!

just now, when I was preparing her for bed,

(ie. putting on socks, tucking her shirts in, bla bla bla...)

she asked me, "mama, why girls sleep with girls, and boys sleep with boys?"

(cos, she thinks that, I should be sleeping with her on the same bed, and her father, with her brother, same bed...

so, I told her, it's not like girls sleep with girls, bla bla bla...

it's just that, previously, without me sleeping with her, ie. putting her to sleep,

after 45 min to 1 hour time frame when she fell asleep,

she'd get up, crying, sweating, and he couldn't pacify her and put her back to sleep,

during those events, I gotta go in and carried her for a while, talked to her for a while, then she'll be willing to go back to sleep,

it started just about a  month ago, and we thought, it's the typical night terror...

and we tried all methods, to reduce that, she still had it,

till... I decided to change a little bit of our daily routine, and let him take care of gabriel, if needed, while, in the room, just me and baby, I put her to sleep...

SO FAR~ SO GOOD!

continue from our conversation,

so, I told her about her crying,

casually... (since we came to this topic) I asked, if she remember why she cried...

she also, "casually" told me, (kids are amazing, they're so naive, haha! call us adult, cunning!)

"cos papa didn't sayang me!", O_o

I see! I see!!! (I kinda understand where she's coming from... saying this...)

I asked her again, "who said, papa doesn't sayang you? papa loves you so much!"

"mama sayang you?"

she nodded her head...

^_^

yes, dear, yes, dear! I know, I know...

OF COURSE it's not really that he doesn't "sayang" her,

it's just that, she liked to be snuggled, and cuddled, and patted to sleep...

and, yes, of course, me, as her mother, am better in that forte... kekeke...

and of course, like I said, I later guessed that, all those night terror events, are not really so night terror per se,

just a way, for her to get me back, to her!

and I love the fact that, she still believes that I've been sleeping with her all night...

no, I don't, cos, I gotta separate gabriel from her, gabriel makes a lot of noise at night, and I don't want him to disturb her...

but then, I gotta nurse him,

so, our routine's like,

I put her to bed,

then, I get up, take care of the small one at night, while he, takes care of her, at night,

then, in the morning, while he's getting ready to go to work,

I moved back to the room, with the little one, to be with her,

so, before sleep, after get up, all she sees is, ME!!! =￣ω￣=

good, right?

Growth Spurt at 3

I am still talking to a friend, online... (whatsapp)

and that's how I figure out,

growth spurt, or whatever you call it, that contributes to the problem...

yes, I've always liked to blame everything, every damn thing, to the magical Growth Spurt!

at this stage, 3 year old 3 months,

my baby... has suddenly grown...

she seemed to start to have her own thinking, her own idea, her own opinion, her own comments about things, about looks, and her own... motive/ambition/desire, whatever you call it...!!!

but, ironically, at the same time,

kids at this stage,

they want independent, yet, they are still dependent...

obviously, baby's trying to breakfree from me,

yet, she wants my acknowledgement...

bravo! just some simple conversation with my friend, via whatsapp, I manage to pull some points together, and get such conclusion, yes! that's it!!!!!

well, maybe I've read this somewhere, but to really experience it, see it, hear it, feel it... and finally figure it out?? now, I know how it is...

want to be independent, yet, dependent,

want to breakfree, yet, need the acknowledgement!

yes, then, I should give her more acknowledgement,

tell her,

everything's ok,

everything's fine!

she's a good girl, and that I trust her!

this is what she wants, ain't it?

it's not about what I gotta do with her now,

not about what I do for her now!

it's about me, acknowledging her,

really, for this time,

as an individual!

hm...

seems easy, sounds easy!

I need to really learn, and be alert, and do it...

she's no more BABY!

I think, this is what she's trying to tell me!

so!

let's forget about every other thing!!!

remember only THIS!

ACKNOWLEDGEMENT!

What's wrong with our hotels nowadays????

see! this afternoon, my 2 precious refused to nap, though, I could see that they're super tired,

eyes sunk, rubbing face and eyes...

so, after I've decided to give up on trying to get them to sleep, I brought both of them back out to the living room,

baby was starting her "play" again,

and gabriel? I put him there, he cried, cried, and cried, nothing else,

then... my phone rang...

and I picked up,

it's from gurney hotel penang,

asking me, if I'm checking in, bla bla bla...

I was like, already so frustrated and furious, and these people just had to call me at this hour, and asked me this stupid question, why?

yes yes yes, I know you'll tell me they're just doing their job, but come on! the room reservation website, upon booking, I gotta pay 10% of the total charges, as deposit, you think what?

you think I've so much money to burn, even though it's just wee 10% it's still money!!!

and that's what I told her exactly,

I've paid, and I'm paying, do you think, I book for fun, pay deposit for fun, and answer your phone call, and tell you that, "na! I'm just testing out your website, and I'm not checking in???"

and that all brought back my bad, super bad memory of our hotels in recent years,

first, 2011, Port Dickson Avilion,

I love that hotel,

but then, when we'd a weekend breakaway with bunch of friends, including each of our families, BIG group you know??

ended up, waiting at the kids playroom, till 3PM, if not we continuously pester the front desk, I guess, we'll only get our room after 3PM...

it's bad, if you ask me, and all these hotels, their room rates are not the cheapest in the country!

SEE!! our country's hotel system SUCKS big time, if you asked me,

I think, other countries, at least, so far, I've been to, Australia and Japan,

their checkin-checkout timing is more sensible,

ie. 10AM checkout, 12PM checkin,

it's talking about efficiency,

after your morning breakfast, normally, we're all ready to checkout, why bother stretching the time till 12noon?? then, people start to go to the pool for another round of dip, then, come back to the room, shower, and bla bla bla... dilly dally a little bit, there you go! go bust the checkout time, I still think, the hotel business owners here are plain moron!!!

if see!! checkout time, 10AM, immediately after breakfast, checkout, so good, some even checkout before they go take the inhouse breakfast, even better, the workers can start to clean the rooms, and bla bla bla...

see!!! that's called efficiency!

no wonder, our country is still like 20-50 years ago of many other developing countries!

the WORST of my experience was, HARD ROCK PENANG,

guess what time we stepped foot in our room?

5PM!

WHAT'S THE POINT?!

my baby was super tired,

and we'd no choice but to take a nap,

and all these while, we're put in the lobby, with ONE so-called welcomed drink,

waited waited waited and waited, till 5PM, with continuous checking with the front desk,

the reason? oh, it's peak season, peak hour, staff not enough, bla bla bla...

see!!!! these are not my problem, a paying customer's problem,

it's your bloody management problem, where you failed to see, it's weekend, if not festive weekend, and you failed to manage your staff, is that my problem??

yes, that, because of your stupidity, and failure in management, you made it my problem,

we're all so exhausted and tired, waiting in the lobby...

took a quick nap, till 6.30PM, went down to the pool?

ya, it's a nice pool, with lots of kids features... but them??

baby was simply too tired, and failed to enjoy the swim!

see, this year, I wanted to go there again, but then, thinking of waiting till 5PM,

I loose my motivation, to pay RM600 a night, or more, for nothing... THERE!!!!

something's seriously wrong with our hotel groups in our country!!!

seriously seriously wrong!

Wrong Wind! (Part 2)

ya... I was scolding her mad,

and part 2 being,

she arranged her chairs and stools in such a way that it just blocked the walk way, (she likes to build train!)

I told her, to put those chairs and stools to the other side of the living room,

guess what she responded??

she said, "I don't know how!",

I was so so so so furious...

and that, I kept quiet for a while,

then I returned to the "scene", still holding the crying gabriel! (see! I was very frustrated, as this boy kept crying, and I gotta carry him! and that, she started to mess up the place, AGAIN!)

and I started to shift those chairs and stools with my leg... ~(*+﹏+*)~

and it got to the point, I really wanted to kick those things away,

as well as kicking away my frustration and desperation!

then,

one of her tub, (those planetpopcorn tubs) that I kicked,

she started to cry (again!), and said, "my toy! my toy!"

I saw that she's being quite pitiful,

so, I used my hands, ya! gotta bend down, with another whining baby in my arm... (you can imagine that?)

and put the tub back to its form, ie. tub cover closed tight!

and moved it back properly,

then, I asked, "are you happy now?",

ya... she cooled down after a little while...

but I told her that, I was still upset with her,

and that, I actually said, "I don't know is not an answer!",

again, guess what she responded?

she said, "I don't know is an answer!",

yes, it kinda "slapped" me awake!

yes, "I don't know" IS an answer, somehow!

she's right!

err...

I think, after this, I kept quiet...

and kinda... got less angrier with the day...

she's right!

sigh...!

Wrong Wind!

ya, super wrong wind, since last night,

well, I guess, gabriel's teething, that's why, it's such a wakeful night, for him, and mochiron, for me! •﹏•

see!! the wakefulness was sooooooooooooo bad, till I carried him, he didn't like, kept struggling, then, I'd no choice, I brought him out to the living room and put him on his bouncing net,

since he saw that, he's out, so, he's kinda happy and settled a little bit,

I was just worried that, he'll wake up his father and sister... that'd be even worse for me!

so, I bounced him bounced him bounced till he appeared to be drowsy again,

and I brought him back to the room and sleep...

that's last night!

and the whole of today, he's basically very fussy and unsettled! ≧﹏≦

soooooo difficult to please him!!!

that's the start of the problem,

and THAT gave me a bad start of the day,

so, today, after getting up, when I changed baby's pyjamas and diaper, I saw her having a HUGE pile of poop in her diaper, smeared all over the diaper, nearly 90% of diaper was covered by her smeared poop!!!!!!!!

immediately, it exploded!

it happened that, the part-time cleaner came, and I conveniently ditched her on her changing pad, and she also, exploded, cos, she knew that I was soooooooo upset and unhappy, the moment, I let her "GO", she was like, cried soooooooooooooo loud..

and the next 20 min. is basically war between mother and daughter...

she continuously shouted, jumped, cried, and said, "I don't want to cry, I don't want to cry!", but she still cried, sooooooo loud, and continuous,

it made me even more upset and agitated!

I told her to stop crying,

and she just couldn't stop, whatever I said, (of course, in very angry and loud tone too!!! and all sorts of bad words came out, mostly, "if you continue to cry like this, I'd rather go to die!") was provoking her, to cry even further, even more, even louder! and more dramatic...

till I said, I don't want to talk to her anymore, cos it didn't help,

and from "I don't want to cry!", became, "mama! talk to me, I want mama talk to me!"

but like I said, whatever I said, just provoked her further... ≧﹏≦

and?? gabriel? from crying and cranky mode, cos, the sister cried soooooooo dramatically, he actually stopped and watched!

damn! X﹏X

everything stopped, when she started to change her line a little bit,

she said, "I want mama hug me!", cry cry cry!!!

so, I angrily told her, "you want mama hug, you can come near to mama!",

so, she came, and she hugged my legs, and I carried her!

though I was still angry,

THEN, it switched!

now, gabriel took back his turn to cry, so, I put her down to the boang chair!

luckily, this time she was quiet!

maybe she's already regained her "sanity"

THE GOOD THINGS ABOUT KIDS IS...

after 3 minutes, or even less, she's forgotten our "war", and started to talk to me, and smiled, and danced, and played...

and me?

shamed to be an adult, right??? memory's too good!

that's why, I've always thought, our babies, are here to teach us lessons...

just today, saw this on my facebook's subscription, dr. mercola...

isn't that sweet?

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new. – Rajneesh, Indian mystic, guru, and spiritual teacher

"embarrassing" question/comment???

I was reading on babycenter's "embarrassing questions in public by pre-schooler,

that, I recalled one incident...

it's not a question, rather,

but... a "statement", or comment made by her...

when...

when...

we came back to our apartment, down at the lobby...

we saw a man with his pet dog, obviously, he's just walked his dog...

as usual, we adult, looked, kept quiet, and continue with our "journey" back to our unit...

just upon entering the lift,

suddenly baby blurted out this,

"why the dog so ugly??"

then, giggle giggle...

lift doors were closing...

and he was like... "hey, madeleine..."

since doors were already closed, we're already on our way up,

we laughed, but then, told her that, she shouldn't make such type of comment THAT loud...

ok...

maybe we should educate her that, the dog IS not ugly...

but anyway, I thought she's cute and aiya... just like any other kids, who make cute/funny/(sometimes rude) comment as such...

however, coming out from a kid...

just kinda cute!

of social network interface... -_-

ok... let me clarify, I'm a regular facebook user,

thought I also get on to twitter and google+, but then, facebook's the main "hangout" area...

but then, on the apps interface wise...

hm... I've to say,

google+ is kinda getting more attractive,

at least, it works for me,

the better one is their mobile apps interface,

maybe I'm kinda bored with the facebook's blue,

and google+ gives me a little bit of other colours, green, red, and so on...

twitter??

well... in a way, twitter is easy to use sometimes...

"cleaner", easier to respond, that's all... easy huh?

haha!

"Yankee-kun to Megane-chan"~~~^_^

ya! "Yankee-kun to Megane-chan", ie. the bad boy and miss specky! ^_^

adapted from japanese manga... (of course, nowadays... hardly find any originally written script from the team!)

anyway,

I must shout!

I must say!

I must tell!

that, I so so so so so love this show...

first of all, of course it's because I really like Narimiya Hiroki,

just that, this show has been sitting in my harddisk for quite some time... ^_^,

ok... I like Narimiya Hiroki, but I don't know how this show is, so, I "procrastinated" in watching it!

next...

I first seen Riisa (Naka Riisa) in BlackJack SP,

my first impression, hm... she's not like the typical japanese girl look...

then, I saw here again in "Kimi no Shizuku", with Kamenashi Kazuya...

oops... I didn't finish the show... I used to like Kamenashi, but then... the "liking" didn't last quite long,

when I saw Riisa in there, I was thinking... ooi!! she's quite kawaii! but then, I didn't recall immediately she's that "serious" lady in BlackJackSP!! but then, of course, being the queen of japanese drama, of course, I then recognise her...

not until very lately,

I came across a very happy (yes, I was laughing most of the time when watching it!) dorama, LUCKY 7!

I watched it for Matsumoto Jun, for Matsushima Nanako, but then, I love the show absolutely, for almost every one of them in LUCKY 7!!

I loved the fight scenes between Shinda and Shuntaro!

and I like the way they argued with each other in the agency!

anyway, then I saw Riisa again, cute! <:-3

she acted like a very "spoilt" girl, had a pet dog (she forbid people from treating her dog as a dog!) and she wears expensive clothes... haha!

and it's actually because of Riisa, I went back to dig out my "Yankee-kun to Megane-chan", yes! though I seriously like Narimiya Hiroki since "Orange Days", but then, cos, he can really act in "funny" shows, so... I don't really like... watch every shows that he's in...!

anyway!!

never regret watching it!

then, I told him about this show,

I told him that, I love seeing Hana disturbing Shinagawa,

he responded by saying that I'm very "comical",

I then told him that ya...

it's not that I don't like love story anymore,

it's just that... for many years, maybe ever since I'm a mom,

I hate watching love stories... particularly those love stories for grownups... those stories are boring, stressful, and most of the time... depressing!! serious!!!!!!

but watching this type of "puppy love" kinda love stories, is so refreshing, and amusing most of the time, and yes, I love it...

in the beginning of the show, I thought, it's just another similar type of dorama like "Gokusen", ie. Hana = Rumiko!! oh!! you know, both wear specs, and both are damn good fighter, kinda legendary! and again, both use the specs as their "mask", to be a normal girl!!!

that's why, he said, my view about "love" and relationship is very "comical",

see!!! the reason why I like it, it's because, it's pretty simple,

you like a person, you let him/her know, that's all...

there's nothing to be ashamed about...

but in the grownups world, yuck!! very complicated... ahem... that's why, being a Kimura Takuya's fan, I still have not watched "The Moonlight Lover", the one he's with Ling Chi Ling! ^_^ gomen ne~ Kimura-kun! (kakakakakakaka!!! yuek!)

and ya, I particularly like Riisa in this show, soooooooooooo blooooooooooooooooody kawaii ne~~~

and especially I like her voice, ya, I've already thought that, she's cute voice, when I saw her in LUCKY 7,

but then, this show, "Yankee-kun to Megane-chan", is even better! cute to the max!

anyway, watch watch watch it!!

kakakakakaka!!!

oh ya, by the way,

when I see Riisa,

her right cheek reminded me of Takeuchi Yuko,

and her left cheek reminded me of Fukatsu Eri, haha!

both are my favourite, and yes, Riisa's smile, if shown on the angle from her left cheek, with that "mole" on the cheek, is really very similar to the one of Fukatsu Eri... ^_^ just a note!

"Simple handbook for being a Mom"... 《 妈妈的心得 》

saw this online,

ok... it's a note for myself, if not for you... ^_^

《 妈妈的心得 》

当妈妈其实真的很简单，不需太多学问，太多道理，太多的话。

只要静静的用心的专心和孩子谈话，多陪伴孩子去做他们想要的人事物，煮些妈妈的拿手好菜给孩子吃。

孩子们就很开心和满足啦！

and I'll just do a very simple translation here... * since this is my english blog... ^_^

being a mom...

"in fact, it's pretty simple (the writer did not use the word "easy", kaka!) to be a mom,

one doesn't need to be very knowledgeable, or full of reasoning, explanation, coaching, or grandmother stories to tell,

being a mom, you just have to really pay attention to what your kids wanna say, and chitchat with them as much as possible,

spend your time, to do the things that THEY want to do,

preparing some homecook meals for them,

that'll be enough to keep them happy and contented!"

ok... to a certain extent, I fully agree and want to be one!

and therefore, I kept this note... ^_^V

There's a hole in my Bucket!

she heard this nursery rhymes first in my ipod, ie. iOS's apps...

then, she heard it again, (another version) on an album, we played for her in our car...

somehow she was "attracted" to the tunes, and start singing, (without the correct lyrics, but she got the tunes right!)

so, I told her, I'll get the lyrics for her, and teach her how to sing correctly...

there, that's the lyrics,

There's a hole in the bucket, dear Liza, dear Liza,

There's a hole in the bucket, dear Liza, a hole.

Then fix it, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

Then fix it, dear Henry, dear Henry, fix it.

With what shall I fix it, dear Liza, dear Liza?

With what shall I fix it, dear Liza, with what?

With straw, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

With straw, dear Henry, dear Henry, with straw.

The straw is too long, dear Liza, dear Liza,

The straw is too long, dear Liza, too long,

Then cut it, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

Then cut it, dear Henry, dear Henry, cut it.

With what shall I cut it, dear Liza, dear Liza?

With what shall I cut it, dear Liza, with what?

With an axe, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

With an axe, dear Henry, dear Henry, with an axe.

The axe is too dull, dear Liza, dear Liza,

The axe is too dull, dear Liza, too dull.

Then sharpen it, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

Then sharpen it, dear Henry, dear Henry, hone it.

On what shall I sharpen it, dear Liza, dear Liza?

On what shall I sharpen it, dear Liza, on what?

On a stone, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

With a stone, dear Henry, dear Henry, a stone.

The stone is too dry, dear Liza, dear Liza,

The stone is too dry, dear Liza, too dry.

Well wet it, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

Well wet it, dear Henry, dear Henry, wet it.

With what shall I wet it, dear Liza, dear Liza?

With what shall I wet it, dear Liza, with what?

try water, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

try water, dear Henry, dear Henry, water.

In what shall I fetch it, dear Liza, dear Liza?

In what shall I fetch it, dear Liza, in what?

In a bucket, dear Henry, dear Henry, dear Henry,

In a bucket, dear Henry, dear Henry, bucket.

There's a hole in my bucket, dear Liza, dear Liza,

There's a hole in my bucket, dear Liza, a hole.

it's a funny song... if you ask me, even the tune's funny...

then, after I sing and get the sequence right,

I was telling him, that, after singing this song,

if I'm the guy Henry,

I'll want to scold Liza, "damn woman!! moron! that's why I tell you THAT there's a hole in my bucket LA!!!" haha!!!!!!

similar song to this type of sequential nursery rhymes are...

(you can go check it out!)

"hush little baby!",

and "farmer in the dell!"

well... it's quite "challenging" even for me to pick it up... cos, you gotta get the sequence right...

kekekeke...

natural born mama...

Nope, I'm not… as I told him, I'm not a kid person, and I'm not a woman who loves kids…

Yes, my mother was one, I guess, he's one, but I'm not…

Lately, I've been thinking, I grew up playing games, board games, and some sort,

Do I still like playing them now??

Is there any games that I'll still love to play, and that I can play with my baby???

Yes, she's been really bored lately, especially when hanging out with me,

Cos, I'm not a kid person, and I'm not a game person, ever since I stepped into y 20's, I've been a PC person, that's all…

When I asked baby, "do you know what's mama's hobbies?"

She actually answered very accurately, "computer!",

Shame, and happy at the same time!! Haha!!!

I'm not a born mother, loaded with abundant of motherly love…

I'm not… just not!

It's not that I wanna find some excuse for myself, it's just that, I think, I'd better reckon that's just me…

That I don't have to force myself..

Rule of being a "happy" mother, no. 1, love yourself, ^_^

Yes… that's why, I've been persuading myself that I am just like that… just like that…

I still dance, and sing and read books to baby, that's all I can do…

Cos, I'm more of a "sit down" person… any activities that need me to get my butt up, and jump and run… ooh!!!! That's beyond my liking…

I tried to bring her downstairs to the playground, to walk around the pool for two days,

I was so so proud of myself, that's all.. But then, I guess, she feels that those activities are not my cup of tea, and that, she also didn't quite enjoy it, and that, she never really bugged me of taking her downstairs if I don't offer…

That, I see that, she doesn't quite hanging out outdoor, with me, particularly, so, I called off the idea…

I'd rather stay at home, stay indoor and spend time with her,

Sometimes, read books, sometimes, dance, sometimes sing, and sometimes, listen to some audiobooks…

And most of the time, we watch TV together, my shows, not hers…

The thing is, she actually watches, maybe she's forced to, or maybe she thinks mama likes it, so she must like it too…

Anyway, so, I've to be cautious in what I'm watching,

A little bit 12+ rated, I'll watch it on my tablet,

A little bit "dark", I'll watch it on my tablet… that's the use of my tablet, and I love it…

Those that I watch on TV, I guess, it's pretty ok… th ough, sometimes, there're fight scenes, or light kiss scenes, and for sure, she asked a lot of questions…

So, again I think, it's ok… sometimes she watches, sometimes, she goes to play her toys…

And I'll entertain her when she offer her "food" to me… that's all…

Comes about watching my TV shows… yes, if I you ask me, I'll say, best is still japanese drama,

Especially those showns during prime time…

Those shows are not too bad, not too dark, and not too "SX"… ^_^

And she'll ask questions, and I'll try my best to answer, the kid way…

I guess, I'm just doing what I'm best as, and I guess, she just like it this way, or at least, she's comfortable this way,

Especially when it comes to those shows, with kids, with school children, she sure will watch with me…

Well… I was telling myself,

Maybe this is a way to teach her about life…

In my opinion,

There're a lot of things/experiences in life, that I can't possibly teach her, and she can't possibly really need to experience it…

It's shown in the show, and I explained to her,

For eg. Bad things, bad friends, bad consequences,

For eg. A little boy cooked for his mom, the mom was happy, cried… I explained,

For eg. A man ate some food, thought about his past, cried, cos, when he's that small, the mother was never around, and the fridge was forever empty… haha!!! I then hope she'll appreciate that, I'm staying home with her… ^_^

For eg. I watched "SCHOOL!!" just a while ago, ya, she was watching with me, and yes, there's topic about friends, about learning, about family… so, I thought they're quite nice…

And again, I thought, japanese drama, in the end, it's all about love, it's all about bright side… so, I thought it's suitable…

Again, why I thought it's suitable, cos, I also just watched "lives of ommissions" lately, TVB show, cops and mobs… if you ask me? I think, THIS is less suitable for kids… haha!

See? that's why I like to watch jap show so much!! ^o^