shopping with baby (babies)...

yesterday, she told me that she wanna go "walk walk", after her school, ie. window shopping,

so, after I picked her up, we went to a hypermart nearby,

it happened that, they've some shoe clearance, ie. lots and lots of sandals, shoes, in those items-for-sale big baskets, in the middle of the hall,

being in a hypermart, it means cheap,

being an sales item, it's even cheaper...

and it's either baby's like me, or I'm just like a kid,

I've always enjoyed "digging" into piles of sales item, to look for some suitable goods to buy, for eg. clothes,

and this time, shoes,

they've some CROCS-alike sandals for sales, if CROCS's sold for 3-figure price in my country, then, the CROCS-alike sandals here were calling for 2-figure price only,

just for fun, just for the sake of it, I must get a pair...

I know that's not the best type of shoes to be worn, but I somehow really have something about rubber shoes, ^_^

so, while big mama here was searching for her shoe, slinging my son in front of me somemore...

with baby inside the shopping cart, standing...

she was happily pulling out some toddlers' sandals as well,

trying each pair...

and each time, she tried, she'll say, "hey! I can fit in!"

O.o

haha! of course, I was telling her... why?? most shoes are bigger than her feet,

and I was complaining non-stop, "hey, baby!! why your feet are still so small????"

of all the kids shoes displayed, none of them was her size.. all just too big, and still too big...

though, I really wanted to buy a pair of mary-jane shoes for her, I thought they look lovely on her tiny feet..., especially that translucent green pair,

and she somehow took one side of a sandal, with a bit of "height", and put it on, and she was shouting excitedly, "ha!!!",

I saw, and wow!! lovely...

the problem is, it's only 1 side, what about the other side??

finally we found it, but then, I asked her to put on again,

she twisted a bit,

so, I told her, it's dangerous, till she can handle the "height", then, I'll consider...

yep, she's still not that good at wearing slip-on type of slippers man!

anyway,

at the end of the day,

I told her, what I feel, and what I think,

ie. it's really great to have a daughter, who can do shopping like this with you,

ie. silly, crazy type of window shopping... and got excited about nearly everything...

I can foresee that, in the future, we'll be each other's shopping buddies greatly...

^_^

it's really very blessed, to have a daughter...

going to school...

ya... she loves the bedtime chitchat, just like me...

when I was still studying, if I sleepover in my friend's place, what I love most is, chitchat till somehow, don't-know-why-we-fall-asleep kinda thing... ^_^

anyway,

just the 2 nights ago,

she was saying... (she's pretty good at "testing water")

"if I don't like to go to school, I still have to go to school, right?"

I heard,

and I asked, "why do you not like to go to school?" (feeling a little bit guilty... don't we all hate going to school, at some stage? haha! ok, maybe I really liked going to my kindy, then, primary school, but then, I really didn't quite like my secondary school, and college, cos, that's the part where the stress continuously build-up, but then, I love my uni "era")

she then told me, "cos I like mama, I miss mama!"

I smiled, and told her, "if that's the reason, then it's fine..."

...............

of course our conversation didn't stop here,

then, I went on to lengthy explanation that, one day, she's to grow out of it, ie. the stage where she's so attached to me, ie. separation anxiety, ie. becoming independent, ie. papa mama will grow old, I skip the part which, papa mama will grow old and die one day, well, it's late at night, I didn't want to make her cry...

yes, she somehow understands the meaning of death, somehow, not exactly, cos, whenever I talk about that,

it equals to "no more"...

anyway...

very soon, that conversation gets into the "feel" that, she found it a bit stressful, or unpleasant,

so, she told me, "I want to sleep already..."

then, ok, good night, and sweet dream!

the Earth Hour~

ok... I'm not really going to talk about the earth hour, but in a way, I'm going to talk about it,

ie. I'm not going to talk about the environmental part of it, but rather, the day itself...

the first of my earth hour, i remember, that's when I was still in the hospital, baby with me,

she's with me, in the dark room, nursing, sleeping...

meaningful, right??

that's why, somehow, earth hour means something to me... more than being some good deeds for the environment...

this year,

earth hour will be on the 23rd March,

again, another "meaningful" day for me,

it's the day, when my beloved mother left us...

late afternoon, in year 2008...

somehow, March is a "happening" month to me,

baby was born, ie. her birthday,

his birthday,

and this earth hour...

somehow... it's just quite "happening"...

Born-Job

I'm not sure if I've mentioned/written about this before,

As in some of the japanese drama, for eg. Gokusen, it mentioned about  "born-job" for a person, ie. kumiko is born, to be a teacher…

Ie. everybody's a born-job…

Something like, your destiny… or some sort…

And I've been thinking about myself…

For sure, I'm not a born-mother…

Maybe half of the women out there, or more, are not…

Professinally speaking, nobody is, a born-parent, but you know, there're just some people, they're good with kids, and they're kinder to them…

For sure, I'm not…

Anyway,

I've been thinking, if I've chance, or if I really pursue one,

Or if I'm still alone, who will I be…

And again, for sure,

If  nobody loves me, I can sure pass as an otaku, female version,

Ie. online whole day, buy things online, probably buy food online too, then, I can't be bothered to dress up… bla bla bla… for sure, that's no. 1 possibility…

No. 2?

As for my strength, which I still love/enjoy doing till this day,

I shall be an event organizer, I love organizing events…

That's why, I'm still mainly the one who organize for gathering and so on… of course, there up and down, when I don't feel like doing anything, or I just feel that, getting people to attend a dinner, or a party, just sucks…

No. 3?

I think I can be a great reporter, if I've no liability, except my own life…

I've always regard the job of a reporter, is somehow dangerous…

To a certain extent,

Though, I'll be the type who will go all out, to report the real truth,

That's the problem, some people may hire somebody to just shut me off…!!! Scary, right??

I thought of that before…

Cos, I still thrill on the work of digging into people's background, or scouting around for information…

No.4?

Teacher? Nope, not my born-job, I've tried teaching before,

Hated it! Fullstop!

No.5?

Haha, the last thing you'll think of…

Private investigator…

Especially I like juicy story,

Ok, it kinda jives with no.2,

And after watching japanese drama, LUCKY7, wow!! How I wish, there's such decent PI firm that I can work in… and of course, if there's such cute PI like Jun who I can see everyday in my work place, hm…

Anyway, yep…

I thought, becoming a PI is interesting,

But again, it's kinda dangerous,

Though I think, those PI for extra marrital affair cases, though you may think sucks, I think it can be interesting too, and if I get hold of those rich "tai tai" to check on their husband, the pay shall be very handsome, right??

So, I thought it's good money… and interesting job…

Anyway, dangerous is that, what if, the husband in return, want to shut me off too??

Yew!!!!!!!!

That's why….

I'm in my no-born-job today,

Ie. a housewife!!!

Who's some imaginary "problem", ie. sometimes, I behave like an organizer, sometimes, a PI… ^_^ ok, that's a nice way to put it…

Organizer, like I said, I still "initiate" some gathering dinner/lunch among friends…

PI, that's just to dramatize, nope… simply just digging out some info/compiling some info online, if my husband needs it…

And lastly,

At least something I like to do, and most of the time, I do get the "budget approved" easily,

Ie. tech admin in my household, haha!!!!!!!

Bravo!

copier, or fast learner… or whatever, that's good...

Baby's fast learner, sometimes that's what I told her,

Baby's fast… in copying,

While little one, is fast, in observing…

Ok, it maybe slow in your term, but in my eyes, they're always fast, ^_^

Cos, whatever a small kid can learn, and overcome, I regard it as miracle…

She's fast in words, particularly…

At this moment, I mention it,

The next moment, it comes out from her mouth…

Can you visualize that?

Ie. just last night, when we're in a relative's house, and I was busy eating crackers with her,

I said something like "let's explore what we have here!"

The next moment, she was using that word, and those who missed our little conversation there and then, thought her vocab's fabulous…

And I explained to them,

Yes, in a way,

No, in a way…

You get it??

Just like, the other day, (yep, I mentioned that in my chinese blog)

I was saying, "pop a tablet into your mouth",

The next day, she was saying, "I pop a rice into my mouth"…

See?

Somehow, scary, I'm worried she'll use the wrong word, but then… even if she uses it, most of the kids she hangs out with, may not get it…

Cos, she likes to use those big words now…

For eg. Everything, everybody, forever, anything…

Ooh! That's so dangerous, if you ask me…

As of little one…

Yep, he's fast, in a way, by action, imitating,

Nope, he's not speaking yet, only sometimes a "mama", or "papa", and some other blaberring… which we won't understand…

But of course, he's just so cute! ^_^

However, he imitates fast, as opposed to the sister,

Action,

Just the other day, he crawled over to the tv cabinet,

Took the wireless phone,

Pressed some buttons, and put that phone next to the side of his head,

I didn't see him getting to the phone,

But when I saw him, he's putting the phone next to his head, but upside down,

Haha!! Cute, so, I corrected him, by words,

He kinda understood…

Then, he somehow manipulated the phone, to the right position…

You ask me? The action's just plain CUTE!

Haha!

And he still looks so blur…

He's cute as in,

He always does something "evil" (or we parents regard as "bad" things…)

But then, he'll give you that super duper innocent look, as if he doesn't know what he's just done…

And of course, he doesn't know… these are all kids' nature…

Anyway,

Just some short and impromptu update for the two of them, as of now…

co-sleep...

Just now, I was browsing my facebook newsfeed at the edge of my big bed, with the two cute babies sleeping in it…

I was a little bit too engrossed into the "reading", then, I heard the little one "ngek~~~",

I turned around and saw this,

Baby basically slept "across border", it's a bolster, replacing me… yep, it's supposedly ME, sleeping between two of them, but sometimes, for eg. Like now, when I'm awake, do a little bit of my own "personal" stuff… I'll put a bolster between 2 of them, as I know how my baby sleeps, her sleep pattern can be like a snow angel sometimes…

And that's how it is tonight…

Her legs are on the little one's chest…

No wonder he made noise…

I know you'll shake head reading this,

First, I'm a co-sleep parent,

Second, I co-sleep nevermind, what more to say, I put 2 babies in the same bed…

Anyway,

I kinda find it cute…

Maybe there're lots of "cons" online, about co-sleeping, but as for me, I guess I benefited more out of it, than having been back-fired…

Most of all, I gotta see my cute babies sleeping, each night,

And secondly,

Just like tonight, I gotta see them… in such cute event…

Kekekeke…

I love you two…

From mama...

cheeky girl

oh, today there's this CNY celebration in her school,

so, yesterday I took out the "cheongsum" that my friend passed down to me,

luckily...

and I browsed through the dress,

then, I said to her, "baby, you so CHU LU, how to wear, later you tear it, you sure you want to wear?"

she said this, "even though I CHU LU, I still want to wear..."

I thought that was cute!!!

naughty!

my fault...

I'm not sure if this will backfire eventually, or, it'll have a long term "damage",

however, I'm actually more relaxed, by thinking as such...

see...

if the 2 of them are not behaving as per my expectation,

I know, and I finally acknowledge that, it's my own fault...

and that, actually make me feel better, and more relaxed... with them...

for eg. last night, when baby vomitted... yes, I'm pretty frustrated with the cleaning up part, especially I've to handle the small one, plus all the cleaning, by myself, it just had to happen when he's away...

but then, yes, it just had to happen when he's away, at night, week night,

I used to think like that, and that I got frustrated, and agitated and angry,

now, I know, it's my fault... so, I'm pretty laidback...

thus relaxed...

cos, really, it's my fault...

I bought too many doughnuts for her, and I let her eat when she's tired...

I frequently forget that, whenever she's tired, she won't be eating properly, and all difficult-to-digest type of food should be avoided,

first time being McD,

then, swissroll,

then, last night, doughnut!

and tonight...

my son, the naughty boy! he couldn't sleep...

my fault, you know why?

I was trying trying trying my best to contain him, to be awake, till bedtime, ie. 9pm...

however, after dinner, straight after dinner, he's too tired, and he asked for my booby, and shortly, he fell asleep...

for around half an hour...

I tried to wake him up,

that time, baby was watching her shows on TV,

around ten to 9, he got up...

and of course, you can't expect him to sleep immediately right?

so, just now, he fell asleep at around 2330...

~_~ yep, that's when I sneaked out here, and surfing online... kekekekekeke...

while I looked at him crawling around in bed,

in fact he's tired,
just that... again, my kids, bad in sleep training, cos, I myself am not a good example, since N years ago...

he's tired, and he's sooooooooooooooooo touchy!!!!

even if he rest his hands on my body, and even if I move his hands away, gently, he could burst out with loud cry...

luckily!! luckily!!!! baby was soooooooooooooo tired too, that she fell asleep without being disturbed by his constant crying...

it's like that, the cry's not continuous, just... frequent,

1 move he cried,

move right, he cried, lied down he cried, move left he cried, lied down, somehow knocked his head on the bedrail, he cried,

he crawled away, I pulled his leg, he cried, he tried to stand up, ON THE BED, I made sure he sits down, he cried!!!

see~~~~~~

but with all these events...

baby could sleep soundly...

I know it's kinda tiring for her to skip her nap, but then, it's to both our favour...

so... I'm kinda pleased with this new schedule...

especially at night,

she sure sleeps soundly... ^_^

as cheeky as she can be... (again)

oh ya...

why I said she's cheeky...

she's... mm... purposefully being so-called "demanding", and "difficult",

when she's sleeping with him,

she'll come to me, so pitiful, saying that she'd like to sleep with me...

and just tonight...

just now,

cos, he's been away for business trip, so, for 3 nights, I've been sleeping with the two of them,

she told me, she'd like to sleep with papa...

see! see!!!!!!!!

isn't that very purposeful???

as cheeky as she can be... ~_~

yep...

I mentioned that she's been crying lately,

see...

in the beginning, she didn't cry, while so many other kids were crying in her class...

there's this girl, who cried and climbed up of the cupboard just so that she could look out of the window, to look at her grandma...

and some of the boys, who cried, and tried to get out of the classroom, and ran around, till the teacher's to lock the door...

anyway,

so, merely after 1 month...

she started hers...

I talked hard, I talked soft,

I talked about going to school, and not going to school,

I talked about crying, and not crying...

and today, I decided, I'll just smile it off, or laugh it off...

she's just being cheeky!!!!!! plain cheeky...

cos, last night, when I was talking about her crying in the class...

oh ya, usually, I'll ask her, when I pick her up from the school, I'll say, "so, how long you cried?"

she'll answer, "10 minutes!" (see!!!!!!)

then, last night, we talked about this again,

and guess how she responded??

she told me, "tomorrow, I'm going to cry!"

oh dear!!!! hey! woman, how you know you're going to cry?

it means, it's all staged, and it's all "arranged"... by her!

she did it on purpose...

ok, most of the other kids kinda did it on purpose, with a purpose to showcase their separation anxiety, and it must be seen by parents...

yes, that was in the beginning...

and they did it really dramatically...

however, my girl?

I thought, the way she mentioned it was like...

it's just a daily routine morning exercise for her...

she could just start it without warning,

no specific time, no specific location,

it can be upon entering the classroom,

or, when I was leaving,

at this moment, she could hug me, and say bye to me, nicely and sweetly, and the next moment,

she'd start crying...

so, today, I was a bit worried...

I peeped a little bit through the classroom's window.. (it's quite a few stickers, just to block my view, I guess...)

still crying,

she pulled out her purple hippopo (the one I bought for her to bring to school)...

then, the teacher passed her a pencil,

still crying,

she took it,

still crying,

she started writing...

I thought that's quite a funny scene...

ie. her crying has nothing to do with whatever she's doing, or she needs to do...

and I'm very pleased that she's such a strong girl...

when at home,

she told me,

usually after mama left,

she'll pull out the hippopo, then she'll sing...

I asked her if the singing is the classroom, all sing together, or she sings on her own...

she said, she sings on her own,

cos, she misses me, and she sings, so that, she knows mama loves her...

cute or not??

cheeky or not??

again,

I'm very glad that she could find a way to console herself...

cos, since age 0 till her little brother came out...

hm... her only pacifier was my pair of booby... ^_^

I've tried many way to help her to find some pacifier,

all failed...

and I guess, my son will be the next one...

I'm not sure if this is breast-fed babies' problem, or simply my own problem...

see!

most kids, you give them a toy,

you give them some plush toy, they'll be contented for quite a while...

but not mine... -_-

however...

I'm pleased,

Praise the Lord~

oh ya... speaking of DOM, it's not just me, the other day, he mentioned that he might be having a sored throat soon, I told him to take some DOM... I was not sure (stil not sure, though I've reassure with him) if he's kidding, immediately he said his throat feel "clear"... O.o

ok... done with my writing now... the washing machine's still spinning... anyway, due to the "volcanic eruption" just now, and some late night exercise (change bedsheet) I'm quite awake at the moment... guess, I shall just down some DOM... ^_^

bedtime talks...

ya, she's like me,

loves bedtime talk...

ie. chitchat till we fall asleep...

last night, just last night,

I told her not to misuse the "I'm not feeling well" thing...

cos, she's been using that, whenever I leave her in school,

later she'll tell me, she's in fact sleepy, and bla bla bla...

I told her,

you can feel angry,

you can feel sad,

you can feel "pekchek",

you can feel frust(rated)!

you can feel sleepy, of course,

but if there's nothing wrong with your body, you don't simply say you're not feeling well, else, mama will be worried...

then, she told me, sometimes when mama's angry at her,

she's angry with me too...

I asked her, "like how?"

she told me, "I'm angry at mama, cos, mama will make me cry!"

then, I smiled (to myself)... haha!!!!! (damn psycho, right?)

so, I told her, it's ok that, she's angry with me, just like I'm also angry with her, whenever she purposely provokes me, and upset me...

sometimes...

then I told her this,
mama told you a secret, mama likes to make you cry, you know why?

cos, whever you cry, mama know that you love mama...

sick huh??

ya, I'm that sick, but I'm glad that I tell her...

and I told her that, sometimes she purposely make me angry, is also she wants to know if I still love her...

(she's still feeling insecure, eversince the arrival of her brother!)

and tonight??

haha, sometimes, I feel that she speaks pretty... maturely...

tonight, I asked her what are the things that she did, that make her feel good, or what are the good things that she's done for the day...

(ya, read it somewhere, it's good practice, ie. at the end of the day, let the child think, talk, or even write down about her good-doing, and good-feeling)

guess what's the first thing she told me?

I thought it'll be the doughnut, but nope...

she told me, "singing"... (ya, cos, in the evening, I took out my chinese nursery rhyme and was singing happily in front of her, and that, she took her turn to sing too... gosh! I actually thought that chinese nursery songs are far better than those english's, they're always very cheerful... and very life-packed!)

I asked her what else,

she told me "dancing", I said, "you danced?" (I asked on purpose, she... normally dances quite a lot, almost everyday, not proper dance, just small move, here and there!)

she said "yes", and smiled... (ok, we're all lying in bed, dark, I didn't really see her smile, but then...)

I then asked her, "what about the doughnut?"

she actually chuckled... (yep, that's when I feel that she's very mature in her thought... but somehow childish too, haha!)

and she said, "ha... this one, don't have to mention LA~!"

oh? actually I don't quite understand why she said that...

maybe she's shy about that?

or, maybe it's just so by default, that, whenever we go to that mall, she'll have doughnut?

but then, I told her, she doesn't get that like every day, it's still something special, right?

she still insists that, it's not something worth mention...

hm... maybe... maybe...

she really is much much more "mature", in quite a lot of things...

I know... she's been the one and only child for nearly 3 years...

somebody said that, single child, tend to be more mature than their age, right??

anyway...

baby, mama love you...

girl vs. boy

hm... last time when baby couldn't sleep,

her style is "toss and turn", ie. flip flip...

my son?

hm~!

he'll technically sits up, crawls here and there, stands up, climbs somewhere...

~_~

that's why, for the past three years, just pillows, and piles of pillows, would be sufficient to stop baby from falling down the bed,

but now? with my son...

I just have to make sure that, I don't fall asleep before he does...

NO MATTER WHAT~

Ooh... Yuek~~~

yep, she yuek~, ie. vomitted...

my fault,

as she's been crying just as when I'm dropping her at school,

so, I thought I want to cheer her up, and that, it happened that, I brought her to this mall after her class, and she remembered clearly what this mall has, ie. doughnut!

@_@

so, I got her her favourite doughnuts, on top of that, I got her another purple doughnut, ie. raspberry...

the problem is, just before bedtime, she didn't want to keep the 3rd doughnut till tomorrow, and she wanted to eat before sleep...

and slip of mind, I allowed that...

so, after 1 hour of deep sleep,

she started coughing... yep, the usual pre-vomit scenario...

then, the cough couldn't be stop, and from the sound of it, it got "wetter and wetter"...

then, yuek~~~ volcano erupted!!!!!!

the next 1 hour,

I gave her a quick shower, and after the shower, she shivered a bit,

I was worried that she'll got a cold, on top of her already cold, cold!

I let her pop a paracetamol tablet... ya, she loves tablet...

then, I asked her to stay in the living room while I cleaned the bedroom and the bed,

oh ya, cos, half way through her volcanic eruption, I felt that her shirt and everything else were already wet, ya... all in the dark,

and she seemed to be still continuing, so, I gave her my big towel, (luckily, I always have a sweat towel with me, cos, I sweat a lot!) and asked her to get down from the bed...

so, she carried the pile of towel in front of her, and stood there...

luckily, this time she didn't yell and cry, with her big "no, weh~~~~~~",

however, ya... the smaller one was already awake...

he! being too small to understand the whole situation and I didn't want him to get near the sister who's still vomiting..

so, I put him on my back...

ya, then, shower,

then, cleaned the mess,

then, changed bedsheet,

cleaned the mattress protector a little bit, with no.2 on my back... (@_@)

now, both are fast asleep...

God Bless~

so basic yet so difficult to get...

My friend posted this on her facebook,

She visited this Angel Children's Home, near Tmn OUG,

And posted this pics for others to help…

When I saw the list, I felt sad, (felt like crying…)

Look at those things on the list,

There're all so so standard and basic in our daily living…

Yet, it's so sparse for them…

There're just so many things, we take for granted in our daily living…

Which, sometimes, it may even be tossed away, or wasted, or under-appreciated,

Yet… to these children here,

It means… their life… yes, they need these, to live…

Sigh…

Same thing as, just like if you ask me to give you 1 dollar, from my own hardearn money,

I don't have, I can't produce one to you,

As I don't work…

Well… that's out of the topic…

Anyway, I shall see what I can do about it…

Yes, anything will help…

Anything...

that's why… I married this man… who I married to… ^_^

This afternoon, I was asking baby to pose pose and let me take photos…

After that, I still was standing in front of our balcony, trying to take more photos, while everybody was getting ready to go out…

Then, I excitedly showed him the pictures that I took, using the camera apps, camera360…

Just before I wanted to explain more to him, about the newfound interest of mine, ie. japanese style photography… those zen-looking type…

（日式攝影，日系攝影）

He saw the photo I show him, and he was saying…

"oh… I know what picture you're taking, it's like those japanese, very zen type…"

O.o

Ooh… kinda killed my thrill in telling him something THAT exciting…

So I asked him why he know what I was about to do? Or tell him?

He said, just from that cheeky smile on my face…

Same as baby, she's that type of smile too… when she's doing something…

Mm… new? Exciting? Thrilling? Interesting??

Well… according to him, this type of smile, runs in our family, ie. my mother, my brothers, and me, and yes, my baby… (though I'm not sure if baby no.2 has it!)

Anyway,

This was the photo I was about to show him… haha…