stinging nettle stings?

Breastfeeding symbol (Photo credit: Topinambour)

Ok… all breastfeeding moms know that, during "those" days…

The breastmilk supply will drop…

And therefore, I was desperately trying to increase the breastmilk supply over the weekend…

And that, I'd a botttle of stinging nettle, which I got from the local drug store,

Which, they ran out of fenugreek, and they told me, this, will do the same trick too…

I used it when I was still breastfeeding baby,

And now, I gotta use it, for gabriel…

For some reason, I wanted to get away with the rubber/plastic capsule,

So, I opened up the capsule and put it into my herbal tea…

For the past 3 nights…

And THAT…

Well… well…

Of course, as of now, I still can't confirm,

Till my next "test", but then…

Those nights (later, I recalled, I kept thinking thinking thinking of any changes lately, or any food that I've taken) that I've been taking stinging nettle,

Gabriel wasn't sleeping soundly,

He cried, cried hard, cried loud!

I blamed it on the teething… (again, maybe it's because of teething…) and it was bad,

See! if it's teething…

He didn't even allow me to massage his gum,

He didn't let me pat him, or console him,

He was irritable, and he would push my hand away, whenever I was trying to touch him…

He was so tired, and yet, he couldn't fall asleep…

During the days, we could see his dark eye rings, or red-eyes…

I was very bothered because of that,

And that, I thought about the supplement I was taking…

On the other hand,

My milk supply seemed to get back to normal, and that's why, as of last night, I stopped the supplement,

Surprisingly,

He slept soundly…

Again, as of now, today, second day without stinging nettle,

He's sleeping soundly again now,

So, teething?

Stinging nettle?

Hm…

See… I was trying to "research" regarding this, online!

And I couldn't find any clue,

All breastfeeding related sites mentioned, THIS is something to help boost the breastmilk supply,

But then, I came across something that's a little bit bothering me,

Ie. from webmd, it did mention, THIS, shouldn't be taken, if you're pregnant, or if you're breastfeeding…

Huh???

Now what?

parenting in progress... still progressing... ^_^

well... I supposed, the more kids you have, the more “skillful” you'll be... I supposed...

anyway,

with baby, I learned something, and of course, I'd missed something, cos, she's her strength, and she's her weakness.... through her weakness, I've learned something, and with her strength, then, I'm sure, I'd missed something...

so, with the coming of gabriel, then, it's the other way round,

new set of difficulties, and new set of blessing...

(I'm not comparing! Ok?? just writing a journal of my own...)

with gabriel,

well... those nursing problem that I used to have, for eg. Sore nipples, cracked nipples, and mastitis, and blocked/clogged milk ducts, you name it, I had it...

those nursing problems... now, I don't have, ie. A big big blessing...!!!!!!!

he's an efficient suckers, since birth...!!! (Praise the Lord!)

but then, did I tell you, though, I decided to have him out via cesarean, but then, I actually experienced all the labour signs, ie. Bloody “show”, labour cramp – contraction! And “water bag” break...!!! see!!!

so, in a way, I'm “experienced”, haha!!!!!!!

then, another blessing, (Praise the Lord again!)

never in my motherhood life, I could get a good night sleep, cos, with baby, I've gotta nurse her every 2 hours, and even when she's slowly moving on to solid food, I still have to run to her, with her getting up (she's a light sleeper) and crying at night... to soothe her, to pat her, and bla bla bla.... but with gabriel?? ya... there's one record... ie. I slept from at least 1am to 9am and that, he made a sound, not a cry, but just a sound, and I got up, and picked him up to nurse him, later, I learned from him, who got up earlier, that... apparently, gabriel's got up earlier, and he's playing alone, in his playpen, by kicking the changing tray just above his feet, and enjoy the shake of the playpen, and also see how the 3 bears hanging above his head, swaying...

ya, never in my life, I can be such blissful nursing mom... seriously!!

but then, well...

those “problems” that, I though, baby would have given to me, but yet, she didn't... I now am worried that, I'll have it this round, with gabriel,

for eg. Biting while nursing, when he's teething... ya, sweet baby, never really bit me, well, she intended to, while her teeth weren't sprouted yet, I stopped her then, after a few time, when the real teeth came out, she didn't bother biting me anymore!

And of course, there's some other “non-problem”with baby, which, I'm worried, will be something for me to have to overcome, when it comes to gabriel...

well, we shall see...

and...

Praise the Lord!

and there... you think you're that great, that, I need to give all my information??

see! Another perks of going fulling breastfeeding your baby is...

you can just tell THESE people off...

I just got a call from enfa club...

see!! enfa, they're soooooo “chiong kong” in our country... it's like it's THE formulae, and nothing else...

this lady called me, asked if I'm still preggy, I said “no, I've given birth”, first, they just like to call call call, and my babies, all are sleeping, the big one, and the small one...

then, immediately, she asked me, what's the baby name...

ooh... why should I tell you?

Ok!! I admit, I'm just like any other auntie, I got the free sample from the hospital, and that's when I “betrayed” myself, and signed up certain minimal information,

BUT THEN, I don't feel comfortable giving out my babies' information... see!!!

so, she asked,

and that, I rejected, I asked her why they need to know, they said, cos, I'm a member, and that, they need to call up to update my membership details...

see see see!!!

and I told her to cancel my membership,

she said, “but it's FREE!!”

(oh, so what if it's free?? I don't need...)

I said, I don't use formulae and I fully breastfeed my newborn...

again, she insisted, “it's FREE!”

so what!

So what!!! so what if it's free??

the thing is, also,

so what, if it's enfa club???

JUST TELL ME, SO WHAT??

I don't feel right that, without me willingly giving out information, they “invasively” asking for information!!

so what if they get the information? (ya, in a way, right too!)

not that, I'm going to buy any enfa formulae milk powder...

so, please don't simply call people up to ask for information, especially their kids' information!!

you guys just spent too much on your marketing... and ya, that's where we pay for the tin of formulae right??

even I just simply signed up in the hospital, for the free sample, you know what??

they spam my mailbox, literally, A MAILBOX, downstairs, my apartment,

with tonnes and tonnes of their newsletter, leaflet, and whatever crap...

please!!!

don't spam my real mailbox, will you??

There I Nurse Again, ^_^V

isn't it great??

nursing, ie. Breastfeeding...

1. my uterus/tummy went back to its size pretty fast...
2. neither my husband nor I, gotta wake up in the wee hour at night, to wash the bottles, wash the teats, and make milk for baby...
3. and that, I don't have to keep burping him (my newborn)... but yes, comparatively, he needs some burp, as compared to his sis...
4. in this 1 month of 'resting' time, I could eat as much as I want... though, I do keep an eye... but then, I eat happily... whatever food the confinement centre cooked for me...
5. it's even more “syok”, when my newborn, for this round, is a very efficient sucker... ^_^ and when I see that, haha, I've plenty of breastmilk for him... again, damn “syok” man!!!

if you ask me, breastfeed or formulae... I'll sure opt for the former... it's simply... CONVENIENT!

At night, I've plenty of sleep, though you'll shake your head... cos, I just carried him, and when I had my oxytocin, and he's his... both fell asleep... yes, I'm still carrying him, but why bother putting him down... I need my rest, and he needs his sleep, we just choose whatever's best for both of us...

yes I know, in the end, he may likes to be carried as often as he wants... but then, we'll see... and manage... that's the thing about parenting, right?

The Power of Prayer...

before I went into the hospital for my second boy's coming... (cesarean) I was plain worried...

worried about anything, if you ask me... about the household, about how my husband and my daughter would cope...

and therefore, I pray, I prayed very hard... every night... (haha! I thought it's supposed to be day and night?? anyway... ya... I prayed... that's the only power I could trust...)

I prayed for smooth operation, (cos, I insisted on a cesarean!)

I prayed for speedy recovery aftermath,

I prayed that, my husband and my daughter will cope well, and

I prayed that, my newborn son, will be healthy, (health is the MOST MOST MOST important criteria... if you live healthily, there's indefinite possibilities in your life, whatever you want, whatever you wanna do, but if you're not healthy... that's it...)

as of today,

as when I'm jotting down little notes...

I believe, I've recovered well, coming close to 2 weeks...

I have my confinement food catered... in fact, I wanted to cook, but in order to let my husband to have a peace of mind, I opted for a caterer...

and Praise to God... (Thanks you God!)

that, Gabriel, was having just mild jaundice,

and that... the biggest blessing of the year, with his birth...

he's a born sucker... ^_^, very good and efficient in suckling, at this age, ie. 2 weeks old...

he latches on well,

and he sucks well, most of the time, he'll finish off both sides...

and that, he'll sleep, and since he's full, he'll sleep for 3-4 hours...

and like I've mentioned, as opposed to his sister, madeleine, (that time, she was having jaundice, a more severe type, we concluded it was breastmilk jaundice...)

madeleine need to be breastfed every 2 hours, and each time, she'll be on my boobs, even just 1 side, for around 30-45 minutes,

and with madeleine, of course, it's the first time in my life, for me to nurse a baby...

I had mastitis, I had cracked nipples, sored nipples, and I gotta apply the lansinoh all the time...

and for some reason, the diaper on madeleine just couldn't fit well, huggies, mommy poko, any other brands, it'd leak... and we've more things to wash... more things to change,

for Gabriel's case, all these are gone...

of course, he's his problem,

lately, just these 2 days, he starts to have yellowish eye discharge, just 1 side of his eyes...

we read, it's blocked tear duct...

so, I massage his tear duct on and off... it seems better now,

however, I also suspect that, it's because of the confinement food that I've been taking,

cos, last time (first childbirth) I've a confinement lady, though she wanted to cook super duper confinement heaty stuff, but I forced her to cook something simple... I practically eat the same food every single day... cos, I didn't want any other stuff... though she insisted that, she could cook well... well, those other stuff that I didn't want to eat... ^_^

but since, this round, I've the food catered... so, they delivered whatever, since I've paid, and thus, I'll just wallop whatever!

And I reckon, that “increase” my inner “qi” temperature... well, chinese saying “heaty”!

And that contributes to the eye discharge for Gabriel... that's what I think,

cos, when the eye discharge was like... non-stop... I'd mine too... though not as severe...

then, yesterday, I forced myself to have plenty of water... really plenty of water...

and today, it seems better...

see!!!

this is the “problem” with this baby...

still!!! I've to say, cos,

this is unforeseen, and that, of course, I didn't pray particularly about this, ie. Eye discharge thing... it's NEW to us...

but then, whatever I've prayed,

Dear Almighty God's obviously there to listen...

and that, He's granted me HIS Blessing,

and He's granted Gabriel, HIS Blessing...

Confinement! Confinement! Confinement!!!!!!!!!!! (Damn you!!) OK! it's not too bad this time, frankly...

first of all...

I've to thank my husband, he's done a great great job!!

no no!! I'm not done with my confinement yet, haha! just 1 week... arrgh... 3 more weeks to go, though, by the end of next week, I think I can just go out for a big gigantic sashimi buffet... ^_^ (slurp!)

anyway,

yes, most of the people were "stunted", when I told them, I'm going to do without a confinement lady...

based on my past experience, I just hate the existence of one, one extra person at home...

NOW! I CAN HAPPILY BARE MY BOOBS (COS, I'M BREASTFEEDING) AND SLEEP LIKE A STARFISH IN MY LIVING ROOM, OR PRACTICALLY ANYWHERE IN MY HOUSE...

my husband's done a great job in taking over the work, looking after my dear baby daughter, (oops, again, she's a toddler now, but still my forever baby! dearest one!) for eg. Shower her, prepare lunch/dinner for her, read bedstime storybooks for her, make milk for her...

yes, he's done a great job...

and I've my confinement food catered from this SN Confinement Ladies Service, I've to say, so far, the expectation is just about right... they handle it pretty well... and I'm happy... (cos, I'm definitely not too happy with my previous confinement lady... getting her to stay-in, I've to entertain her, listen to her yakking non-stop... see!! I like quiet place, I like quiet environment, and what more to say, during my confinement... when I really need rest... I mean, I don't have to rest ALL DAY, but then, I like the freedom to rest whenever I can, and wherever I want, you get it?? having another person, or another 2 persons in my house, will just take all these luxury away...)

though, I do have to help with some minimal housework, for eg. Launderette, since I've recovered pretty well, can move around... (in a way, to make my wound heal faster, I gotta move more, rather than being bedridden!) I've offered to take over the job, but in order to make me easier (ie. Minimize bending, lifting...) I use a stool, bla bla bla bla bla...

see!! like I told my husband, I'm not pushing myself to the limit... and I'm just working myself within the limit, picking the right tools, to ease my job...

the thing is,

I like doing vacuuming... haha! With my new ergorapido SPECIAL!

And I like doing my launderette... ya, a little bit sick, I know... but then, seriousyly, it's pretty joyful for me... haha!

And I don't want another person, to come and keep reminding me that, I shouldn't do this and that...

see! My last confinment,

I've to kinda beg, or threaten my confinement lady to prepare the herbal bath for me...

and sometimes, I just have to close the door, and take my own shower, without listening to her “opinion”...

now?? haha! I take shower BY DEFAULT!

Especially these few days, weather here sucks...

the thing is...

my husband still hasn't given up...

he's still trying to tell me, not to shower, not to do this and that...

I give him one condition,

“if today, I'm staying in beijing, or I'm staying in somewhere northern china! I'll listen to you!!”

haha!! I should have done this long time ago...

yes! Come on!! todayy, at present day,

our generation's staying down south, near the equator... you know how damn hot it is??

there are time, I just wish I'm not a chinese, or I don't marry a chinese... maybe things will be easier for me...

but then, I'm not saying that, I hate whatever or I dislike whatever I have, or whoever I am now...

yes, there're time like this...

however~ no matter what, I've to say, I enjoy this confinement more than the previous time...

my newborn??

err... I don't know why people keep thinking that, the so-called confinement lady HAS TO look after the newborn,

in actual fact, newborn is very easy to take care of,

what more to say, I'm a nursing mom...

half of the time, I'm carrying him to nurse,

half of the time, he's sleeping...

another bit of the time, he's awake, I change his diaper, or I bathe him,

that's all?

Why do I need a confinement lady there????

and what more to say,

my opinion is...

confinement ladies out there,

they're different practices,

all from their experiences...

some are not too right, some are not too wrong, but there's no such handbook, or guidebook, or “bible” for them to strictly follow...

some can cook, some cook bad food,

some don't use the ingredient fully, some waste the ingredients you provide to them...

like I said, there's no standardization...

and yet, we simply get one, depends on our luck,

and some!!! I mean, some confined mother out there, just listen to them blindly...

as if that's the only bible in the confinment world...

somehow, I think, it's pretty sad...

so, if the confinement lady's wrong, then, it's just wrong...

so, if the confinement lady tell you that, for 30 days strictly you should not get into contact with any cold water...

then, probably, you don't have to wash your hands often...

seriously!!!

after I've stayed in hospital for 5D4N, fully airconditioned hospital ward...

I took my first inaugural shower at home,

I still feel that, the layer of dirt on me's pretty thick...

yes, you may find it gross, but I'm telling you so, cos, it's reality!!!

reality is...

you sleep in your room, with your kid (some don't, then, maybe it's ok) and with your husband, or maybe you're alone,

and you're sleeping with layers of dust and dirt on you... I find it yuck!

Then, the second day, I take my second shower... (in such damn hot weather!)

let me tell you,

I still feel that, the layer of dust/dirt's endless!!!!!!

and you may think that, why should I make my husband help with the confinement period...

why not?

And why would any husband reject that???

when you've your enjoyment in impregnated your wife...

is that it??

you leave everything to your wife,

or your parents, or a so-called confinement lady? Or a maid???????

that's the ONLY thing you guys(men) are capable of doing???

even though my husband's not a domestic god(dess) but then, I'm glad that, he's left home for study before...

and that, he at least, know how to cook, how to do the houseworks and bla bla bla...

let me tell you, I hate those chinese “siu yeh chai”, exactly as what I've described...

LEAVE EVERYTHING TO OTHERS!

And think bloody highly of themselves!

You see!!

I wanted to write this post...

each time, when I'm lazing around, lying like a starfish in the living room, in the couch...

yes, damn syok!

And I don't have to entertain/listen to nonsense... or non-stop noise pollution!

And I can pop-up my boobs anytime I want, when I need to nurse...

isn't that great??

AND NOW? my second baby is here, another, yet new experience for me!

Oh ya… I've just delivered my second one, a boy…

Yet, another new experience, seriously…

Though it's just another cesarean… but then,

Signs of labour??

Ya!! Tell me about it, I've gone through it all…

Well, you may ask me since then, why didn't I just deliver the baby the natural way…

No!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well,

Signs of labour 1: Contraction,

Ya… I've it since 2 nights ago, before the actual delivery date…

At first, I thought it's false alarm, and not being prepared emotionally to leave my husband and daughter behind, I didn't want to check myself into the hospital and just wait…

In addition to that, I WAS still thinking of the opportunity to deliver my boy the next calendar year… gosh!! It's just a few days away…

For that 2 nights, I was monitoring my pain,

It felt like period pain, ya… I'm one of those hormon victims, who'd period pain since I was a teenager… very painful type of cramp…

How do I manage?

Ya… let me tell you, you listen to Radiohead's new album "the king of limbs"… damn trance man!! Haha!

Finally… the third day itself, I told my husband, that it's better for me to be admitted to the hospital, seems like the pain won't go away, and,

The funny thing is…

My "water" also has broken… just that, it's unlike what others have described "a gush of water"… it's just some slurry and translucent material…

Ya, the first thing that came, is actually not the contraction,

But the "bloody show"… see!!! All signs, I've been through, in a way, I’m "experienced" haha!

Yes, "bloody show" started like almost 1 week ago… or at least 5 days…

So, I checked into the hospital, and the nurse/midwife told me, my cervix in fact has dilated 3cm… arrgh…

If I wait longer, maybe I'll be able to deliver naturally…

And seems I could withstand the contraction for 2 nights,

Why not???

Now, I’m not patient,

Each time, including oldtime, when I had my period pain,

I've always asked THE AIR, when's going to stop??

WHEN WHEN WHEN???????

No, I'm not patient enough to deal with the pain, given that, MAYBE my pain tolerance level's pretty high… but no, I don't wanna deal with it anymore…

Let me tell you,

I was soooooooooooooo scared of the epidural/spinal block jab indeed…

Though I've experienced once, but I was still terrified, however!!

That day,

Maybe because of the pain,

Everything was like, went through so fast, like a flash light…

The epidural… I was soooooooooooo glad when I felt its effect on my lower part of my body…

No more pain!

No more pain!!!

Then, doctor works his way to get baby out,

Then, placenta…

Everything else, doesn't matter to me anymore…

I just wanna sleep…

Because of the pain… gosh!!

I was in the hospital, 5 days 4 nights, (fri-tue)

At first, I was so ambitious to even tell my husband to bring my notebook to the hospital, when I got up I wanna use it…

But then, I forgot that, due to the wound,

I couldn't even sit up properly, it'll be a struggle to me,

There, I didn't even bother to watch TV or anything,

And I guess, I need to really rest to recover fast enough to go home…

I miss my daughter… my baby… I mean, my daughter's always a baby, that's what I told her,

Her brother? My newborn?? We'll just refer him by his name…

Baby = Her, my daughter… I missed her so much…

I missed hugging her to sleep, smelling her and so on…

Anyway,

After a long of rest and lengthy sleep, though the first 2.5 days, I was still dealing with the pain,

The pain from the wound,

The pain from the contraction (yet, not ended, right?) of the uterus… (luckily, I prefer breastfeed, that's always the best thing to solve ANYTHING!)…

And the pain from the drip, and so on… (gosh! My hand's still swollen man!)

THEN!!

LAST BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY…

The pain on my back and bottom, ie. my buttock, due to being bedridden on the super hard hospital bed…

It's good quality bed, I mean, in the hospital, clean sheet, and leather mattress… but you know, it's simply too hard for sleeping pleasure…

It's just bloody painful, let me tell you,

Till the day I checked out,

I guess, my wound was doing fine, my uterus was doing fine,

It's just my buttock and my back… gosh!!

It's so painful to the extent that, I called it NUMB!

I came back,

Put some plaster (tokuhon, salonpas) on…

And it healed quite a bit… and I sat on my own bed!

Oh! Heaven!

Ya… I brought the neck pillow, but I forgot about these plaster… damn!!!

Yes, the neck pillow's another life saver…

The first night, I slept on the hospital pillow,

Somehow, hard, and unbreathable, leather… what do you expect???

Then, I realized, hey! I've my own u-shaped little pillow, why not??

That's why, the first/second night, I didn't have much quality sleep, till the nurse who came in to check on me, even asked me if I could sleep…

I told her, no, just can't sleep…

Then, I switched to my little u-shaped pillow…

Then… though, the back/buttock damn painful…

I was still able to have good quality sleep…

Gosh!!

Yes, I thought I've been through everything during my first childbirth…

But then again,

This time, another new experience added into my "being a woman; being a mother" resume!

Earth Hour or not?

Since the Earth Hour day's approaching,

I suddenly thought of this… yes, while rinsing baby's cloth diaper…

I know, because of this "event", there're a lot of business people seeing business opportunity for this, ie. party…

Good and bad…

While, most of the people are busy "attending" one…

I was wondering,

How many!!

How many out of these people, who're attending the event, are a real earth person?

I'm not saying I'm one of them, at least, on the "earthian" basis,

I give myself, just a passing mark…

I mean, I don't strive hard to achieve one, but then, I do remind myself to be one…

Get it?

How many of these people, eat more vegetables? Or eat more organic farmed vegetables?

How many of these people, who happen to be parents, cloth-diaper their babies/toddlers, and mothers - breastfeed…

How many of these people, who actually shop minimally… (ok, just like my previous blog, I'm "on my way" there… at least, I know very well that, being a mother, make me a better person, kinda… and Praise the Lord for that…)

How many of these people, who don't drink, don't smoke… come on!! Party people!

My failed part is…

I need airconditioning…

The weather's very hot… damn hot… and I know, the more airconditionings out there, up and running, and hotter the weather will be…

Chicken and egg…

Another chicken and egg thing… the weather's changing, it's colder around this time, compared to previous years… again, due to the global warming or whatever it is…

Weather pattern's changing, kinda shifted… my layman-term observation, ie. it used to snow around dec-jan in the northern hemisphere, but it still snow… NOW… scary, if you ask me…

And because of this,

I acutally CAN, and able to sleep without airconditioning… the second half of the nigh… till the morning, till the noon… good huh?

So, minimal…

Another failed part is…

Gosh!! I've to on my PC… NO MATTER WHAT,

And, yes, NO MATTER WHAT…

I can live without the rest, but no, my life will be meaningless, without my PC, without internet…

What a big enemy to the earth, right?

Back to the Earth Hour thing…

Therefore, the whole thing, yes, I know, it's out of good will… but when it's turned into the money-making reason for business people, and while it's becoming so POPULAR…

How many of those people who SUPPORT the idea… actually live the idea?

My favourite quote…
"It's far easier to fight for principles than to live up to them." ~ Adlai Stevenson…

24-hour production...

Baby's just recovered from her fever, yep, high fever… the highest we got (ear thermometer) was 40 degree celsius,

Then, the reading wandered around 38. something, to 39. something, no good, no good!!

Anyway, she's recovered,

To have a peace of mind, or course, doctor took her blood, (and of course, she cried loud loud, as loud as she could… nearly tear down the clinic)

To rule out dengue, tyroid, UTI (also took urine) and etc.

Phew…

Praise to Lord, it's neither none of these…

Just viral infection,

Though, there's no direct relationship, and that doctor also told us that, it couldn't be…

The 2nd day when she got the high fever, after the clinic, I happened to be standing behind her, facing the top of her head, and she happened to open her mouth,

I saw her molar tooth, both sides, sprouting…

Could that be the cause?

Well… all experts will tell me, NOPE!!!

But I thought, that's the trigger… anyway… it doesn’t matter,

Afterall, she's recovered, just with some paracetamol, and some ibuprofen, luckily no antibiotic, well, we're given a bottle of it, but luckily…

And as what doctor has briefed us,

After the fever subsided, rash will come up…

Hahaha… REALLY!!!

Later that night, baby started to have some rash on her forehead, and the rim of her head,

Then, the next day, she woke up with rashes all over her face,

Look funny!!! ^_^,

Though, with rashes, at least, she's of better mood now…

As of today, the rash has covered her body, to the legs…

Poor baby…

Oh!!! My point is…

I guess, it's that teething thing,

Gosh!! Ever since she's her fever, technically I think… it's only 4-5 hours a day, that my boobs are cleared of her… ^_^

She's constantly on me, as long as I sit, even though when I'm doing my chores (cooking, for eg., or washing) she did try to get me to carry her, but at least, today, she started to listen to me, and gave me some time to complete my task…

Though… as long as I start sitting down…

That's it!!!

Ie. I can't rest LO!!

Night? It's worse!!

See!!  Normally I do have my personal time and space, at night, ie. after midnight! (internet, write blog, do some backup, do some point-less techy stuff)

But since the fever!!

Gosh!! She's constantly asking for me, to go back to the room, and to offer her my assets!

@_@

Yes!! I know, dear!! I know that it's the teething thing that makes you uncomfy, and having wakeful night, but… can you please don't KACAU mama???????? Let mama do some personal thing??

PLEASE!!!!~~~~ ONEGAI~~~~~~~

bottle or breasts? ... from a lazy person point of view...

Ok… since I'll be facing this thing called "weaning" a few months down the road, I've started to think about bottles, yes, bottles for baby, or no bottles for baby, or what bottle for baby… @_@

Seriously, I truly enjoy being a breastfeeding mom to my lovely baby…

I've always thought, "attachment parenting", in the end, it's me who's "attached", not baby, maybe… ^_^

Bottle or breasts??

If you ask me,

And being such a lazy person, yes, if I've a choice, I'll rather not do too much work…

Lazy~~~

I'll definitely opt for breasts…

In the middle of the night, especially…

Whenever she needs "anything", whenever I'm half-asleep…

I just "pop" out my assets, "nah!"…

Then, I go back to my sleep, when is she finishing?

Seriously, I don't know…

If she'll just kinda get up again and continue to suckle?

Seriously again, I don't know, and I don't  bother…

I know, a lot of "experts" will tell you that, "no!! This shouldn't be that way, else…", but who cares??

I get my sleep, she gets her "food", that's it…

She happy, I happy…

When I think of the fact that, I really really do have to wean her off my breasts, A FEW MONTHS DOWN THE ROAD,

To exaggerate a little bit, wow!! I cold-sweat!

Ya… imagine, the middle-of-the-night, getting your lazy bone up, to make milk, even though we may be creative enough to come out with the shortest short-cut to minimize our movement, WE HAVE TO GET UP!!!!!

Even for myself, some nights, when I sleep through the night…

I also have problem giving myself enough water to think, cos, I NEED TO GET UP!! Which I just can't!!!

See!!!!!!

One problem... if I sleep through the night...

ooh... problem, problem, problem... haha!!!

well... it's kind of a problem...

despite the fact that, I still have to switch places, as I'm still nursing my baby at night, ya, despite these midnight "activities", I consider... not getting out of the bed, as "sleeping through the night"..

oh ya!! I'm actually wondering, do normal people... get up at night at all??

to drink water? to go to the washroom?

or, NORMAL PEOPLE really sleep through the night???

anyway... if I do sleep through the night, I'll sure be dehydrated the next day, yep, just like last night...

this morning, I got up, dehydrated, having uncomfortable throat...

see!! as I'm still feeding baby at night, I do need more water intake...

and IF I sleep through the night, no water intake, not water outage, I feel VERY dehydrated...

and because of that, I suddenly have a funny idea, I'm pretty sure, a lot of people, after hearing me saying out my "idea", these people may think that, I'm nut... but then, hehe...

well, the idea is,

I suddenly thought, it'll be good, if I can actually have a soft plastic bag of drinking water, hanging at the side of the bed, and there'll be a soft straw attached to it, ie. whenever I get up, feel like replenishing the fluid in me, then, I can just pull the straw, and start drinking...

ooh... you may think that, this is such a lazy idea... or, crazy idea, or, even, a very sick idea... ^_^

but then...

when I complained to him, this morning, that I was so dehydrated...

(and when you're so tired and sleepy at night, it really is a BIG effort, to pull yourself up, and get yourself out of the bed, to go to the washroom!!)

immediately, he actually mentioned that, it'll be good, to have those biker's type of soft water container attached to the bed, and that I can get a drink at night!!

wow!! ya, I'm impressed, indeed... seriously...

it's not easy to have such "identical" minds, (ok, at that moment!!! it doesn't really happen that often!!) at one time...

and just when this idea was playing its round in my head, he voiced it out, exactly the same...

ah... at the end of the day,

I'm seriously glad that this person's my husband, kekekekeke...

see, it makes a huge difference, between "having the same mindset", and "I say, and he agrees"...

hm... then, maybe I should really seriously go get a soft bottle... kekeke...

but nah... I don't really sleep through the night EVERY SINGLE DAY, for eg. as of now, I'm awake, waiting to do my ironing... yet, happily procrastinating... and interneting, tweeting, fb-gaming...

in the middle of the night..

THAT, I get plenty of fluid intake... no irritated throat!!