growth spurt again?

This is for yesterday, ie. Friday,

Gosh, I was tired, yes, I was tired,

Baby's cranky whole day,

I can't tell her, "give me a minute", “等一下”, "wait for a while",

Immediately, she'll start to cry…

Just today itself, there're 2 sessions of crying…

And I lost my temper, I felt it, I really lost it, so, I sms'ed him to ask him to come back earlier to takeover…

I nearly burst into tears, yes, at the verge, I could feel it…

I told her, "I do anything you cry, I don't do anything you also cry, then, you just cry, cry till tomorrow, if you think you can achieve anything you want, by crying!"…

The first session, she cried, cos, she saw me doing launderette, and she wanted me to carry her, I said, "等一下"… then, she cried… I told her "等一下" again, she cried louder,

I then chose to ignore her, she cried… sitting there, putting fingers in the mouth, started to put her head down on the floor, like super 淒涼…

I walked away… I told her, she can continue crying if she wants to…

And yes, she continued…

I picked her up, kissed her, wiped her sweat, yes, it's a bloody hot day, maybe that's why she's cranky, and that's why I'm impatient, I don’t know…

Then, I changed her diaper, and cleaned her, changed her shirt, and brought her for a nap…

We got up, I fed her some fruits, my newly made cupcakes, and then, I told her, "mama's going to cook, you let mama cook ok?"

Hm… she didn't really nod her head, knowing her, I know she knows what I'm saying,

Cos, normally she'll nod her head, but this time she didn't..

So, I spoke to her again, "mama know you know what mama mean, that's why you didn't nod your head?"…

Yes, that's why, I didn't have a peaceful dinner-making tonight…

That's why I lost my temper…

That's why I called him back…

I let her play with water at the kitchen sink, thinking that, she'll give me some peace…

The first time I put her there, she insisted me to on the water tap, so that she played with the water, I didn't…

So, I thought, give her a small basin of water (in her plastic basin) and let her play…

Initially she's happy, but later, she started splashing water everywhere, I told her not to,

YES, SHE KNEW WHAT I'M SAYING,

She did it again, again, and again,

I lost my temper, put her down from the stepping stool, which she stood next to the kitchen sink… yes, it's new thing for her, she likes it…

She then started to cry…

Wanted to climb up the stool by herself, couldn't,

I sms'ed him that time…

She started to look into my trash, which I hanged at the kitchen cabinet door…

Gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I saw her, so pity, ok, I cooled myself down, I kept telling myself, "cool down, cool down!", I don't want to endup like some crazy mom, being abusive, totally lost oneself… in the future…

I picked her again, kissed her again, smiled at her,

Yes, she knows the game very well, I guess, then, smiled back…

Then, I told her, "I let you play one more time, no more splashing, if you splash, you'll end up on the floor, don't try, you know what I'll do…", then, I gave her 2 ladders…

Ya… in a way,

That's why I said she knows what I'm saying…

In a way, yes, she played the water… now, within the kitchen sink boundary…

Sometimes, there's a little water splashed out, onto the floor, it's because she didn't know her action - by swaying the ladder, still with the water inside, will cause that…

That's ok, cos, she didn't do it tentatively…

Oh then… he came back…

Took over…

I felt DROP DEAD TIRED…

Yes, physically, and mentally…

Gosh!!

Fruity for lunch???

I like reading articles related to health, and I've been following those healthy website, or health blog, and so on…

Then, one day, we decided to eat more fruit, yes, who doesn't know, fruit's important…,

I wanted to have more fruit, ever since baby's born, but somehow, the papaya sits in the fridge till it rots, or the guava eventually gotta be put into the bin, and so on…

Ie. couldn't find the right time to eat the fruit, or,

Couldn't find the right "excuse" to cut the fruit and eat the fruit,

Sad huh?? Yep, damn sad!!!!!!!!!!!

But this time, we're serious,

Cos a friend sent us an article,

Ok, that saying… I've come across a couple of time before, just never really take it seriously,

Ie. take fruit while empty stomach, you'll be benefited much much more, than taking it after the meal…

For whatever reason, some pros and some cons,

Some said it's true, some said it's just a myth…

However, we think, why not?

So, that weekeend, we got a lot of different type of fruits for ourselves…

And ever since, our lunch, for baby and I, have been fruits, then, topping up with some bread!!!

I'm going to tell you what baby's been eating for lunch, during weekdays, you'll probably faint!!

Anyway, yep…

Normally I'll keep some food (just the simpler version) during dinner, for eg. Rice with some vege, and soup, put them in the fridge, next day,

Steamed, and eat…,

Cos, I don't want baby, nor myself, to have to wait for the food to be cooked, for just a quick and simple lunch…

Most of the time, baby doesn't finish the food, ok, I know, even I myself think that, the food, after being "simplified", it really tasted a little bit bland!

Therefore, normally I'll endup worrying if she'll have enough food, then, I'll top up with some cheese and etc.,

Ever since our diet plan changed,

I'm not sure if it's all psychological reason… I in fact feel good about it…

First, we've fresh food, and fresh fruit,

Second, baby eats more, when it's fruits, of course, it's sweet, and easier to eat…

Then if the fruit's not enough, bread, she likes it too…

Well… he's worried about the topping that'll normally goes with the bread, ie. butter, jam, "kaya", etc.

So, so far… I've not used any of these, for health reason…

I've made french toast, lightly pan-fried, with egg… yes, we don't avoid eggs…

And that's all…

One "trick" we learnt from melbourne about eating french toast is,

We actually had it with ketchup and in fact, it does taste nice with ketchup… hehe…

Maybe, next time you should try it…

With maple syrup, again, it's some sugary product, I try to minimize it…

Oh! Also, it's wholemeal bread…

Good huh? ^_^

this thing about blogging...

I know everybody blogs for a reason,

Some blog for $$$ and some… blog for the sake of writing, or sharing info, or sharing stories, etc…

As for me,

Whenever there're friends, or acquaintences who come confide in me,

And if they need some help, in terms of life… or problem-dealing,

One of the thing that I'll recommend, is to write,

Just like writing diary…

I blog, I blog it's because I write diary, and I just want to bring it to the next level…

Do I think of earning money with blogging?

Yes, I did, I mean, I DID…

In the end, I just don't think much about it anymore,

Well, if there's money, there is, if there isn't it doesn’t matter, I don't want that, to change the origin, and the nature of the way I write, or the way I share my stories…

To me, writing, or blogging, is kind of a self-help thing…

Yes, "self-help" is the term that I'd like to use…

One example, of mine, if not others,

Is that, I rarely blog (I mean rarely, unless, there's some underlying message that I really want to reach out to others!) about bad stuff, yes, I may blog about my mood, being down, or somebody step on my toes, and bla bla bla…

But I don't keep my rant, or "bad mouth" on-going, maybe it's just one-off, or two-off…

In that way,

I see blogging as something… a platform for me to share my happy life, interesting life, and my positive thinking…

It does help me to be more positive, ie. self-help…

Even if I do rant about some bad stuff, for eg. Super dirty washrooms in our country,

It's meant for further improvement, or more social conscience, or…

Yes, to those people who use public facilities, to be a little bit more self-help, rather than still behaving like social etiquette-less idiots!

Anyway… yes, this thing about blogging…

I'm not sure besides those who blog for $$$,

I mean, besides $$$ and business…

If those bloggers do benefit from blogging…

As for me, sure I did, and I still do…

AND I even make some new online friends…

Ah… haha!! Being an at-home mom, I don't really go out and meet with new people anymore,

Even if I do, I don't have the luxury to maintain a "relationship" with these new people, get it??

But yes, blogging does help…

While you're "leaving comments" on other bloggers website, normally you also do want to share your blog sites with them… give and take, and there you go, new friends…

If you ask me, "friends" you call them???

Yes, to a certain extent,

And to a certain extent, you probably really know them better than the colleague, or your next door neighbour, who's just right next to you…

Cos, in their blog, they really share their bit and pieces of life…

Their worries, their thoughts, their ups, and their downs…

And yes, in a way,

I really do admire, and respect these bloggers, for not being too "stingy" in sharing their lives with others…

And sometimes, by sharing… others are benefitted too, then, vice versa…

For self-help?

Yes, write, by writing, we kinda recollect our "congested" mind… arggh… too cloudy, too many things in mind…

Writing, helps…

If you're willing to share, then, blog… ^_^

Let's get moving… Move it! Move it! Move my butt!!

See… I like to plant my butt on the couch, in front of the TV,

If I'm allowed to…

And I like to plant my butt on the work chair, in front of my PC,

If I'm allowed to…

But then, I'm not allowed to do all that, anymore…

Not anymore…

I guess, it's God who sent baby to give me the whip,

So that, I won't be a potato couch, so that, I'll be "always on the move", to keep a healthy lifestyle…

Yes, God wants me to stay healthy, that's what He's trying to tell me…

When I was using my PC, during the day, if she sees,

She'll whine, and she'll come near me, to disturb, and make sure that, I won't have a peaceful surfing time…

It's ok…

So, I thought, I'll turn myself to the TV…

Start watching some japanese dorama, which is piling up in my digital storage, backdated 2-3 years ago… ^_^ amazing, right??

Then, one day, I realised some changes…

Which, I've been living with it, for nearly 1 month, if not 3 weeks…

Yes, a slight change, that I nearly missed…

Whenever I started to plant my butt down,

Baby started to demand for milk, and you know that I'm still nursing her, 100%...

That means, I need to ahem… bear my precious assets, almost all the time…

During the day,

And during the night…

So, I thought, there must be something wrong…

In fact, it striked me when I thought about, "it seems like I've been nursing baby at a shockingly frequent basis, during the day, and during the night…", hm…

Normally,

Normally… during the day, I only feed baby while she's going into her nap (yes, she still needs me!!) and after she gets up from her nap,

Then, if dinner will be late, another feed,

No more than that… the rest of the time, it's food, food, food…

But now?? Like what?

I feed her nearly round the clock,

Cos, I'm sitting there, doing nothing, (yes, watching TV, baby!!!)

And I guess, she gathers that, as long as I'm sitting down, I'll have to feed her,

That's how she connects…

I didn't realize all these, till that phrase striked me, as said…

Therefore?

No PC,

No TV!!

That's what I've decided…

I just can't sit down!!

As long as I'm on the move,

As long as I'm seemed as busy, busy doing something,

She's ok, in fact, as long as I'm BUSY!!!

She's more than happy to play the toys, to explore stuff by herself…

There's no way, I can expect her, to play with her toys, or, do some activities, on her own,

WHEN I'M WATCHING TV,

OR SURFING THE NET!!

Sob sob…

Yes, sob for a while,

When I realized, it actually kinda do me good,

I'm fine with it, and I really really gather, it's God's message to me,

Ie. move, move, move!

Always on the move!

mama & baby talk...

I know I'm not a super mama,

And I know, my baby's neither a super baby… (ie. an angelic baby, by some definition… though, I really do want to hug her all the time, and kiss her, and tell her that, "you're the best!")

Some days…

As a at-home mom, you don't expect me to be always cheerful, always relax…

Just like any other adult, or, just like any other baby… ^_^

Both baby and I, do have "bad" days, or technically… moody days…

On these days…

You'll hear me scolding her, or lecturing her…

Yes, I know, talking to babies/kids, you've to keep it short and simple,

I do remind myself ALL THE TIME, but sometimes… I'm the lengthy type…

Especially with a baby, who hardly "communicates" with me in a dialogue form yet…

Then, as the by-product, you'll sure hear baby's crying, and to a worsen extent, shouting!!!

Ya… most of the time, she'll just whine, and maybe a soft/small cry…

But sometimes, these "innocent" acts, will turn into loud cry, and then, everything turns upside down, haywired…

That's the not-so-usual scene during the weekdays, when he's at work, when baby and I are at home… alone…

At the end of the day…

I mean, this sort of moody days,

I'll normally feel exhausted…

Yes, I'll end up with bad and tired mood…

As for baby? Oh!!! It's good to be A baby… you can cry at this moment, and you can play and forget whatever evil things you've done, or you've come across the previous moment… isn't that great?

If she's not physically tired, then, she's just fine…

Only left me, her mother, exhausted, and maybe a little bit "fed up"!! (if you get what I mean…)

Oh well… but all in all it's ok…

Though I may feel tired, and really don't feel like doing anything, say anything, watch anything… besides clicking on my mouse, for no purpose…

The moment I see my sweet little baby's smile, (oops!! Isn't she the one who just make my day XXXXXXXXX???)

Ya… you get energized…

Though you know that, the moment she starts doing something else that will "unplease" you, this mood will start again…

But mm…

"nevermind", is what I tell myself…

At the end of the day…

Sharing: Healthy Living… fruits and cold drinks...

Friend forwarded the below email to me… which I thought, it's vital to share… ^_^

Key notes: 1. eat fruits before food, 2. eat fruits as fruits, instead of juice, 3. no cold drink during/after meal…

Since I've graying-hair problem, I guess, I shall be the first to really revamp my fruit-eating style…

To start: breakfast… ^_^V

Eating Fruit - this opened my eyes.

Dr Stephen Mak is a friend of mine at the BSF course. He told me he treats terminal ill cancer patients by "un-orthodox" way and many patients recovered. He explains to me before he is using solar energy to clear the illnesses of his patients.  He believes on natural healing in the body against illnesses. See the article below.

Thanks for the email on fruits and juices. It is one of the strategies to heal cancer. As of late, my success rate in curing cancer is about 80%. Cancer patients shouldn't die. The cure for cancer is already found. It is whether you believe it or not? I am sorry for the hundreds of cancer patients who die under the conventional treatments.. Very few can live for 5 years under the convenctional treatments and most live for only about 2 to 3 years. The conventional treatments do not make any difference because most cancer patients also live for about 2 to 3 years without undergoing any treatment. It is difficult to cure those cancer patients  who have undergone chemo and radiotherapy as their cells are toxic and weak. When there is a relapse, the cancer will spread very fast as the resistance is poor. 

Thanks and God bless. 

Dr Stephen Mak  

It's long but very informative 

We all think eating fruits means just buying fruits, cutting it and just popping it into our mouths. It's not as easy as you think. It's important to know how andwhen to eat. 

What is the correct way of eating fruits? 

IT MEANS NOT EATING FRUITS AFTER YOUR MEALS! * FRUITS SHOULD BE EATEN ON ANEMPTY STOMACH.

If you eat fruit like that, it will play a major role to detoxify your system, supplying you with a great deal of energy for weight loss and other life activities. 

FRUIT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT FOOD.Let's say you eat two slices of bread and then a slice of fruit. The slice of fruit is ready to go straight through the stomach into the intestines, but it is prevented from doing so. 

In the meantime the whole meal rots and ferments and turns to acid.. The minute the fruit comes into contact with the food in the stomach and digestive juices, the entire mass of food begins to spoil.... 

So please eat your fruits on an empty stomach or before your meals! You have heard people complaining — every time I eat watermelon I burp, when I eat durian my stomach bloats up, when I eat a banana I feel like running to the toilet, etc — actually all this will not arise if you eat the fruit on an empty stomach. The fruit mixes with the putrifying other food and produces gas and hence you will bloat! 

Graying hair, balding, nervous outburst, and dark circles under the eyes all these will NOThappen if you take fruits on an empty stomach. 

There is no such thing as some fruits, like orange and lemon are acidic, because all fruits become alkaline in our body, according to Dr. Herbert Shelton who did research on this matter. If you have mastered the correct way of eating fruits, you have the Secret of beauty, longevity, health, energy, happiness and normal weight. 

When you need to drink fruit juice - drink only freshfruit juice, NOT from the cans. Don't even drink juice that has been heated up. Don't eat cooked fruits because you don't get the nutrients at all. You only get to taste. Cooking destroys all the vitamins. 

But eating a whole fruit is better than drinking the juice.. If you should drink the juice, drink it mouthful by mouthful slowly, because you must let it mix with your saliva before swallowing it. You can go on a 3-day fruit fast to cleanse your body. Just eat fruits and drink fruit juice throughout the 3 days and you will be surprised when your friends tell you how radiant you look! 

KIWI: Tiny but mighty. This is a good source of potassium, magnesium, vitamin E & fiber. Its vitamin C content is twice that of an orange. 

APPLE: An apple a day keeps the doctor away? Although an apple has a low vitamin C content, it has antioxidants & flavonoids which enhances the activity of vitamin C thereby helping to lower the risks of colon cancer, heart attack & stroke. 

STRAWBERRY: Protective Fruit. Strawberries have the highest total antioxidant power among major fruits & protect the body from cancer-causing, blood vessel-clogging free radicals. 

ORANGE : Sweetest medicine. Taking 2-4 oranges a day may help keep colds away, lower cholesterol, prevent & dissolve kidney stones as well as lessens the risk of colon cancer. 

WATERMELON: Coolest thirst quencher. Composed of 92% water, it is also packed with a giant dose of glutathione, which helps boost our immune system. They are also a key source of lycopene — the cancer fighting oxidant. Other nutrients found in watermelon are vitamin C &  Potassium. 

GUAVA & PAPAYA:Top awards for vitamin C. They are the clear winners for their high vitamin C content. Guava is also rich in fiber, which helps prevent constipation. Papaya is rich in carotene; this is good for your eyes.

Drinking Cold water after a meal = Cancer! Can u believe this?? For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this 'sludge' reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal. 

A serious note about heart attacks HEART ATTACK PROCEDURE': (THIS IS NOT A JOKE!) Women should know that not every heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting. Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line. You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack. Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms. Sixty percent of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware. The more we know the better chance we could survive.

A cardiologist says if everyone who gets this mail sends it to 10 people, you can be sure that we'll save at least one life. 

Read this....It could save your life!!

bottle or breasts? ... from a lazy person point of view...

Ok… since I'll be facing this thing called "weaning" a few months down the road, I've started to think about bottles, yes, bottles for baby, or no bottles for baby, or what bottle for baby… @_@

Seriously, I truly enjoy being a breastfeeding mom to my lovely baby…

I've always thought, "attachment parenting", in the end, it's me who's "attached", not baby, maybe… ^_^

Bottle or breasts??

If you ask me,

And being such a lazy person, yes, if I've a choice, I'll rather not do too much work…

Lazy~~~

I'll definitely opt for breasts…

In the middle of the night, especially…

Whenever she needs "anything", whenever I'm half-asleep…

I just "pop" out my assets, "nah!"…

Then, I go back to my sleep, when is she finishing?

Seriously, I don't know…

If she'll just kinda get up again and continue to suckle?

Seriously again, I don't know, and I don't  bother…

I know, a lot of "experts" will tell you that, "no!! This shouldn't be that way, else…", but who cares??

I get my sleep, she gets her "food", that's it…

She happy, I happy…

When I think of the fact that, I really really do have to wean her off my breasts, A FEW MONTHS DOWN THE ROAD,

To exaggerate a little bit, wow!! I cold-sweat!

Ya… imagine, the middle-of-the-night, getting your lazy bone up, to make milk, even though we may be creative enough to come out with the shortest short-cut to minimize our movement, WE HAVE TO GET UP!!!!!

Even for myself, some nights, when I sleep through the night…

I also have problem giving myself enough water to think, cos, I NEED TO GET UP!! Which I just can't!!!

See!!!!!!

if this can be included in my resume… ^_^

The other day, his friend mentioned that, somebody introduced him about BT, ya, BT the bittorrent p2p thing..

My response was, "I've 6 years experience!"

And in my mind was, "wa, now only you know??"

Just now, I started to wonder, what if this can be included in my resume, haha!!

Then, I'm considered one of the pioneers I guess…

We're traveling back then,

I've lived through the era, when the main seeder was convicted, bla bla bla… (if you know which country I'm talking about)

Then, I've lived through the period, which ever country that we went, I need to follow up the p2p news very very closely, IF ONE DAY, IT'LL BECOME REALLY ILLEGAL!! (ok, it IS illegal…)

I've switched from BT to the donkey then back to BT, and now, BT and donkey…

But I guess, nowadays, people have even more choice, like pps, like some youku thing…

Well… consider the origin of these "softwares", I don't bother, I don't dare to install anything from there…

Though in my earlier days, the main "clients" were from there!!!

Now??

There're definitely more choice, and I'm pretty contented with the choice I've decided to stick to… ^_^

Like what I've just updated him…

Of late, after I've quit my job, then, I've managed to clear all my "backlog" of the japanese dorama, ^_^ again, if you know what I'm talking about…

It's about 2 years of backlog, ok, I managed to do it within a few months, after upgrading my subscribed bandwidth,

To finish watching them??

Oh!!! I'm sure, I don't need 2 years, at the rate that I'm going… kekeke...

the force! (of toys... of rides...)

see...

i don't want my baby to grow up as a kid, who'll always have to buy something whenever she visits a toy store,

but i also do not intend to make my baby, to have a miserable baby's life, thinking that, she can't have any toys... ie. we'll just have to kinda "justify" what we'll buy for her...

always set a guideline, for her, and for us...

but then... without encouragement, nor discouragement...

babies, including mine, are all drawn to toys, and amusement rides... (sigh...)

i guess... i guess... all those creators/inventors of toys/rides, have definitely studied children psychology well...

like i said, without encouragement, nor discouragement...

my baby...

especially lately, after she's grown up even more, ie. more alert and aware of what's happening around her...

she's kinda attracted to toys naturally... for eg. fluffy toys... and... in her case, toy cars, toy trucks!!! @_@ ya, don't ask me why... maybe it's because she's seen him reading his favourite "top gear" magazines so often, that, she recognizes the shapes of those cars/trucks/etc.

even though she's not getting any yet (cos, we're not getting one for her yet, cos, she doesn't quite know what she really wants, or rather... she kinda wants almost everything, in the toy department...) but we do let her carry a soft fluffy teddy bear for a round, before we checkout...

look at her eyes!!! glow!!!! ya... that's when i gather... a naked truth...

ALL KIDS LOVE TOYS!!

when we walked pass a mini indoor amusement parks, with ferry wheel, merry-go-round,

she excitedly pointed at those rides, and kinda shouted!!! (not that i understood what she's saying, maybe she said, "i want a ride!")

and again,

i learnt another naked truth...

ALL KIDS LOVE RIDES!!

@_@

ok... both he and i kinda have a mutual understanding that...

till she's much more bigger, till she knows what she's doing, and till she can kinda remember what she's experiences, till she knows how to insist, and till she knows how to appreciate it...

we'll take her to those rides...

not long to go...

Yoshitomo Nara

I used to think that, baby looks like some kinda of cartoon…

And I used to tell him that…

Then one day, I decided not to mention, cos, I seriously cannot recall… what cartoon is that…

It's just some cartoon character that I think I've seen it before, some where, some time… but I don't see that cartoon character that often,

I've no clue about it at all…

I don't even know who the cartoonist is...

Till the other day, I came across an article about yoshitomo nara's cartoon…

Ooi!!! This one!! Ya, this one…

Haha, cos, baby's eyes do go that way, ^_^ I mean, "upwards" in that manner…

And sometimes, she's that cheeky look…

Ok, this cartoon looks a bit evil…

And if you google about yoshitomo nara, you'll know that, his cartoons are all dark and evil…

Though he thinks that, they're just innocent playful kids…

Well… it's up to the individual's interpretation… ^_^

Anyway…

Now, I finally know, it's Yoshitomo Nara… 奈良美智