Oh ya… I've just delivered my second one, a boy…
Yet, another new experience, seriously…
Though it's just another cesarean… but then,
Signs of labour??
Ya!! Tell me about it, I've gone through it all…
Well, you may ask me since then, why didn't I just deliver the baby the natural way…
No!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well,
Signs of labour 1: Contraction,
Ya… I've it since 2 nights ago, before the actual delivery date…
At first, I thought it's false alarm, and not being prepared emotionally to leave my husband and daughter behind, I didn't want to check myself into the hospital and just wait…
In addition to that, I WAS still thinking of the opportunity to deliver my boy the next calendar year… gosh!! It's just a few days away…
For that 2 nights, I was monitoring my pain,
It felt like period pain, ya… I'm one of those hormon victims, who'd period pain since I was a teenager… very painful type of cramp…
How do I manage?
Ya… let me tell you, you listen to Radiohead's new album "the king of limbs"… damn trance man!! Haha!
Finally… the third day itself, I told my husband, that it's better for me to be admitted to the hospital, seems like the pain won't go away, and,
The funny thing is…
My "water" also has broken… just that, it's unlike what others have described "a gush of water"… it's just some slurry and translucent material…
Ya, the first thing that came, is actually not the contraction,
But the "bloody show"… see!!! All signs, I've been through, in a way, I’m "experienced" haha!
Yes, "bloody show" started like almost 1 week ago… or at least 5 days…
So, I checked into the hospital, and the nurse/midwife told me, my cervix in fact has dilated 3cm… arrgh…
If I wait longer, maybe I'll be able to deliver naturally…
And seems I could withstand the contraction for 2 nights,
Why not???
Now, I’m not patient,
Each time, including oldtime, when I had my period pain,
I've always asked THE AIR, when's going to stop??
WHEN WHEN WHEN???????
No, I'm not patient enough to deal with the pain, given that, MAYBE my pain tolerance level's pretty high… but no, I don't wanna deal with it anymore…
Let me tell you,
I was soooooooooooooo scared of the epidural/spinal block jab indeed…
Though I've experienced once, but I was still terrified, however!!
That day,
Maybe because of the pain,
Everything was like, went through so fast, like a flash light…
The epidural… I was soooooooooooo glad when I felt its effect on my lower part of my body…
No more pain!
No more pain!!!
Then, doctor works his way to get baby out,
Then, placenta…
Everything else, doesn't matter to me anymore…
I just wanna sleep…
Because of the pain… gosh!!
I was in the hospital, 5 days 4 nights, (fri-tue)
At first, I was so ambitious to even tell my husband to bring my notebook to the hospital, when I got up I wanna use it…
But then, I forgot that, due to the wound,
I couldn't even sit up properly, it'll be a struggle to me,
There, I didn't even bother to watch TV or anything,
And I guess, I need to really rest to recover fast enough to go home…
I miss my daughter… my baby… I mean, my daughter's always a baby, that's what I told her,
Her brother? My newborn?? We'll just refer him by his name…
Baby = Her, my daughter… I missed her so much…
I missed hugging her to sleep, smelling her and so on…
Anyway,
After a long of rest and lengthy sleep, though the first 2.5 days, I was still dealing with the pain,
The pain from the wound,
The pain from the contraction (yet, not ended, right?) of the uterus… (luckily, I prefer breastfeed, that's always the best thing to solve ANYTHING!)…
And the pain from the drip, and so on… (gosh! My hand's still swollen man!)
THEN!!
LAST BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY…
The pain on my back and bottom, ie. my buttock, due to being bedridden on the super hard hospital bed…
It's good quality bed, I mean, in the hospital, clean sheet, and leather mattress… but you know, it's simply too hard for sleeping pleasure…
It's just bloody painful, let me tell you,
Till the day I checked out,
I guess, my wound was doing fine, my uterus was doing fine,
It's just my buttock and my back… gosh!!
It's so painful to the extent that, I called it NUMB!
I came back,
Put some plaster (tokuhon, salonpas) on…
And it healed quite a bit… and I sat on my own bed!
Oh! Heaven!
Ya… I brought the neck pillow, but I forgot about these plaster… damn!!!
Yes, the neck pillow's another life saver…
The first night, I slept on the hospital pillow,
Somehow, hard, and unbreathable, leather… what do you expect???
Then, I realized, hey! I've my own u-shaped little pillow, why not??
That's why, the first/second night, I didn't have much quality sleep, till the nurse who came in to check on me, even asked me if I could sleep…
I told her, no, just can't sleep…
Then, I switched to my little u-shaped pillow…
Then… though, the back/buttock damn painful…
I was still able to have good quality sleep…
Gosh!!
Yes, I thought I've been through everything during my first childbirth…
But then again,
This time, another new experience added into my "being a woman; being a mother" resume!
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