"...with friends. They are our mirror; our memory; we ask nothing of them but that they polish the mirror from time to time so we can look at ourselves in it." ~ milan kundera
2006-08-23
ON THE ROCK
However.. until now, I still carry this sort of habit, a similar habit...
The other day, we went to this place called Greco, near Crown Entertaintment Complex, introduced by one of my friends...
We went there late Friday night.. ya... this city... oh!!! to me, it's not even a city, you can't really find night life.. I mean, decent night life... the only place you can find, decent and indecent mixture, is this place, in Crown...
the rest of the city, on the street.... when darkness falls, you feel like you end up in a ghost town... yep... not even ghost will walk on the street...
It seems like this Greco serves quite quite interesting dishes... and during peak 'supper' hour, one can actually see some long queue lining up at the entrance...
we were sitting at the bar counter, ooh.. normally people don't like to sit at the bar counter, as the stools are normally very high, thus it's hard for one to sit there for long hour and hang out...
but, this Greco place, the high stools at the bar counter, are very very comfortable... we sat there for the whole night, looking at the delicious cold dishes displaying in front of us.. it looks and sounds like an italian cafe... interesting place
However the MOST interesting thing is, it's quite a huge range of sinful cakes on the other side of the cafe, catering for the dine-in customers, as well as for those people who just come to grab a decent fresh piece of cake and then ciao...
Anyway.. the thing about this cafe is.. :-) I've finally fallen in love with another new coffee drinks...
usually whenever I am out there in a coffee place, I'd just order mocha... but that day, when I was in Greco, maybe it's at night, maybe I was happy and excited, as we've finally found some place that we can possibly hang out quite often, AT NIGHT... so, I was in the mood to try up new stuff...
In fact, it's not that I have not tried this before, but, it's served in different manner...
it's the Affogato...
Mm... yummy!!!!!! the way they serve the Affogato is like the one in the picture...
While taking it, I was teling him, I feel like I'm having some hard liquour ON THE ROCK.... and I told him, next time we will come to this place more often, to have this Affogato... (it's basically a shot of Expresson on top of a scoop of vanilla icecream... yummy!!)
:-) He then... told me that, I'm still like a kid...
Yep.. that's quite true... when we're kid, we used to buy those chewing gum in cigarette form, before, we put the chewing gum in the mouth, we'd pretend to smoke for a while...
ya, smoking is bad, that's why, we go for chewing gum...
Then, I discover a type of mineral water bottle, which looks like those little flat pocket-size liquor bottle... so I started carrying it everywhere, to work, to my Japanese language class... till one day, my Japanese teacher, Miss Matsui couldn't help staring at it, and then, shyly asked me, if there's alcohol inside the bottle :-) kakaka!! it works...
nah, I then told her, that's just normal water in it.. :-)
ya, drinking is bad, I was just having normal plain water... :-)
Today, I've found another new toy :-)
So, if you pump into me drinking something that looks like alcoholic drinks... then, I am just having the very innocent AFFOGATO!!!!!
Fish for Life@@
Usually... well... as for me, solely for me, I've a benchmark for places that I stay...
It must have, a good japanese buffet that comes with reasonable price... where I can have my regular dosage of fresh sashimi...
It must have, a good CD/DVD shop, where I can find huge varieties (in terms of language) of CDs for me to pick...
It must have, good cable TV programme... :-)
It must have, a good system of public transport, with reasonable price...
Well then... some of the places that I have been to, passed my benchmark while some don't...
Sad, isn't it...
Sad, when I can't find a place in this city, to have my dosage of sashimi...
UNTIL~~~~~~~~~~
I found SAMURAI!!!!!!!
Yep, thanks to my friend, we're introduced this place...
It's definitely not the best place for japanese food in town, and it's definitely not having the best services...
the staff hardly speak any English, however... I find this challenging, well... you can go to Wagamama, staff there, speak perfect English, so then... you'll have english/asian fusion food, on a so-called Japanese food menu... err....... ????
SASHIMI, I mean SHASHIMI... not a place where you see big STICK of sushiSSS lying there...
Anyway, we both decided, after last weekend, that, SAMURAI will be our fortnightly pilgrimage destination :-)
Look at them... how much do all these cost? in this city.. NOTHING is cheap!!!! so, for this place, SAMURAI, so far so good...
for AUD36, we've a very very satisfying lunch...
Yummy!!!!~~~~~~~ Food for life, Fish for life!!! :-)
wire netting + gas tank + a pair of scissors = ??
I didn't know about this, until my friend, the other day, came to my place, and use my computer...
She was basically very much amazed with the desktop wallpaper that I used that other day... it's my cute little nephew's photo...
well.. when I first received the photos, yep... I did notice the the pair of scissors that's used to cut the flower... then, I asked my mother, why gave him such dangerous tool... the answer that I got was, "it's blunt, so, it's ok!!!" (I nearly fainted, but then... that's quite a while ago....)
then, my friend stared at the photos, amazed and amused... pointed out 2 more things... well, I actually explained to her the 'situation' without realizing the potential danger...
The little door on the wall, is actually a compartment where the gas tank is stored, gas tank for cooking, ie. it's connected to the cooking stove on the other side of the wall...
Then... there's this wire netting which is just at his eye level...
THEN!!!! it's beside a compartment that's used to store the cooking gas tank!!!!
YA... this time, my friend nearly fainted!!! :-)
However... why my little nephew likes to come to this place... ya... he likes to come to this place...
it's because... there's this little cat which likes to hide inside the compartment, treated it like its own cosy little house...
That's why later, the wire netting was put on, but my nephew still thought that, he could see the little cat over there...
:-( oh!!! poor thing, he didn't know he's not going to see his little cat friend anymore...!!!
(sob sob........)
~The Skillet Story~
cos, she really misses me sooooo much :-)
However... my cute mother... she always calls me at the wrong time, for eg. either I am still in bed (as I sleep irregular hour, and bingo, since I don't have fixed sleeping hour, but she actually manage to call me when I am sleeping... Zzzzzzzz......)
or, when I am cooking, or when I am washing up and cleaning my dishes after dinner...
or, when I am paying my full concentration to watch my favourite drama series on TV, for eg. '24'... (ahhh~~~~~ '24' is over now... she can call me during any TV prime time...)
So... the other day, when my mother called me, I was in the middle of cleaning my dishes... to be specific, I was then, drying up a skillet.. :-)
then, the phone rang, and I went to pick up the phone... normally I know roughly when she'll call, maybe it's because I am thinking about her, and she's thinking about me, her beloved daughter :-)
I went to pick up the phone with the skillet on my hand, then... yep, it's my mother...
Normally, the moment I pick up the phone, there'll be a split second of silence, then, there comes "Eng Eng!!!!" (well... that's not the right spelling, however, the way she pronounced my name, sounded like this one)
I immediately told her, I am cleaning and drying up my dishes, and I AM HOLDING A SKILLET IN MY HAND!!!
Haha... no wonder I came out of her tummy, my mother knew exactly what I meant~~~~ :-)
so, she asked, "you, ah pek!! are you saying that, if I am in front of you, you'll hit me with THAT skillet??!!!"
I burst and laughed loudly......
Then, we chatted for a while... again, a daily routine,
just a little while... before she hung up the phone, well... the 'purpose' she hung up the phone was that...
she said, "I don't want to be hit by your skillet!!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Can't stopped laughing...!!!!!!!
Mmm.... I was pretty satisfied with our conversation, it's quite entertaining... my cute mother....
then, I put down the phone, laughing, and guess what...
he told me, I have been very mean.. :-) kakakakakkaka!!!!!
but then... yep... that's the type of conversation between my mother and I...
I suppose, it's more like close friends, rather than generation talk, parents-children talk...
Sometimes, the things my mother does... err... are pretty AMUSING... no Amazing!!
:-)
well... in a way, can be amazing too.. :-)
There was once, (oh.. another kitchen-related story)
she put a hammer on top of the pressure cooker.. and guess what?
the next thing was... there was a minor explosion in our house, and the rooftop was damaged...
why rooftop? well.. I am not sure of the real detailed, since the CSI team didn't arrive at that time... :-D
I was told about what happened... is that, the hammer flew away... it found its way out through the rooftop...
--"(^_^)"--
2006-08-15
Laughter...
When I went shopping for souvenier with her, she found some car window stickers which were very amusing :-)
Both of us, OH, ESPECIALLY HER, laughed our head off in front of the shop keeper.....
one says, "Born to fish, Forced to work", (well... she did fishing a while ago, so, it really applies to her a lot)
another says, "Who cares WHO's ONBOARD"
the third one say, "Mother-in-Law in BOOT" (haha! I like this one best)
OK... when my friend was here, we (she, my other 2 friends who're already staying here for more than 10 years, and I) laughed a lot for the past week,
(ya, that's why, I ended up, having not enough water, not enough sleep, and even not enough air, now, I'm struggling with my flu!!)
and I came across this sentence in one of the David Hewson's book, "The Sacred Cut", paperback, pg.6
".., in the end, why people laughed at all, because it made the pain go away, if only for a little while."
Why do people laugh?
well... I suppose there're many reasons, however, yep, the above sentence caught my attention, as THAT can be one of the very good reason too...
:-)
Excerpts from Wikipedia.org
"There are two main questions in understanding laughter: how laugher happens (that means what happens in terms of reasoning, language and neurophysiology), and why do we laugh. (In more formal terms, the first question asks for a cognitive model, while the second for a model of appreciation). "
"For Aristotle, we laugh at inferior or ugly individuals, because we feel a joy at being superior to them.
Socrates was reported by Plato as saying that the ridiculous was characterised by a display of self-ignorance. Schopenhauer wrote that it results from an incongruity between a concept and the real object it represents.
Hegel shared almost exactly the same view, but saw the concept as an "appearance" and believed that laughter then totally negates that appearance.
For Freud, laughter is an "economical phenomenon" whose function is to release "psychic energy" that had been wrongly mobilised by incorrect or false expectations.
Philosopher John Morreall theorises that human laughter may have its biological origins as a kind of shared expression of relief at the passing of danger.
Robert A. Heinlein's view of why people laugh is explained in one of his most praised novels, Stranger In A Strange Land, as simply seeing someone being hurt in one form or another. "
However, there is not satisfactory theory of why we laugh yet... but rather, there are quite a few theory of HOW we laugh...
As there are billions of people in the world, I suppose, one can come out with billions of reasons... as every individual is unique.
Sometimes, when I went home, back to my parents, my beloved brothers... I laughed most of the time, as I was amused at their sayings, until they asked me if I have not laughed for the past years...
Maybe, it's because whenever I am with my close family, I am back to my young and little self... carefree, worry-free, I don't have to keep my image... I am basically their clumsy lazy potato couch big sister, and that's all.
I have some friends who could actually give me the same type of 'laugh therapy' as good as my brothers, however, I don't see them as often as before... but we still keep in touch.
Life progress, status changes, these are things that I can't really control, the only thing that I can do, is to make an effort, to always keep in touch with friends...
I have some other friends, where I can laugh with, laugh at, laugh together as well, out of my hometown, however... I know very well that, the laughter is different, I am slightly different as well... the chemistry is different...
This is the reason why I am pretty drawn to 'the reason why people laugh'...
of course, the first thing that trigger me to start wondering is, this saying and insight by David Hewson...
One of my friends sent me these jokes the other day... (for best result, say it out loud) :-D
JOKE 01
An American and a Japanese were sitting on the plane on the way to LA When
the American turned to the Japanese and asked, "What kind of -ese are you?"
The Japanese confused, replied, "Sorry but I don't understand what you
mean."
The American repeated, "What kind of -ese are you?" Again, the Japanese was
confused over he question.
The American, now irritated, then yelled, "What kind of -ese are you...
Are you a Chinese, Japanese, Vietnamese! etc......???"
The Japanese then replied, "Oh, I am a Japanese."
A while later the Japanese turned to the American and asked, "What kind of
'key' was he". The American, frustrated, yelled, "What do you mean what
kind of -kee' am I?"
The Japanese said, "Are you a Yankee, donkee, or monkee?"
*MORAL - NEVER INSULT ANYONE*
JOKE 02
A junior manager, a senior manager and their boss are on their way to a
meeting. On their way through a park, they come across a magic lamp. They
rub the lamp and a ghost appears. The ghost says, "Normally, one is granted
three wishes but as you are three, I will allow one wish each"
So the eager senior manager shouted, "I want the first wish. I want to be
in the Bahamas, on a fast boat and have no worries." Pfufffff" and he was
gone.
Now the junior manager could not keep quiet and shouted "I want to be in
Florida with beautiful girls, plenty of food and cocktails." Pfufffff" and
he Was also gone.
The boss calmly said, "I want these two idiots back in the office after
lunch at 12.35pm."
*MORAL OF THE STORY IS: " ALWAYS ALLOW THE BOSSES TO SPEAK FIRST"*
Bauerism... Addiction!!
However...
Hendersen should have just run away when he did quietly 'runaway' from the submarine... it's kinda err... sad, seeing him being killed by Jack. Hendersen knows Jack VERY VERY well... so, bad script writer!! Even thou my it's heartbreaking seeing Palmer being assasinated, and then, Michelle being bombed, then... Tony died in Jack's arm, but then... Hendersen really did safe millions of people's life and stopped 12 of the missles... :-(
I like Nina,
I like Habib Marwan... (wink!!)
I like Hendersen the most.....
Of all, Hendersen is the one that's most compatible to Jack, in everything... both of them have never underestimated each other, and both of them know each other very well, inside out...
I supposed... Hendersen's heart would break, when he knows he'd be killed by Jack, and I'd like to imagine that, Jack will feel lonely forever... (well... he may be able to suppress that very well, since he's experience many death of his close, and loved ones...)
Jack will feel lonely, cos, somebody that similar to you, will be gone forever... :-) ya!! I'd like to imagine that..
Hendersen... in a way, feeling sad, yet happy, cos, he's killed by Jack, rather than someone else...
Wah!~~~~~~ Bid GoodBye, Hendersen!!
AND~~~~~
Bierko SHOULD have just bring the last canister of the nerve gas to the presidential retreat, and 'gas down' stupid Logan!!!
Why on earth he wants to bring it to the submarine, killed those crews that's less important, and take all 15 minutes to arm the missiles, which let Bauer has the chance to take them down... hai... YES!! he should have just bring it to the presidential retreat, and that's the end of the story...
But, ok... the final 20 minutes, where Jack/Chloe have finally successfully get a brandnew set of recording of Logan's 'confession' is consoling... :-D
and it's really kinda thrilled seeing Martha's "I WIN" face... :-)
Finally, I am wondering where that stupid slipper-face Miles has gone.. ya, to the WhiteHouse... by betraying Karen and the whole CTU...
I really really really dislike him, just by looking at his slipper-face!!!
That slap that Karen gave him was just far too mild... yep... she should have slapped him with A SLIPPER!!!
and took him to the interrogation room, give him some jab!!!
Season 6!!
Addicted... to Jack!! :-)
2006-07-28
"24" - Respect!!
:-)
well... ya, that's the event that happened between this 2 hours, on day 5!!
2+1 men, that I want to mention :-)
The secretary of DOD, :-( (Crying out loud and salute to him!!)
James Heller, he didn't listen to Jack, but thought that, he could convince President Charles Logan to quietly step down. However at the very last minute, when Henderson manage to get the evidence that will implicate Logan, Logan changed face, and in return, force Heller to resign.
On the way out from the Presidential Retreat, Heller was followed by a chopper. Henderson told Jack that, if he's not safe, with the evidence, the people on the chopper will shoot Heller...
Jack called Heller who's driving, to confirm what Henderson had just said... and not to put Jack in the difficult situation, while admitting that it's his fault that he didn't listen to Jack and caused such difficult situation, he drove himself out to the cliff into the late... in that 1/2 a minute... decision making is fast... even too fast for Jack to take any reaction.
What a respectable military man!!! hai...
Man No.2, the pilot of the diplomatic flight, 520
His response to Jack's demand is very strict, but respectable... he didn't bother to waste time to talk to, or negotiate with Jack, simply he didn't think that Jack was genuine that time. Come on!! Jack hijacked the plane... haha... it's cute, cos, he, Jack, himself spoke and acted like a terrorist.. that's cute!!
Jack told the pilot that he's a federal agent, and there's something that will implicate the national security on the plane and he needs to find out the person. The pilot just told him, he'll still fly the plane back to the airport, according to protocal, and if Jack IS a federal agent, he'll know what to do, and cut off the line...
Then, when Jack found out that, it's the co-pilot, who's having the evidence (that Henderson passed to him earlier on, right after he took it from Jack) and told him that, this co-pilot is changed the last minute before the plane took off...
Being a man with brain and heart, he confirmed the fact himself.. and quietly, good-timingly, opened the latch of the pilot cabin door... and let Jack in!! hurray!!!
ok,
another man!! Bill Buchanan..
this is what my brother posted to me... :-) anybody interested??
EXPERIENCE:
CTU - Special Agent in Charge, Los Angeles Domestic Unit
Division - Associate Special Agent in Charge, Los Angeles Office
Division - Senior Agent, Seattle Office
Division - Intelligence Analyst, Seattle Office
CTU - Agent, New York Domestic Unit
EDUCATION:
Bachelor of Arts, English – Brown University
PERSONAL:
Single
Anyway, just thought that, when he's kicked out of the CTU office, by the homeland people, scenes involving him, and especially when Chloe went to his house to continue helping Jack, who is, at that time, hijacking the plane, is kinda cute... :-)
Kind ~ Happy
it says...
"the more kind-hearted a person is, the happier that person is"
Well... what I am going to say is... mm... not because after reading that sentence and that it changes my mind, but rather... I have somehow agreed to what the sentence is saying, and that, when I came across this very sentence... BLINK!!
Another friend, long time ago, told me, if you're angry, or unhappy, you're merely taking other's mistake to upset yourself...
So... why looking into other's mistake, and make ourselves unhappy, and angry..
mm... I guess, it's solely because of this "I" that's making the whole world so miserable...
Sometimes, even we perform those so-called great deed, or self-sacrification deeds, it's simply for a self-jusdification... most of the time, we still think about ourselves, then, we perform those deeds...
"mm... if I don't do it, I am a bad person"
"mm... if I do it, people will think that I am good"
"mm... mum/teacher taught me, in such circumstances, I have to do this"
"mm..."
side dish: there's one story of Dr.House, where a voluteering/world doctor (who's also kind of a star or wellknow doctor or something) caught an unknown dicease when he's in Africa. When that doctor was being hospitalized, he kept wanting to go back to work, and insisted that, without him, so many other people in Afrida will die. Everybody thought that he's important. Of course, here come the sarcastic Dr.House who'll just pick on him, and try to find out something 'negative' about this world doctor and try to make his life difficult, even thought he's HIS patient. When people argue that, this world doctor is really very important, to the whole word, such a VIP person, cos, he saves many people's life, Dr.House just answered, "so, you're saying that, McDonald is more important than your mother" :-) kaka, I like that!!
Anyway... that is out of the topic...
(Let me drive back to the correct lane first)
Ok..
Ya... just now, when I was doing some housechores, I suddenly started to think...
mm... ya... I am not happy, simply because I'm a sinful person...
isn't that very true...???
I think, I am sinful, because, I pick on others, I see their bad habits rather than their good side...
I therefore, not forgive them, and keep linger on how bad they are, and make myself more and more unhappy...
and throughout the days and nights, I tell myself more and more, to justify my feeling... then comes one day..
I don't feel THAT unhappy anymore, and I finally reach a conclusion that, I am the victim, and that I am actually right, and that the person is actually the evil/bad one... and so on...
and then one day.. my heart is rotten, and hardened... and YAY!! I'm deep down in the pit of sin...
That's why, I started to think... that 2 sentences that I mentioned...
My mother is a very happy and cheerful and err.. blur lady... why??
becuase, I can see that she forgives, and she forgives and then, she forgives...
and then, she prays... her life doens't belong to herself anymore, and... "she" doesn't belong to herself anymore...
Even though sometimes... this type of people with such characters, may irritates you..
but then... deep down in my heart, I know that, it's simply because it's a place I can't reach, it's a place I don't understand... and that, it challenges my "I" status.. and that somehow makes me upset...
see... that's the thing... cos, I'm a sinful person, so, I keep feeling unhappy, sometimes...
mm...
therefore I started to think again... and again...
if you're feeling unhappy...
look into the mirror, touch your heart, ask "what's wrong with you??"
rather than sitting down there, talking loud about your principle..
and start counting how much the world owe you and upset you...
my opinion is...
the world(a.k.a. people/things/happenings around you) will continue to upset you, regardless to zillionth, you have counted...
however... looking into the mirror, touching your own heart, and pray...
it's a simpler thing to to :-) (I am a lazy person)
what happened to the world's wrong-doing.. doens't really matter...
what matters is what's happening inside you...
inside me...
WEBLog
It used to be geocities and some other service provider, providing you a space where you can build your own website and so on...
then... now, it's evolved to become a place for networking... networking with friends, friends' friends, and so on... and suddenly the whole world is connected in 1 place...
I mean, world of friends...
I personally like to read my friends' blogs... I used to be thinking that... people like to read other's blog it's becuase of err... curiosity, and human's nature of peeping into other's business... secret... and so on...
however... well... I know, I don't have a bunch of moron friends, who'll really simply post anything harmful, or x-rated, or foolish on their own blog.. and most of the time, I know that, they really think properly before putting them down into words, and they really do their best to write a sincere sentence...
Therefore, I like to read them...
to know what they're up to recently...
to know what's bothering their mind recently...
to know what they're happy about or sad about recently..
(providing if they do write on a regular basis...) but it's thrill to see them writing... again, it's not because I think that I get a chance to peep into their dark secret,
it's because, I know that, they've finally 'matured' their thinking and willing to open it up to friends... ya.... friends...
and then... after reading, I will always think that... ooh.... she/he's back to normal again :-)
Isn't that amazing, it's so private but yet, it's so opened...
It's a funny place to be in, and well... I guess... the bottom line is... somehow we do have a little 'feeling lonely me' inside ourselves...
which we want to say out, but couldn't...
which we want others to know, but we're not sure how others will think about us...
or, simply, which.. at that time, at that place, there isn't anybody there to listen to us...
therefore, we transform our thought, our energy into words...
unless you're a real psychotic person, so far... I haven't really seen these words, meant to be sword, to kill the reader...
what I feel when I was reading them is...
"know me, I want you to know me... understand what I feel"
it's a space of words, practically words, and words, but it's also a place of feelings...
if you're really you friend's blog, rather than peeping into other's business :-)
2006-07-20
24 - Tony died, OFFICIALLY!! CRYING OUT LOUD!!
Tony died, Tony died!!!!!!!!
I knew it, but I don't want to see it!!!
Poor Tony, when he's finally awake, he found out that Michelle is DECEASED!!
When he's kinda awake and wanted to kill Hendersen, Jack stopped him!!!
Just like the terrorists should never underestimate Jack, CTU and Jack should never ever underestimate Henderson...
Come on!! Henderson is the one who recruited Jack and trained Jack, they're just like each other...
Tony shouldn't have hesitated to kill Henderson!! (Cry!!) and it's because of that split second's hesitation,
Cost his own life... Bloody Henderson, (he's just like Jack, after being tortured to near-death, he's still able to recover and jump around!!) turned around and forced the syringe that's in Tony's hand back to his own neck!!
Wa~~~~~~~~~~ ""(*0*)"" CRY!!!!!!
Poor Jack, he lost one of his mates AGAIN!! ""(*0*)"" CRY!!!!!!
Anyway.. this episode (these 2 episodes, 7-9pm, HA HA! TV here has been airing Supersized '24' to the viewers, what a pamper, and less torture!) is quite a shocking episode,
ie. we heard that, Audrey Raines was the one who sold the schemetic to the International Intelligence Broker (what a good job) and "everybody has a price", Oh!! but Jack said, he's not 'sellable', that's cute! :-)
ie. Lynn McGill died, of good cause... :-( well... I scolded him, when he didn't bother to report that his keycard was taken away, just to save face, but then... it's still sad seeing that he's to die, exposing himself to the nerve gas, to save the rest of the people... like the guard who's with him (he also died in the same event) said to him, "you caused 40-50 people dead, just because you don't want to be embarrassed??", yes, Lynn died, and yes, I felt sympathetic about him :"-(
ie. Jack tried to strangle Barry, and accused him of taking advantage on the stupid daughter Kim, haha!! that's cute!! ya... Barry is soooooo important, cause "he's there when nobody was"---Cheh!! This woman really has never failed to piss me off!!
ie. Wayne Palmer is up to something, but I'm not sure why of all people he has to tell Aaron, rather than Jack??
Well.. wait and see!! :-)
2006-07-14
24 - Logan & Edgar
I guess... this season (season 5) of '24' is more... err.. emotional... at least, it's more emotional for me...
it's really quite 'heart breaking' when I saw Edgar coming out from the basement, looking at the bunch of 'survivor' (nerve gas survivor) in the sealed conference room, as it's sealed, so, the room cannot be opened anymore.. I guess, we all wish that the room can be opened again, and Edgar can come in and thus be saved, but no... he's dying... I guess... mm... after all the previous seasons, for once, '24' try to be a little bit emotional... or maybe it's because, for once, for this season, I don't rush through the season, and therefore, there's room to be emotional for me :-)
Previouly, I used to rush through the whole season, 1 hour/1 episode followed by another, tightly, and I could finish the whole season within 1 day, ya, just like I've gone through the full intense 24 hours myself... well... it's an experience.. as if, you're watching 'real time' :-) however... for this season (season 5), I have been watching it on the Australia National TV (Channel 7) and well... the TV broadcaster have been very kind to the audience. '24' is aired in supersized, ie. it's aired 2 hours per day, and 2 days per week, but only for 1 week of a month. ie. after the supersized week, the following week will be back to normal, ie. 1 hour per day, and then, followed by the next day's 1 hour... however, that's good enough for me... otherwise, once a week? come on? the suspense will kill me...
(just like season 3, when Chappelle has to be executed, by Jack Bauer, I didn't like Chappelle at all, he's more irritating than George Mason, and less comedic, but when Jack asked if he's any message or anything to say to some people, after thinking for a while, he actually shook his head and say 'no'. ie. How lonely this man is, and how sad his life is... as sometimes, we all think that, ah!! maybe one day we die, nobody will actually feel sad for us, but then... there WILL always be somebody who'll cry for our 'departure'. However, for Chappelle's case, it really seems to be NOBODY, that's very depressing!!)
Ah!!! and the irritating Kim Bauer is out again... why wasn't she killed by the nerve gas... sigh!!! I find it extremely irritating when she's not thrilled at the fact that her own father is in fact, still alive, and then, after that, she keep lingering on the fact that, the father didn't trust her, and didn't want to let her know that, he's in fact NOT DEAD!!! come on... we all know that, (after season 2, the one with the nuclear bomb threat, in that season, Jack told her not to tell people about the nuclear bomb threat, but then, she almost told everybody she met on her runninng-away route out of LA, come on!!!!)she's the most untrustable person on earth. And when she's even comparing herself with Chloe (the fact that Chloe knows that Jack is not dead) as who's more trustworthy... and Chloe gave her this answer... to shut her up, good work chloe, (I really feel like giving Kim a slap on her so-called beautiful face... nah!!!! Elisha Cubert doesn't look as pretty as when she's in 'The Gal Next Door' anymore, and her complexion deteriorate... serve her right!!) Chloe said to her, "Of all people who knows your father is still alive, half is dead, Palmer was assasinated, Michelle is dead, and Tony is in critical condition now. I am still standing here cos your father found me in time!!" and YES!!! stupid Kim shut up for a while, otherwise, she'll still continue to act as if she's so smart...
Oh!! Back to the topic.. well... I know (somehow I know, read from forum's threads) that Logan will be a bad guy... but, so far, I haven't found him as irritating and as useless as the previous season. He seems to have progressed a little bit. And having his wife, Martha around also helps improve the scenes with Logan... otherwise, like the previous season, there're several time, I really feel like throwing my TV remote control to the TV screen, to smash Logan's face... and recently, both Logan and the wife Martha, well.. both the actor and actresses are nominated for Emmy Awards Best Supporting Actor and Actresses... mm... well done, then!!
Mm... only one wish I have with '24', others die or not die throughout the 24 hours, doesn't matter (since my favourite Tony and Michelle will be dead and is already dead, but of course, I really hate to see Jack's close pals go away/die) but, I wish... hm... Kim will be dead soon :-)
Most irritating roles in '24', since season 1,
season 1 - Terri and Kim Bauer, like mother like daughter, I really can't stand their character as in, both of them are just so nosy, hm!! if Terri is less nosy, didn't sniff around in CTU, which she shouldn't at all, cos, she's just a common civilian, she won't be killed by Nina, and for Kim, same thing goes to her, Nina should have killed her there and then... (That's why, as opposed to MOST viewers of '24', I hate this season the most)
season 2 - Kim Bauer, and Shirley Palmer... Kim, never improves, and Shirley.. another woman who's so hunger of power, and do all the funny things to get it
season 3 - still, Shirley Palmer, good that, she's in the end, DEAD!!!
season 4 - I kinda like this season, even thou it's not that outstanding, cos, at least, all those irritating characters are gone, oh!! ya, now I remember, Audrey Raines... another cry baby, just like Terri, I don't know why, Jack always ended up with this type of women!!! hai...
season 5 - well.. so far so good, Audrey has proven to be much stronger and louder (I like the part she's yelling and arguing with Lynn, so different from the previous season, where she'll just sit there and cry) and she's not scared anymore, and won't disapprove anymore, when Jack 'needs' to torture to get information :-) ghee... Oh!! I like the part where Jack, scare, beat up, yell at Christopher Henderson, still can't get a word off Henderson, and this Henderson (of course, he's the one who recuited Jack into CTU and trained him, so, if we think Jack is good, Henderson, if not better, will be just as good as Jack, so, don't dream of getting any words out of him) keep challenging him to shoot him, then... oh!!! unexpectedly, Jack shot Miriam Henderson, on her uppper thigh... haha!!! that's thrill!! Jack's really a man of action!!! but of course, I guess Henderson knows that Jack is not a truly cruel man, even though he threaten to, but he WON'T kill Miriam, so, in the end... ya, Jack still didn't get anything out of Henderson... sigh...
2006-06-22
$5 Dollar Joke
This is another one :-) Cheers!!
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An Egyptian and an American are seated next to each other on a flightfrom New York. The American asks if he would like to play a fun-game.
The Egyptian, tired, just wants to take a nap, so he politely declines and rolls over to the window to catch a few winks. The American persistsand explains that the game is easy and a lot of fun.He says, "I ask you a question, and if you don't know the answer, you pay me $5, and vice versa."
Again, the Egyptian declines and tries to get some sleep.The American, now worked up, says, "Okay, if you don't know the answer,you pay me $5, and if I don't know the answer, I'll pay you $500." This gets the guy's attention and, figuring there will be no end to thistorment, agrees to the game.
The American asks the first question, "What's the distance from theearth to the moon?" The Egyptian doesn't say a word, reaches into his wallet, pulls out a $5 bill, and hands it to the American."Okay," says the American, "your turn."So the Egyptian asks, "What goes up a hill with three legs and comesdown with four?" The American thinks about it. No answer. Puzzled, he takes out hislaptop computer and searches all his references. No answer! He taps intothe air-phone with his modem and searches the Internet and the Library of Congress. No answer. Frustrated, he sends e-mails to all his friendsand coworkers. Checks the input. All to no avail!Finally, a long time later, he wakes the Egyptian and hands him $500. The Egyptian thanks him and turns back to get his sleep.
The American, more than a little miffed, stirs the Egyptian and asks,"Well, what's the answer?" Without a word, the Egyptian reaches into his wallet, hands theAmerican $5, and goes back to sleep!
Reasons Why I Never Visit my Rich Friend
However, I found joke like this is hard to find
mm... if any of you, my friend, has similar ones, please share it with me!! Groovy!
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Reasons why I never visit my rich friend
Once while visiting a very rich friend the maid approached me
and.....
Question : "What would you like to have ..Fruit, juice, Soda, Tea, Chocolate, Capuccino, Frapuccino,or Coffee?"
Answer: " Tea please"
Question:Ceylontea,Indian tea , Herbaltea,Bushtea,
Honeybushtea,Iced tea or green tea ?"
Answer : "Ceylon tea "
Question:"How would you like it ? black or white ?
Answer: "white"
Question: "Milk, or fresh cream?
Answer: "With milk "
Question: "Goat's milk, or cow's milk"
Answer: "With cow's milk please.
Question: " Freezeland cow or Afrikaner cow?"
Answer: " Um, I'll just take it black "
Question: " Would you like it with sweetener, sugar or honey?"
Answer: "With sugar"
Question: " Beet sugar or cane sugar?"
Answer: "Cane sugar "
Question:" White, brown or yellow sugar?"
Answer: "Forget about the tea, just give me aglass
of water instead."
Question: "Mineral water, tap water or distilled water? "
Answer: "Mineral water"
Question: "Flavored or non- flavored ?"
Answer: "I think I'll just die of thirst!!!!
The Mighty Show: 24
I think I am really very much poisoned by this show. Last nite, it was the premier of Season 5, right after it's finished in US. Even thou I have already known the plot, and I have already known that David Palmer is going to die. It's still a heartache to see him go, especially it's just within the first 10 min. As well as my goddess, Michelle Dessler.
I haven't even had enough seeing the chemistry between Reiko and Carlos (Michelle & Tony) yet, and that Michelle had to be blown up. (CRY!! How can the script writer be SO cruel!)
I knew!! I knew!! I knew David Palmer will be shot when he's standing at the window!! but, really!! I didn't expect it to be so soon. Within the first 10-15 min, :"-( All the important people in Jack's life are wiped off!! Grrrr!!! While all the irritating people are still around. Watching this show, is torturing, painful, but, that's why I like it so much (laugh!! sadist!!)
AND!!! Why did they not shoot President Logan!! Everytime when I see him, during crisis (particulary Season 4, as for Season 5, real crisis haven't started yet, at the time I watched) the way, he couldn't make decision, and the way, he'll put blame on others, and the way he emphasize who he is so much!! Crap!! Looking at him, increase my blood pressure. Everytime I see him, hear him speak, I really want to throw my TV remote control towards the TV. :-D
Anyway, even before the Season 5 ends (over here) I am already looking forward to Season 6. :->
JACK BAUER FOREVER!!
:-)
2006-06-19
BOSTON LEGAL
At first, I watched this show purely for James Spader sake. I even try to catch up with "The Practice, Season 8" that's shown on one of the pay TV. I personally loved shows that explore the darkside of human behaviour. Other shows, to me, are too good to be true. The leading characters are far too perfect. That's why, I love this show.
Nothing can be more brilliant and smarter than this show. The more I watch the show, every week, the more I like the character of Shirley Schmidt, and the rest of the casts, other than just Alan Shore, and Denny Crane. However, I do enjoy the conversation between Alan Shore and Denny Crane, it's so true between real friends.
This show, not just explore the darkside of people, which Shirely claimed that's what Alan is good at, but it also shows the friendship, a true and real friendship between people, ie. Alan Shore and Denny Crane.
One thing about Alan Shore's character, is, ie. from Eleanor (The Practice) quote, "he thinks himself as Robin Hood". In a societly like this nowadays, sometimes, we need crazy people like Alan Shore. (not much of Denny thou, he's a bit too crazy to me, however, I do like him)
Alan Shore, is very nakedly true character of everyone of us. We have darkside in ourselves, but usually we try to hide it to the maximum possiblity, cos, we have to be good, good boy, good girl, good parents, good spouse, or good whatever. Yet, Alan Shore is not afraid of showing his darkside... in a way, he is actually very childlike. He doesn't pretend, and he is not that bounded by the society 'practice'. He does what he thinks is right, thou at times, it can be dangerous. However, that's where friends and good colleagues come into pictures. There are always Shirley, or Denny type of people, keeping guard on him. Therefore, I actually think that, he fits well into this present legal firm, Poole, Schmidt and Crane, rather than the one in "The Practice". They didn't know how to appreciate a person like him. At the end of "The Practice" I felt sad for Alan, when he spoke to Eugene. We all know that Eugene hates him, however Alan told him, he just want him to cheer up, and feel more relax about the job, as simple as that.
That's maybe the reason, why he fits well with Denny Crane, cos, Denny Crane IS simple (he said so!)
Boston Legal -- Legal Deficits
I like the part of how Shirley handle the testimony, with the priest. And of course the part where Denny questioning Brad.
Shirley said to the priest in the end, "I have known many good priests, but I definitely will not add you to my list!" and the priest was speechless. I have always thought that Shirley is good at making brilliant conclusive comment, to make the opponents speechless most of the time.
She asked the priest, why he'd stick out his fingers to a person who's already swinging an axe.
She asked the priest, so, it's ok for him to apply cannon law to protect a peodophile person, while, cannon law is not applicable when he forged the Pope's signature, and he traded the supposed concealed information for his fingers.
(I loved it when Denise bravely threaten the priest with his 1 last lost finger)
The way Denny questioning Brad is just soooo funny and inspiring. At first, I thought I missed something in the show. Then only I figured out, that's the way it's done, Denny:"Question 1", then, Brad:"bla bla bla", Denny:"Question 2", then Brad:"bla bla bla". Gosh!! it is just sooooo funny!! and refreshing!!
Boston Legal -- Live Big!!
For once, I get to see how this Paul (Rene Auberjonois) is, and surprisingly to me, he's quite human :-) He's emotion, he feels sad, he feels angry, and he's a daughter!! oh!! plus a grand-daughter. So, now, I know, he's not so inhuamane afterall... cos, normally, I thought he's just being a bad silly boss, who's so much concerned about the firm only.
I cried in 2 occasion in this episode.
First, when Paul's daughter (who, 'apparently' he's abandoned for 7 years, where he refused to pick up her call, ask the security guards not to let her in the firm and etc, ya, a father, actually did that to a daughter) showed up again in the firm, and then, they started quarreling loudly. (Paul asked her to close the door first) After sentence and sentence of own's statments about who's stowing away, or who's leaving who behind, the daughter finally said one thing, "I needed you!!"
3 simple words, but that's a tear jerker.
3 simple words, but it says all about how she felt over the past 7 years, being abandoned by your own beloved father, when you, deep down in your own heart knows that, your life is down the drain, but you thought you've a father to cling on. (her mother, Paul's wife was dying of cancer)
3 simple words, a drug addict plus alchoholic's cry of help!
The second time I cried, is when the man, who's accused of 'murdering' his wife who suffered from alzheimer, as he claimed he wanted to end her suffering, and her gradual lost of her own dignity. (She's a very fiercely proud woman)
Alan Shore told the jury, it's a self-less act, and what more to say, killing somebody you love so much. I cried.
However, in the end, oh!! my second cry is being 'cheated', not by the episode, but well.. ya, by the episode in a way :-)
Of course, with Alan Shore, you'll never loose a case. The man is found 'not guilty', then, with a blink in the eyes, Alan spotted this eye exchange between the man, and the nurse who took care of the wife.
That's HORROR! (ya, horror element in Boston Legal series)
You'll feel a chill down you spine. The man, since he obviously 'won' my tears, then, of course, everybody, including me, including Alan, including Denny Crane, believed that, he's innocent, that he really helped end his wife life, in great pain and sorrow.
But, with that short glance, we all know, as well as Alan, that, it's all lie. Man and Nurse have an affair, Man is so relieved that, he's not guilty. Of course, as Alan (to his horror as well, poor Alan, again, he's mistakenly helped somebody who doesn't deserve it, poor Alan!!) asked him before the splitted in the courtroom, "So, you've anybody to keep you company tonight?"
Man(mankind) can really be the most scary and ugly animal on this planet!
Schadenfreude in Life
This is an article I pulled out of the iVillage.com, it's further elaboration about us committing Schadenfreude in our daily life. :-)
Well, the "elaboration" is just for a laugh!
When Bad Things Happen to Bad People
The "social graces" term of the month is Schadenfreude, a word brought to us by the Germans, meaning "taking pleasure in the misfortune of others." Have you ever said mockingly, "It couldn't have happened to a nicer guy" about someone you didn't care for very much? So have we. But not all mishaps lead to this kind of gratification. Beheadings don't qualify. Nor do car accidents. The serious stuff doesn't make anybody happy. Here are some examples, to help you discern for yourself.
Your boss gets jury duty: Is this a cause for celebration? Yes. Your boss, presumably, has made your life miserable in the past and therefore has it coming.
Your best friend gets indicted: No. You are supposed to love your best friend. If you're a good person, you won't be happy at this unfortunate turn of events.
The straight-A student in your class messes up on a pop quiz and gets a B+: Yes. The anguished expression and trembling lower lip of your anal-retentive classmate should be enough to keep you smiling through lunch. Even if you got a lower grade, you are entitled to some satisfaction here, because straight-A students need to learn they aren't perfect.
The presidential candidate you opposed wins the election, then leads the nation into unprecedented disaster and his approval ratings go way down: No. As tempting as it may be to say, "I told you so," any national disaster presumably affects us all, and there is no room for gloating.
A pregnant woman on crutches misses her train: No. We feel bad for even coming up with this example.
A Broadway show created by two talented young composers wins three Tony Awards. During one of their acceptance speeches, they go over the allotted time and are drowned out by the play-off music: Yes. This happened to us. Bobby was so unnerved by the happy, jazzy music that he omitted mentioning his wife's name. It's okay ?- you may feel free to feel good.
Perhaps Leona Helmsley, the so-called Queen of Mean, gets caught cheating on her taxes (again): Yes.
It is (hypothetically) discovered that the late Mr. Rogers was guilty of the same crime: No. In fact, if Fred Rogers cheated on his taxes, we'd be glad that he got away with it. We love Mr. Rogers.
2006-05-26
"Cup of Coffee"
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A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.
Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.
When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress.
What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups.
Now if life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change. Some times, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."
So, don't let the cups drive you... enjoy the coffee instead.
- Author unknown --
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When I first read, I was tempted to agree with the whole thing, however, ya, I did feel something lack of... maybe, with my own understanding about life, about work, about anything at the moment...
This story IS ideal... AND very ZEN!! :-D
however, I don't want to say I'm disagreeing (err.. because it is very true, and ideal!), but, I just wish to elaborate more, with my own understanding...
Since small... we're never really taught to know, what real "coffee" is...
and from school, from parents, even while we're already grown up and are already working.. from company, from boss... we were never told what real "coffee" is... but!!
use the right tool!!
get the right person!
get the right equipment!
get the right car!!
get the right job!!
oh!! worse still!!
get the right husband/wife!!
ya... we're never educated about "coffee", never!!
however, we're educated to great extent to identify, and the skill to 'fight' for the right "tools"!!
right?
Then... I start thinking... as for me...even getting the "right tools", the idea is not good enough...
In my opinion, life is...
the process in pursuing the right tools, and thus, achieveing the right "coffee" that you want, and you'll enjoy!!
it's the process!!
In actual fact, ya... whatever cup to use, to drink the coffee, doesn't really matter... however... ooh!! the process of browsing through that many styles of coffee cups, and then, choose one that you like, is thrill!!
It's that simple!!
The other day, I went to a cafe downtown, and as oppose to what I usually get from one of the local cafe, a nice cappucino cup, I got a mug for my coffee... Arrgghh!! just like the Starbucks mugs... no thrill... so, I thought, sometimes, the "tool" that we use, can greatly influence our mood at that very moment, and thus, influence my taste bud..
cos... food, drink, clothes, people, life... etc. are all a matter in our mind...
that's why, we have 心情好, and 心情壞!!
because it does contribute to our decision, whether the food tastes good, the drink is great, the clothes is worth buying, cos, it makes me look beautiful, that person is actually quite pretty/handsome!!
Ya... the mood!! the ambience of our hearts!!
Haha, I like the taiwanese way of describing it... the OS!! (ya, Operating System, not sure if they're still using this at present though, "OS" was used about 1 year ago? I think!!)
So, I do think, to a certain extent, "tool" matters... :-D cos, the whole world is built up in this way... that's why, it's a material world!
otherwise, I can imagine the whole world will be just like the Lazar!!!
The 99 Club
這裡, 還有另一個小故事... 又是另一個朋友送來給我的...
故事有一點長... 耐心點唷!!
Long ago, there lived a King. This King should have been contented with his life, given all the riches and luxuries he had. However, this was not the case!.The King always found himself wondering why he just never seemedcontent with his life. Sure, he had the attention of everyone wherever he went, attended fancy dinners and parties, but somehow, he still felt something was lacking and he couldn't put his finger on it.
One day, the King had woken up earlier than usual to stroll around his palace. He entered his huge living room and came to a stop when he heard someone happily singing away... following this singing... he saw that oneof the servants was singing and had a very contented look on his face.
This fascinated the King and he summoned this man to his chambers. The man, his servant, entered the King's chambers as ordered. The King asked why he was so happy?
To this the man replied: "Your Majesty, I am nothing but a servant, but I make enough of a living to keep my wife and children happy. We don't need too much, a roof over our heads and warm food to fill our tummy. My wife and children are my inspiration, they are content with whatever little I bring home. I am happy because my family is happy."
Hearing this, the King dismissed the servant and summoned his Personal Assistant to his chambers. The King related his personal anguish about his feelings and then related the story of the servant to his Personal Assistant, hoping that somehow, he will be able to come up with some reasoning that here was a King who could have anything he wished for at a snap of his fingers and yet was not contented, whereas, his servant, having so little was extremely contented.
The Personal Assistant listened attentively and came to a conclusion. He said, "Your Majesty, I believe that the servant has not been made part of The 99 Club."
"The 99Club? And what exactly is that?" the King inquired.To which the Assistant replied, "Your Majesty, to truly know what The 99Club is, you will have to do the following... place 99 Gold coins in a bag and leave it at this servant's doorstep, you will then understand what The 99 Club is."
That very same evening, the King arranged for 99 Gold coins to be placed in a bag at the servant's doorstep. Although he was slightly hesitant and he thought he should have put 100 Gold coins into the bag, but since his assistant had advised him to put 99, that's what he did.
The servant was just stepping out of his house when he saw a bag at his doorstep. Wondering about its contents, he took it into his house and opened the bag. When he opened the bag, he let out a great big shout of joy...Gold Coins...so many of them.
He could hardly believe it. He called his wife to show her the coins. He then took the bag to a table and emptied it out and began to count the coins. Doing so, he realized that there were 99 coins and he thought it was an odd number so he counted again, and again and again only to come to the same conclusion...99 Gold Coins.
He began to wonder, what could have happened to that last 1 coin? For no one would leave 99 coins. He began to search his entire house, looked around his backyard for hours, not wanting to lose out on that one coin. Finally, exhausted, he decided that he was going to have to work harder than ever tomake up for that 1 Gold coin to make his entire collection an even 100 Gold Coins.
He got up the next morning, in an extremely horrible mood, shouting at the children and his wife for his delay, not realizing that he had spent most of the night conjuring ways of working hard so that he had enough money to buy himself that gold coin. He went to work as usual - only not in his usual best mood, singing happily - as he grumpily did his daily errands.
Seeing the man's attitude change so drastically, the King was puzzled. He promptly summoned his assistant to his chambers. The King related his thoughts about the servant and once again, his assistant listened. The Kingcould not believe that the servant who until yesterday had been singing away and was happy and content with his life had taken a sudden change of attitude, even though he should have been happier after receiving the gold coins. To this the assistant replied "Ah! but your Majesty, the servant has now officially joined The 99 Club."
He explained:"The 99 Club is just a name given to those people who have everything but yet are never contented, therefore they are always working hard and striving for that extra 1 to round it out to 100! We have so much to be thankful for and we can live with very little in our lives, but the minute we are given something bigger and better, we want even more! We are not the same happy contented person we used to be, we want more and more and by wanting more and more we don't realize the price we pay for it. We lose our sleep, our happiness, we hurt the people around us just as a price to pay for our growing needs and desires. That is what joining The 99 Club is all about."
Hearing this the King decided that from that day onwards, he was going to start appreciating all the little things in life. Striving for more is always good, but let's not strive so hard and for so much that we lose all those near and dear to our hearts, we shouldn't compromise our happiness for moments of luxuries!
2006-05-19
A ghost from the Past? A journey to the Future? CAUSE and RESULT
"Why do I have to end up like this?"
"Why am I doing this now?"
Sometimes, we notice people around us, there are generally 2 types.Those that mingled in the past, and those that wander into the future.
A lot of confused people always wonder, why they are in such situation at present,"Maybe because of something wrong I did before?""Maybe because my ancestors did something before?" (sorry, ancestors!!)However, throughout these year, and also maybe because of my Belief,I started to learn another way of thinking.
Personally I don't like to cry for the past or regret for what I have done, or rather, I have not done.However from time to time, I do have faith of what I am doing, (it can be wrong, it can be right, it can be something constructive, or, it can just be something rather nonsense) as I slowly learn that, whatever we are doing now,it WILL affect the future.
There are people who like to know the CAUSE from the past, (look at those tv programmes, talk shows, particularly some oriental talk shows, again, it's because of their general belief)to find peace for their present life.
As for me, past was too far away for me to imagineas well as future.
However, future looks more interesting and challenging, and exciting and yes, we're stepping into it, every minute, every second.
Therefore, I started to learn, NOW is always the CAUSEI learned not to seek for CAUSE in the past,
and I love imagining what it is like in the future,
"What's the meaning that I am doing this right now?"
"Is there a meaning that I get to know this new friend right now?"
Ya, due to my Belief, whatever we are doing or experiencing at the moment, there is always a meaning... and that's the arrangement of God.
Therefore, it's somehow interesting, when I have nothing better to do :-D
to start imagine what's God's plan to me... (of cource nobody ever succeed, but, it's an interesting journey)
Recently I have just finished one of the japanese drama, "Byakuyakou" 白夜行
frankly, I do not like this show, even though I know there're lots of fans there, cyring out loud for the LOVE between the couple.
It is a very sad and dark, and crooked and distorted kind of love story, but I'd rather say, it's not a love story at all.
The meaning of the title is,
"a walk in the midnight sun"
(from Wikipedia: The midnight sun is a phenomenon occurring in latitudes north of the Arctic Circle and south of the Antarctic Circle where the sun is continuously visible for at least 24 hours once per year. Since there are no permanent human settlements south of the Antarctic Circle, the countries and territories whose population experiences it are limited to Alaska, northern Canada, Greenland, Iceland, northern Norway, Sweden and Finland, and extremities of Russia such as Novaya Zemlya and the cities of Murmansk, Norilsk and Vorkuta. A quarter of Finland's territory lies above the Arctic Circle, and as a consequence the midnight sun can be experienced — for more and more days, the further north one goes. At Finland's northernmost point, the sun does not set for 73 days during summer.)
Ahh...!! I am not going to tell the story now (wait till I have the mood)basically, 2 of them, (the couple) ended up keep getting rid of people in their life, who knew their past. (they killed their parent for each other)
The reason for them to keep killing,
1. for each other
2. for the sufferings they have encountered in the past, from the parents.
The police who has been after them for 14 years,
said something like this...
ah... it went like that...
he was trying to tell what he has found out, and what he speculated about their killing act and how he stiched all the little bits and pieces together, to the librarian, who knows them since the couple were age 11. (ie. 14 years ago)
The librarian, being a nice and kind lady started crying for their misfortune,
she started asking, "why did they have to suffer like this, why did the adults have to do such cruel things to them, (when they were 11 years old)?"
However, the police responded like this,"it's all because both of them are morons!"
"if they have the 'intelligence' to kill their own parents, and hide it, they should have the intelligence to know that this will not get them anywhere in the future."
"if they have the 'intelligence' to subsequently kill so many other people, they should have the intelligence to know that they should surrender themselves to the police, and sort things out."
Sometimes, we do like to blame our own misfortune on others..
and it's like... the 'misfortune' (regardless it's big or small) IS the immunity for your future wrong doing!!
How many people ARE like this, and how many nations out there ARE like this?
will this get us anywhere, or it'll just turn each and everyone of us into some most distorted and ugly monsters...
ya, monster human, monster nation!
and how many of us, actually start thinking about the future, and start doing some right things now!!
I am not saying something 'good', but rather, what an individual thinks, RIGHT for the individual's future... so that, the future you will onto turn back and seek for the CAUSE now...
(but of course this will not include those psychopaths)
Oh, back to the drama, another message that I received is that, it's a battle between justice and love,serious... I really do not regard the relationship, and how much they've done for each other as an act of love.
What's the meaning of love, people will ask,
I will not be able to answer that, however, there is always a guideline somewhere,
by some smart wise man,this is something that somebody said,
LOVE is,
when you want to make yourself a better person, for that person you claim to love,
it's that simple.
We love our parents, we love our children, and we love our spouse, we love our brothers and sisters,
therefore, we keep ourselves happy and healthy,
it's that simple.
Boston Legal - The Ass Fat Jungle
About Shirley
This episode let me know more about Shirley Schmidt. I have always thought that she is there to control the situation, as opposed to Paul who is a typical boss, Shirley is about right.
However, this episode show the soft side as well as the human and weak side of her. She felt pain and guilty that she had to defend that "hit-and-run" boy and posting hostile questions to that tiny and humble but sharp old alzheimer lady in the court. She almost broke into tears. (and me too!!)
At the end of the day, she visited her father in the hospital, and told the father, she had won a case today in the court, but not the best case she has ever wanted.
As a viewer, you tend to judge her character and her decision to defend that boy. However, as a human, usually we fall into such trap, and at the end of the day, we will feel bad, and guilty and yes, that will be a black dot in your life, but yet, life still goes on!!
2006-05-03
Are you being manipulated?
Yes, are these people trying to manipulate us?
in the name of your improvment,
in the name of love,
in the name of your future,
in the name of your wealth,
in the name of your health,
in the name of your whatever %#$$^%&$ sake,
we are being manipulated.
We must have heard those words for zillion time.
Yes, by doing what he/she says, I will improve,
Yes, he/she loves me, that's why I MUST listen to him/her,
Yes, what he/she says is true, it's for my futures, I MUST listen to him/her,
Yes, if I do what he/she told me to do, I will be rich by age 30.
Sometimes, we even manipulate others intentionally/unintentionally.
Cos, we tend to think about anything, do any consideraion, make any decision, as a projection from OURSELVES.
As a parent, we manipulate our children to be future doctors or lawyers.
As a parent, we manipulate our children, in the name of love, to do whatever we say.
As a chid, we manipulated our parents to buy toys that we wanted.
As a spouse, we manipulated our husband/wife to do as we intended.
As a boss, we manipulated our subordinates, in the name of "your progress and improvement", to work overtime and work extra of the jobscopes.
As a subordinate, we manipulated our colleagues, and bosses, so that we can PROGRESS.
Skils of manipulation,
1. Make you feel guilty
2. Make you feel obligated
3. Make you feel sympathetic towards him/her
4. Make you feel embarrassed
5. Make you feel incompetitive
6. Make you feel "not good enough"
7. Make you feel bad when you express your emotion
This, generates a few types of people.
Those who are willing to be manipulated. (I don't know what's in their mind)
Those who are very resistant to be manipulated. (ie. you are still being manipulated, cos, you try so hard to resist it)
Those who manipulates.
What a sad world!!!
From wikipedia,
Social psychology
In a psychological context, manipulation means to influence a person or a group of people in such a way that the manipulator tries to get what he or she wants or makes a person believe something in a calculating, indirect and somewhat dishonest way. It is a form of psychological abuse.
For example, a manipulator will
use arguments that the manipulator does not believe in himself
or withhold or distort relevant information,
or launch false information (disinformation)
or "play" on the emotions of the person.
physically move the person, like a puppet
This might also involve propaganda when it is directed to more than one person.
There is a debate concerning the use of manipulation. For example, in general it is disturbing to have one's free will tampered with, while on the other hand, it may be desirable to manipulate or intimidate youths into taking a course of action that is alternative to their current course of actions, such as abusing firearms or narcotics.