weekends...

Never in my life, weekend means so much to me, serious…

Never in my life…

When I was studying, ya, weekend is weekend, weekdays, weekends, not much difference…

When I was working, still, weekend is weekend, in fact, for a while, weekends tend to be a little bit bored… cos, we can't find much 'meaningful' things to do… I mean, shopping shopping and shopping, until I "pok kai", still, it's just shopping… seriously I was quite bored with it, but staying at home is as bored… cos, cable TV over the weekend is the most boring thing of all…

However, after the arrival of baby, everything changes…

Weekend… means a lot to me, and to us…

Weekdays… it's just baby and me, most of the time, and doing the similar things most of the time…

Relax, quiet, and meaningful…

However… it's just the 2 of us, most of the time…

But when weekend comes…

Wow!! It's 3 of us, as a family!!

Our own family, him, me, and baby…

And for the first time in my life, I do experience the feeling of 'family'…

As a family we go out shopping,

As a family we go out for breakfast/lunch/dinner,

As a family we go out, meeting up with friends, who, also another family of their own… it's kinda cool!!! (at least to me)

Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I do surprised myself with this thought… ye… as a family…

Never in my life, this word means so huge to me…

And… as a family, we're together…

I remember watching the dorama "a flower shop without roses" (I blogged about it, haven't finished though… figured that, lately I don't really have the urge to watch heavy drama, give me something light, I'll finish it in 1 day, for eg. All the Galileo, Mr. Brain, BOSS that I've watch, nice!! Not that this one's not nice, just that, you know it's kinda heavy on the emo side, it's just a bit too heavy for a busy mother like me, kekekekeke!!)

Eiji, the main character in the show, was inviting this old lady, a neighbour of his, to come stay with him…

And the old lady's a bit reluctant at first, cos, they're not related to each other, in fact, she's enrolled herself into one of those old folks home already…

Then, Eiji said to her, "why can't we stay together?? Only people with blood ties are considered family?? Husband and wife were strangers, but when they get married, they're family…"

And after this persuasion, the old lady decided to move in with Eiji, be part of his family…

I thought that's pretty nice and sweet for Eiji to say that... (thanks to the script writer though)

And I know, the japanese, from time to time, like to make dorama similar as this, and they're basically trying to imply that, the closeness among family members is not by birth, but by… well… maybe interaction, communication, and sometimes, even arguments...

That's why I like to watch japanese dorama…

And that's why I kinda agree, if there's no argument at all, it's just so unlike a family... (of course, not when the argument gets serious and both turn out to be like enemies though)

But that also reminds me, always… of the AEC channel advertisement, if you're on AEC long enough, you may see this advertisement from time to time, sometimes, it's father & son, sometimes it's big family, sometimes it's this cool girl standing alone, but one that caught my attention is,

Mother & daughter, at first, they're like… having an argument, the backs facing each other, and both were pulling a long face.. But the next second you see, 2 of them were hugging each other, smiling…

Ye, that's mother & daughter… and ye, it reminds me of my mother and myself…

I guess, it takes real closeness between any two, to argue but yet get closer and closer…

(sometimes it works for certain people, sometimes it doesn't)

Cos, only people who're really close, the relationship can overcome anything, any argument, that's called family ^_^ and haha… that's what the dorama like to emphasize…

And sometimes, when family members who're just too polite to each other, it reminds me of the olden china days…

Where people are just too polite, for others to see… too polite… you're so careful that you won't upset each other, cos, you don't dare to upset the other person, cos, you're not sure, if this person will still love you, as family, or, will still bother about you, as family… that's why you tend to be very polite, ie. diplomatic in a way…

But this politeness, sometimes, give me some cliché… dealing with my close friends is even easier…,

You see… last time, my mother's the one that I can really show my true self… each of us, to a certain extent, we tend to live up to the image that we think the others will want to see, or, expect to see…

However, only, and only my mother, I don't have to bother, cos, I know, she accepts me as who I am, and how I am…

And that's the reason, while I was still in the workforce in this city… I go back to my hometown from time to time… spend a long 2 weeks there, to wind down.. To relax… yes, only with her, I'm relaxed… cos, I can be my true self… and I just live freely…

Say anything I want, eat anything I want, do anything I want…

And chit chat with her - without purpose, without motive… (just like what I'm doing now, typing down every single thought, without purpose, without motive, without worrying that, she'll like me, or she won't, cos, she's my beloved mother, and I've never doubt her love to me, she doesn't love me, cos I behave, or cos, I got good result - well, not that I really have good result, cos I have money - again, not that I've money!! See!!! That's why, she's my mother… God gave her to me, made me her daughter, for a wonderful 35 years, then, He took her, away, but sent me another wonderful and beautiful gift, to teach me how to become a mother myself…)

…. @_@

See… my problem is, I deviate too much from my original thought…

I need to scroll up to see what this title is… oh!! I was supposed to talk about weekends ^_^

Anyway… ^_^

For once, I know, weekend is really meant for family…

I used to think that… well… I didn't really feel for those "weekend's for family" when I was working…, I know, I understand, but I don't feel for it…

And now?? I do…