sending her to government school...

ya... you read the title, it's a big NO NO right??

yep... for a while, I thought about sending her to private school, but after some check and balance, we think it's pretty risky... what more to say, all my peers, they're having their kids in government schools too...

all still look cheerful,

all are still smart,

all are still very... themselves, if you know what I mean...

all... still have lives... again, if you know what I mean...

anyway,

I've come across such saying before...

in the end, it's our attitude that counts, ie. parents' attitude, towards their performance in school, academically, or non-academically...

and... anyway, you should know... parents, are the first teachers to our dear children...

and... if you do disagree, then, stop here, and leave this page, I've nothing much to say,

in the end, we're in different world, we're in different position, and, we're in different boat...

so, the other day, we went to some place, to have some buffet, and the common washroom, based on the past experience, was dirty...

and I disliked it a lot,

so, the other day, when we're about to go to the washroom, I was telling my baby, that, the washroom is very dirty, "are you sure you wanna go with me?", (I haven't got much choice, as, I had too much of green tea, and that, I really gotta let it go, ^_^)

and that's what my baby said,

"don't worry, the washrooms in my school, are even dirtier!!"

now... I kinda gathered, what our education will provide my children...

well... I don't expect our education to be anything great, so great as to be compared to education system in other countries, even our nearby neighbouring countries...

oh~~ all not so great...

yes, we, parents, are job is to fill in the blank...

but I kinda gathered, yes, kinda...

that, it'll kinda train my children to be tougher~

haha...

yes, survival skill...

survival skill in this horrible world, in this horrible country, with horrible other people! kinda...

horrible, mostly...

of course, no. 1 to be,

dirty washrooms,

50 over children in a classroom, fighting for attention,

classroom with no cool-airconditioner, in hot weather at present, hotter and hotter...

though most children choose to be quiet, but still learning and trying to ask question... (I asked her to try to talk to teacher, when teacher's free!)

eating in a not so appetizing canteen, (no, I've to be fair, in fact, the canteen in her school is new, and pretty good, good enough for the standard of being it called "government", I think, it can be worse, but Praise the Lord, this school, really is not that bad!)

learning 3 languages, and sometimes you do wonder why... why so many... and most importantly, the "weight" is not balanced...

having textbooks/workbooks, which... seriously, even as an adult, you don't quite understand WHY, the purpose of the syllabus, and the purpose of those questions...

nevermind, we'll go through it,

and we'll check it out, trying to solve the problems...

ie. the problems of those brain-damaged book editor/writer, who, probably didn't even know where they're heading...

but, all so nevermind~

we'll go through this together,

we'll be tougher,

and hopefully one day, after going through all these great nonsense in our country...

we'll yet grow up to be tougher, (as for me, grow OLD to be tougher)

and that, hopefully one day, we'll be able to help to improve such system...

hopefully...

and hopefully, one day, when we look  back,

we'll say to them,

"nah... you stay where you are," (ie. as stupid as you can be!)

"and, I'll go where I want to go, with my strength, and my freewill...",

yes, THIS,

is to teach us to be...

tougher... simply...

as I told my childhood friend the other day...

don't look at those school academically...

these places...

ARE MERELY...

HOSTILE!

(you ask me why? ya... full of $$ scandal, 1.headmaster/headmistress who siphon the money from the school fund to don't-know-where, ie. hostile for the parents! 2. headmaster/headmistress/teacher, who, without communicating sincerely, bring out a cane, and hit those poor little school goers - you tell me, the environment's not hostile?? 3. once in a while, stupid politician bring out all sorts of nonsense facts, just for their own benefit, if you ask me, but that... involves change, CHANGE in our education system! not hostile??? HOSTILE~~~~~)

hostile??

ya... whoever are involved in causing this hostile environment, you deserve hell~

but I'll still thank you, for making our children tougher... if they will be...

and that's one good thing that you've done,

in this worldly world...

yet, it's not good enough of course, to bail you out of hell...

A.M. & P.M.

see... I've been struggling for a while, as in a few months, at least... regarding sending my 1^st baby to afternoon session school, vs. morning session... here, cos, the classrooms are never enough for the kids, primary schools and high schools... therefore, there will always be morning session AND afternoon session, with the lower grades go into afternoon sessions...

and I've beens struggling for a while, cos, I thought I wanted the morning school for my baby... as in, I thought, if she continues to go for morning schools... she'll be able to continues her other extra classes... and life will be easier for me...

but then, one day, I kinda got cold-feet a little bit, thinking of how early I'll have to get up, to get her ready, or US, ready to send her to school... not only that, after that, I'll have to send my little one to the kindy... yep, immediately I felt inconfident in that...

then, one day again, I kinda read about other moms and so on... mentioned about the fact of having one in the morning school, and one in the afternoon school... yes, the logistic part is a little bit challenging... a lot of driving in and out and bla bla bla... but then, there's something that's pretty... mm.... I'll say, “rewarding”, as in, at any time, you'll face 1 kid alone... as in, there'll be a lot of precious 1-to-1 session with the kid... and, I thought, that's pretty cool... rather than, as this moment, after I pick up big baby from kindy, she'll be a home, have lunch, nap, then, get up for classes, then, play, then bla bla bla... and lot of 2-kids-together time, that also means, a lot of fighting time... maybe... I was thinking to myself, maybe if, 1 in the morning, and 1 in the afternoon, the only time they can see each other is at night, hopefully they'll treasure each other more...

and hopefully, I can spend better time with each one of them...

cos, currently the little one has not gone to kindy yet... yap, big mama here prefers to keep him at home and enjoy his cuteness fully~~ (still super very cute! ^_^)

so... in the end, I told big baby, that, I'll not apply to change the school for her... she'll go to THAT school that I've registered her...

and hopefully, God Blesses us, THAT, she'll get into that school...

cheers...

she cries~~

the other day, it's PTM (Parent-Teacher-Meeting) in her school... so, I went, and chatted with her form teacher...
generally, and overall... she's fine... except...
teacher mentioned that, she's rather emo, and cries easily...
most of the time, she'd cry, before telling others what the problem was...
and the form teacher would try to calm her down and get her to speak out first, before CRYING~~~
I mentioned to the teacher that, she's been pretty emo since she's born... and that's what I've been telling her too... before cry, speak first...

on the way back, I asked her why she cries so  much in the school...
then, I said this...
why don't you cry at home, and then, when you go to school, you don't cry...
guess what this girl say? I mean... guess how she responded???

she said,
If I cry at home, you'll scold me...

ok... now, I get it,
you choose to cry, and you seem to enjoy it...
cos, at home, if you cry, I'll scold you, so, you choose to do it at school...
ie. you cry, by choice...

hm... what type of mentality is this????
ya, my girl...

Two is Good

First thing first...
if I'm younger... the more the merrier, not just “two is good”, hahaha!
Of course, I'm not sure about other people, and I won't say this, to be applied to other people, everybody's different...
but to me, yes, two is good,
and of course, 1 girl and 1 boy, is good, it's not because of the social background that I have, but generally, it's because, by having a girl and a boy, then, I know how each kid, different sexes, behave differently... ^_^


and what I'll say is, I'm in fact, a little bit regret that, I(or we) were a little bit too strict on our girl... -_-


why?
Let me share with you...
on the no.2,
he's slightly more “brave”, though, for some reason, he hates moving objects that makes sound... irregardless if it's in front of him, or in the TV,
else, he's more brave... cos, he couldn't care less of what we think, or what we may say about him, worse is, he'll just throw things, or throw a tantrum, the way he does it, he'll just stretch himself, if you're trying to put him down, or carry him, or, he'll just throw himself to the ground, and pretend that he's angry... ya, half of the time, he's just putting it into an act, to show you that, he's unhappy...
my girl, as a girl, she'll normally try to force herself to be obedient...
note it, force herself...


my boy,
he's more “origin', cos, overall, we don't really have much time for him, ie. He's more of the free-and-easy kid, cos, papa & mama pay more attention to the sister, and anyway, the sister also demands it...
so, overall, he's pretty free and less watched... therefore, he's more origin,
just for example,
just now, I was playing words with him, ie. I say “eye”, he'll point at his eyes, supposedly,
that time, he's holding a jello, small little one, and what he did was, he use the jello to do the pointing job, yo!!! cute man!!!
so, eye, ears, nose, mouth, all he used the jello to do the pointing job...
THIS, is very origin of him, none of us in the house have really done this before, ie. He's not been shown such act before, maybe a little bit of modification from the sis, but well, kinda original...
then, I said “buttock”, he took a while to think, cos, that's not the part that we normally show to him,
when I showed him, poking his little bum bum, he laughed...
the last one I said, “nen nen”, ie. Breasts...
actually he knows where it is, on himself, I mean... cos, usually I like to tell him, “mama bite nennen”, he'll laugh... I don't really bite, but then, I was tickling him with my mouth on his tummy... and he'll laugh laugh laugh...
so, when I said “nennen”, he paused, and thought for a while,
guess what he did next???
very cute yo~~~~
he used the jello, pointed at mine, hahahahahahaha!!! I thought that's so cute!
^_^


and these two days, I don't know why, he insisted me putting on a pair of socks for him,
again, usually we use socks on him, when we go out, when he's supposed to wear his shoes, cos, he's sweaty feet, so, I thought it's more hygienic for him to put on a pair of socks... but he insisted it not to be taken off... @_@


most of the other things, or acts that he does, were to copy the sis'...
else, he's pretty original...
whereas my dear darling girl,
she's more obedient, ie. Most of the things she does, (unless she's playing) or actions that she puts on, are something that we condone...
I then, try to discourage her...
but then, we started her with being strict, that's why I said, I'm feeling a little bit regretful... -_-


well... I kept telling him then,
as a girl, which I read somewhere,
usually, a girl, she cares for relationship more, rather than her own intention, that's the difference between a girl and a boy,
my boy? Typical boy, as if he cares what we think, or what we want off him...
though, to the older people, they think, this is absolute disobedient, but then, I told him, that, I'll rather my kids to have their own mind, a strong one, doesn't matter, than, being an over-obedient person, ie. Imagine, next time in work, they'll be just they typical “mr. yes-man”!


And yes, therefore, normally for domestic violence, it's most of the time, the girl's who's the victim, or you call it, the woman...
cos, for the relationship between you and me, the “you” can be father, mother, boyfriend, husband, or anybody that you care, and you love, I don't mind letting go of my ambition, my dream, my intention, my own thinking... yes, that's what a girl will do, and that's what I don't want my girl to be...
but then, having said so... we do struggle with disciplining sometimes, cos, we ourselves, do not not, and are not sure of where to draw the line exactly...
and yes, my girl's very strong-willed, and she does insist her way sometimes, and yes, sometimes, we ourselves even call it, a disobedient... anyway, dilemma dilemma all the time, ha~


of course, there're still many things for her to learn, and I do hope, she'll learn, or she'll just learn to get the message sometimes,
again, I think, we watched her too much, till she's kinda dependent on us...
unlike my boy...
though, she's slowly learning how to be on her own...
slowly...


what did want want to say?
Oh yes, having 2, is just nice...
yes, having my no.2, then, I learn that, I gotta let go,
then, I learn that, really, a lot of things, character wise, or behaviour wise, you may not believe it, but a lot of these, are already hardwired in a kid...
yes, you may still disagree with me, and still think that, a kid is trainable, then, it's your luck, or, then, shall I say you're lucky?? well, I'll not, cos, again, a kid that's trainable, I do not know if that's good, or bad...
seriously, I don't know, maybe to some kids/parents, that's good,
but then, I never know how to train a kid,
to get my girl to do a thing, and to do a thing consistently, ie. Every day, at that hour, ask me,
it's damn tough, and I still don't know how...
and till this day, I still struggle with her eating, her sleeping... and luckily, one thing down, ie. Pooping...
eating, sleeping, yes, still struggling...


and yes, all are hardwired,
that, is clearly told, by my boy...
the way he deals with his toys, the way he behaves, is simply, hardwired, inborn in him, cos, we clearly know that, we did not really teach him all that, but he initiated it himself...
and that's why I said, I am a little bit regretful, as we kinda “taught” our girl too much, till I don't know what her true colour is...
or, rather... we taught her too much, till even when she's showing her true colour, we refused to accept it???
^_^ maybe...


that's why I said, 2 is good,
cos, what we learn from our boy, and that, we learn to kinda let go, let go, let go, a little bit on our girl, and believe that, and have faith that, she can take care of herself pretty well...
TWO, is good,
if I'm still younger...
I'll think, the more, the merrier!


Cheers...

Belly Button

last night, she kept bugging me about her belly button,
asked, “why we have belly button?”
asked, “why there's dirt on the belly button?”
she kept asking, till I suspected something, and I asked her if she and her friends in the school, talked about it,
if anybody asked her to show it to them, or show theirs to her?
She said “nope”,
but then, she said, ya, they talked about it, 3 of them, those who sit at the same table,
so, I asked her, “then, what do you say about the dirt on the belly button?”
she said, she called it, “belly button eye shadows”.... haha, that's funny!


ya... as 2 weeks ago, her school had their concert and graduation day, though she ended up crying, as she waited too long at the backstage, just for 1 performance (while the bigger kids have more than 1 performance)... but then, she obviously enjoyed the day...
it's a tiring day...
and she definitely loved putting make-up... a very girly thing huh???


ya... back to the belly button topic...
so, she kept talking about it still, then, I warned her not to put her finger in there to dig dig dig out the dirt... I told her, I'll clean up for her...
then, I took out the alcohol swap that we've purchased since she was born, ie. 4 years plus ago, haha!!! I took that out and swap for her, well... that's what the hospital did for me when I went to give birth... ghee... ^_^


anyway... I reckon, she's going to ask me more difficult questions soon... you know what I mean? Haha...


however, since many nights ago, I guess, since we started having bedtime prayer... she's started this Q&A session,
she'll ask me how many questions she can ask for that day...
then, she'll ask questions like,
“why we blink?”
“why we can read?”
“why our hand can write?”
bla bla bla...
one of those kiddy questions that she's asked is, “why the fan can rotate and not feel giddy?”, cos, we told her not to spin herself too much, later she'll feel giddy...
such and such...


cheers

and just now at night, she's trying all her best to delay the process of going to bed, EVEN THOUGH she's tired (as usual!), as she's reading in the bed on the floor, ok, HE read for her, then, she lied down there instead of coming to the big bed, so, we're saying to her, why not she just sleep on that floor bed... again, usually, she'll just whine, and say “no no no!”, then, most likely come with a cry, but today, she answered properly, she said “no, afterwards, I want to look for mama, how?”... again, I didn't see that coming... ^_^ well... that shows... she's grown up, a little bit more, again... ^_^

and this girl? She's pretty good in “answering back”, in a kiddish and cute way, ^_^, see, this afternoon, I was complaining, “why's there so many things on the floor?” ya... I guess, all parents experienced the same thing, after you clean, it gets messy again, pretty quickly... then, she suddenly give me this answer, “I'm sorry, mama, you just have to live with it! Cos, you've to kids at home!”, ok... honestly, I didn't see that coming... usually when I was grumbling, or complaining, she'll keep quiet, scared that I'll target her, but today... I laughed, and I actually said “thank you” to her...

record book #1

Ok, it's for her, and for me…

Today, I told her, I'm happy,

Cos, she finished half bottle of her water, (to me, it's good stuff!)

I told her…

Then, this afternoon,

She took her own initiative to sit there and nap on the boang,

I'm happy..

(but it's after a scolding session, scolded her cos, she did something knowingly will be disapproved by me, see, her brother was cranky, cos, he was sleepy, but I needed him to finish his lunch, then put him to sleep, so, to keep him "occupied", I let him play on the tray of his highchair, while I was feeding him; after meal, I was washing up, she took the chance to play the water with the brother, while she did that, she cheekily peeped at me, yes, I know, she always tried to look for my expression/reaction when she's challenging my/her limit! I saw it, and I was not that patient with that, so, I lectured her…

I could see that she was tired, and she actually told me to leave her alone for a while,

After a while, I started talking to her again, and she was upset, cos, I asked her if she knew why I was angry,

She told me, cos, she plays water on the tray,

I told her nope, it's a bigger thing, it's she knowing that I'll be upset, yet, she chose to do it…

Then, she asked me to leave her alone for a while, she wanted to cry, but didn't, she say, "I want to cool down!", then, I could see that she's a bit exhausted, so, I left her alone, and I was also exhausted, dozed off on the chair while nursing, then, I adjourned to the sofa…)

When it's time to leave the house (yep, we need to follow up on this two's cough), I got up,

She was still sleeping on the chair…

Sweet girl, poor girl…

So, I later told him, I thought I was quite super, super in a way, like I'm a fugitive, gotta runaway,

As the little one was still sleeping, yep, he's extremely sleepy,

I slinged him on my back,

And I know it'll be too harsh and cruel to just wake her up, and expect her to rush and go down the lift, and walk to the car,

So, I took the backpack, and took her with me…

Haha, later at night, I told him,

I've averagely 25kg on me…

(no wonder, I feel that my knees are in pain!)

………..

(continued on the 2013-03-10, 0200)

Where was I?

Ooh… after the clinic session, we went to the nearby shopping mall for our early dinner,

I told her that she's been good, ie. she took her own initiative to take the first nap (yes, that's very very precious for me!) and that I gotta reward her…

If she wanted to do some window shoping in the toy shop…

She told me, nope, just dinner, and go home,

So, I offered to buy some macaron for her…

Yep, that's for Wednesday...

My Girl, Oh! My Girl!

Oh! My Girl! Yes, my girl…

See, I've been having difficulty, sort of…

She's not easy,

Anything she won't understand and UNDERSTAND why, and why!

She JUST WON'T DO IT!

Since small, from crawling, to walking…

Therefore she's kinda "slower"…

Cos, we need to get her to understand first…

See, at this age, do you think she can understand our terms and words? If you ask me, quite a bit, but still quite a big chunk of others, she still don't understand…

That's why!!!!!!! It's so difficult to get her to sleep,

She just doesn't understand why she needs to sleep sleep sleep, yes, she knows what I say, "good for your growing up, for your brain and bla bla bla", but then, she doesn't really quite feel it,

That's why, she still refuse nap time,

If she naps, then, she'll refuse bedtime…

Cos, to her, she just wants to play, or just do nothing, but she refuses to close her eyes…

I've been struggling, ever since the brother joined us…

Cos, before brother joined? She followed my schedule, perfectly, ^_^V, ie. we could just spend whole day sleeping…

But then, there're 3 people schedule, and she starts school, so, the schedule, I'll say, is brand new…

So, for 2 weeks, she's been off nap,

She picked this schedule, which, in a way, is good for me, I get more things done, and I spent more time with her, while both are alert, else, I gotta kinda rush everything just to make her nap, then, rush dinner, rush this and that, rush to another bedtime, both of us were just plain upset, cos, the problem was,

I gotta nap with her, ie. with her, and with baby no.2…

But then, after 2 weeks,

Today, I told her this, cos, I believe she can do it,

Cos… I taught her that, once she's tired of watching TV on that day, or she feels her eyes were tired, just go take the remote and off it…

She's in a way, not a TV kid…

She's in a way, also not an ipad kid,

I let her watch TV, on "good" day, yes, she watched for 3 hours,

These few days? The TV was off…

Ipad? Most is half an hour time, she plays,

Well… not that she's that well behaved, it's just that, on her own,

She doesn't really find TV that interesting, or ipad that interesting…

She just find… mm… US, more interesting, or poking the brother, upsetting him, or me, more interesting…

You see…

Then…

Today, I told her,

Since she could "off" the TV on her own will,

I want her to "off" herself, for just 30 min, if she's really tired…

I asked her to try…

Yes, today, I left her aside, slept with the brother on the sofa, cos, I was too tired,

Later, I opened my eyes a little bit, she was asleep on the "boang"… cute!

To reward her for behaving as such, I bought her 2 macarons…

But I really pray hard that, she'll take such type of nap on a more frequent basis, her own will…

I told her,

I do not want her to just go to bed, sleep, nap, and whatever, when mama tell you so…

Another eg.

For her extra curricula,

I told her, there's drama, dance, art, and chinese,

I thought she'd pick dance, but then, surprisingly, she said, she wants to learn chinese…

For some reason, (maybe it's in her blood too!) she kinda likes chinese,

Though, we started off speaking english to her, and we read more english books than chinese books, to her…

Anyway,

That's MY Girl!!

A not so easy one!

But a sweet and lovely girl...

shopping with baby (babies)...

yesterday, she told me that she wanna go "walk walk", after her school, ie. window shopping,

so, after I picked her up, we went to a hypermart nearby,

it happened that, they've some shoe clearance, ie. lots and lots of sandals, shoes, in those items-for-sale big baskets, in the middle of the hall,

being in a hypermart, it means cheap,

being an sales item, it's even cheaper...

and it's either baby's like me, or I'm just like a kid,

I've always enjoyed "digging" into piles of sales item, to look for some suitable goods to buy, for eg. clothes,

and this time, shoes,

they've some CROCS-alike sandals for sales, if CROCS's sold for 3-figure price in my country, then, the CROCS-alike sandals here were calling for 2-figure price only,

just for fun, just for the sake of it, I must get a pair...

I know that's not the best type of shoes to be worn, but I somehow really have something about rubber shoes, ^_^

so, while big mama here was searching for her shoe, slinging my son in front of me somemore...

with baby inside the shopping cart, standing...

she was happily pulling out some toddlers' sandals as well,

trying each pair...

and each time, she tried, she'll say, "hey! I can fit in!"

O.o

haha! of course, I was telling her... why?? most shoes are bigger than her feet,

and I was complaining non-stop, "hey, baby!! why your feet are still so small????"

of all the kids shoes displayed, none of them was her size.. all just too big, and still too big...

though, I really wanted to buy a pair of mary-jane shoes for her, I thought they look lovely on her tiny feet..., especially that translucent green pair,

and she somehow took one side of a sandal, with a bit of "height", and put it on, and she was shouting excitedly, "ha!!!",

I saw, and wow!! lovely...

the problem is, it's only 1 side, what about the other side??

finally we found it, but then, I asked her to put on again,

she twisted a bit,

so, I told her, it's dangerous, till she can handle the "height", then, I'll consider...

yep, she's still not that good at wearing slip-on type of slippers man!

anyway,

at the end of the day,

I told her, what I feel, and what I think,

ie. it's really great to have a daughter, who can do shopping like this with you,

ie. silly, crazy type of window shopping... and got excited about nearly everything...

I can foresee that, in the future, we'll be each other's shopping buddies greatly...

^_^

it's really very blessed, to have a daughter...

going to school...

ya... she loves the bedtime chitchat, just like me...

when I was still studying, if I sleepover in my friend's place, what I love most is, chitchat till somehow, don't-know-why-we-fall-asleep kinda thing... ^_^

anyway,

just the 2 nights ago,

she was saying... (she's pretty good at "testing water")

"if I don't like to go to school, I still have to go to school, right?"

I heard,

and I asked, "why do you not like to go to school?" (feeling a little bit guilty... don't we all hate going to school, at some stage? haha! ok, maybe I really liked going to my kindy, then, primary school, but then, I really didn't quite like my secondary school, and college, cos, that's the part where the stress continuously build-up, but then, I love my uni "era")

she then told me, "cos I like mama, I miss mama!"

I smiled, and told her, "if that's the reason, then it's fine..."

...............

of course our conversation didn't stop here,

then, I went on to lengthy explanation that, one day, she's to grow out of it, ie. the stage where she's so attached to me, ie. separation anxiety, ie. becoming independent, ie. papa mama will grow old, I skip the part which, papa mama will grow old and die one day, well, it's late at night, I didn't want to make her cry...

yes, she somehow understands the meaning of death, somehow, not exactly, cos, whenever I talk about that,

it equals to "no more"...

anyway...

very soon, that conversation gets into the "feel" that, she found it a bit stressful, or unpleasant,

so, she told me, "I want to sleep already..."

then, ok, good night, and sweet dream!

the Earth Hour~

ok... I'm not really going to talk about the earth hour, but in a way, I'm going to talk about it,

ie. I'm not going to talk about the environmental part of it, but rather, the day itself...

the first of my earth hour, i remember, that's when I was still in the hospital, baby with me,

she's with me, in the dark room, nursing, sleeping...

meaningful, right??

that's why, somehow, earth hour means something to me... more than being some good deeds for the environment...

this year,

earth hour will be on the 23rd March,

again, another "meaningful" day for me,

it's the day, when my beloved mother left us...

late afternoon, in year 2008...

somehow, March is a "happening" month to me,

baby was born, ie. her birthday,

his birthday,

and this earth hour...

somehow... it's just quite "happening"...

copier, or fast learner… or whatever, that's good...

Baby's fast learner, sometimes that's what I told her,

Baby's fast… in copying,

While little one, is fast, in observing…

Ok, it maybe slow in your term, but in my eyes, they're always fast, ^_^

Cos, whatever a small kid can learn, and overcome, I regard it as miracle…

She's fast in words, particularly…

At this moment, I mention it,

The next moment, it comes out from her mouth…

Can you visualize that?

Ie. just last night, when we're in a relative's house, and I was busy eating crackers with her,

I said something like "let's explore what we have here!"

The next moment, she was using that word, and those who missed our little conversation there and then, thought her vocab's fabulous…

And I explained to them,

Yes, in a way,

No, in a way…

You get it??

Just like, the other day, (yep, I mentioned that in my chinese blog)

I was saying, "pop a tablet into your mouth",

The next day, she was saying, "I pop a rice into my mouth"…

See?

Somehow, scary, I'm worried she'll use the wrong word, but then… even if she uses it, most of the kids she hangs out with, may not get it…

Cos, she likes to use those big words now…

For eg. Everything, everybody, forever, anything…

Ooh! That's so dangerous, if you ask me…

As of little one…

Yep, he's fast, in a way, by action, imitating,

Nope, he's not speaking yet, only sometimes a "mama", or "papa", and some other blaberring… which we won't understand…

But of course, he's just so cute! ^_^

However, he imitates fast, as opposed to the sister,

Action,

Just the other day, he crawled over to the tv cabinet,

Took the wireless phone,

Pressed some buttons, and put that phone next to the side of his head,

I didn't see him getting to the phone,

But when I saw him, he's putting the phone next to his head, but upside down,

Haha!! Cute, so, I corrected him, by words,

He kinda understood…

Then, he somehow manipulated the phone, to the right position…

You ask me? The action's just plain CUTE!

Haha!

And he still looks so blur…

He's cute as in,

He always does something "evil" (or we parents regard as "bad" things…)

But then, he'll give you that super duper innocent look, as if he doesn't know what he's just done…

And of course, he doesn't know… these are all kids' nature…

Anyway,

Just some short and impromptu update for the two of them, as of now…

cheeky girl

oh, today there's this CNY celebration in her school,

so, yesterday I took out the "cheongsum" that my friend passed down to me,

luckily...

and I browsed through the dress,

then, I said to her, "baby, you so CHU LU, how to wear, later you tear it, you sure you want to wear?"

she said this, "even though I CHU LU, I still want to wear..."

I thought that was cute!!!

naughty!

my fault...

I'm not sure if this will backfire eventually, or, it'll have a long term "damage",

however, I'm actually more relaxed, by thinking as such...

see...

if the 2 of them are not behaving as per my expectation,

I know, and I finally acknowledge that, it's my own fault...

and that, actually make me feel better, and more relaxed... with them...

for eg. last night, when baby vomitted... yes, I'm pretty frustrated with the cleaning up part, especially I've to handle the small one, plus all the cleaning, by myself, it just had to happen when he's away...

but then, yes, it just had to happen when he's away, at night, week night,

I used to think like that, and that I got frustrated, and agitated and angry,

now, I know, it's my fault... so, I'm pretty laidback...

thus relaxed...

cos, really, it's my fault...

I bought too many doughnuts for her, and I let her eat when she's tired...

I frequently forget that, whenever she's tired, she won't be eating properly, and all difficult-to-digest type of food should be avoided,

first time being McD,

then, swissroll,

then, last night, doughnut!

and tonight...

my son, the naughty boy! he couldn't sleep...

my fault, you know why?

I was trying trying trying my best to contain him, to be awake, till bedtime, ie. 9pm...

however, after dinner, straight after dinner, he's too tired, and he asked for my booby, and shortly, he fell asleep...

for around half an hour...

I tried to wake him up,

that time, baby was watching her shows on TV,

around ten to 9, he got up...

and of course, you can't expect him to sleep immediately right?

so, just now, he fell asleep at around 2330...

~_~ yep, that's when I sneaked out here, and surfing online... kekekekekeke...

while I looked at him crawling around in bed,

in fact he's tired,
just that... again, my kids, bad in sleep training, cos, I myself am not a good example, since N years ago...

he's tired, and he's sooooooooooooooooo touchy!!!!

even if he rest his hands on my body, and even if I move his hands away, gently, he could burst out with loud cry...

luckily!! luckily!!!! baby was soooooooooooooo tired too, that she fell asleep without being disturbed by his constant crying...

it's like that, the cry's not continuous, just... frequent,

1 move he cried,

move right, he cried, lied down he cried, move left he cried, lied down, somehow knocked his head on the bedrail, he cried,

he crawled away, I pulled his leg, he cried, he tried to stand up, ON THE BED, I made sure he sits down, he cried!!!

see~~~~~~

but with all these events...

baby could sleep soundly...

I know it's kinda tiring for her to skip her nap, but then, it's to both our favour...

so... I'm kinda pleased with this new schedule...

especially at night,

she sure sleeps soundly... ^_^

as cheeky as she can be... (again)

oh ya...

why I said she's cheeky...

she's... mm... purposefully being so-called "demanding", and "difficult",

when she's sleeping with him,

she'll come to me, so pitiful, saying that she'd like to sleep with me...

and just tonight...

just now,

cos, he's been away for business trip, so, for 3 nights, I've been sleeping with the two of them,

she told me, she'd like to sleep with papa...

see! see!!!!!!!!

isn't that very purposeful???

as cheeky as she can be... ~_~

yep...

I mentioned that she's been crying lately,

see...

in the beginning, she didn't cry, while so many other kids were crying in her class...

there's this girl, who cried and climbed up of the cupboard just so that she could look out of the window, to look at her grandma...

and some of the boys, who cried, and tried to get out of the classroom, and ran around, till the teacher's to lock the door...

anyway,

so, merely after 1 month...

she started hers...

I talked hard, I talked soft,

I talked about going to school, and not going to school,

I talked about crying, and not crying...

and today, I decided, I'll just smile it off, or laugh it off...

she's just being cheeky!!!!!! plain cheeky...

cos, last night, when I was talking about her crying in the class...

oh ya, usually, I'll ask her, when I pick her up from the school, I'll say, "so, how long you cried?"

she'll answer, "10 minutes!" (see!!!!!!)

then, last night, we talked about this again,

and guess how she responded??

she told me, "tomorrow, I'm going to cry!"

oh dear!!!! hey! woman, how you know you're going to cry?

it means, it's all staged, and it's all "arranged"... by her!

she did it on purpose...

ok, most of the other kids kinda did it on purpose, with a purpose to showcase their separation anxiety, and it must be seen by parents...

yes, that was in the beginning...

and they did it really dramatically...

however, my girl?

I thought, the way she mentioned it was like...

it's just a daily routine morning exercise for her...

she could just start it without warning,

no specific time, no specific location,

it can be upon entering the classroom,

or, when I was leaving,

at this moment, she could hug me, and say bye to me, nicely and sweetly, and the next moment,

she'd start crying...

so, today, I was a bit worried...

I peeped a little bit through the classroom's window.. (it's quite a few stickers, just to block my view, I guess...)

still crying,

she pulled out her purple hippopo (the one I bought for her to bring to school)...

then, the teacher passed her a pencil,

still crying,

she took it,

still crying,

she started writing...

I thought that's quite a funny scene...

ie. her crying has nothing to do with whatever she's doing, or she needs to do...

and I'm very pleased that she's such a strong girl...

when at home,

she told me,

usually after mama left,

she'll pull out the hippopo, then she'll sing...

I asked her if the singing is the classroom, all sing together, or she sings on her own...

she said, she sings on her own,

cos, she misses me, and she sings, so that, she knows mama loves her...

cute or not??

cheeky or not??

again,

I'm very glad that she could find a way to console herself...

cos, since age 0 till her little brother came out...

hm... her only pacifier was my pair of booby... ^_^

I've tried many way to help her to find some pacifier,

all failed...

and I guess, my son will be the next one...

I'm not sure if this is breast-fed babies' problem, or simply my own problem...

see!

most kids, you give them a toy,

you give them some plush toy, they'll be contented for quite a while...

but not mine... -_-

however...

I'm pleased,

Praise the Lord~

bedtime talks...

ya, she's like me,

loves bedtime talk...

ie. chitchat till we fall asleep...

last night, just last night,

I told her not to misuse the "I'm not feeling well" thing...

cos, she's been using that, whenever I leave her in school,

later she'll tell me, she's in fact sleepy, and bla bla bla...

I told her,

you can feel angry,

you can feel sad,

you can feel "pekchek",

you can feel frust(rated)!

you can feel sleepy, of course,

but if there's nothing wrong with your body, you don't simply say you're not feeling well, else, mama will be worried...

then, she told me, sometimes when mama's angry at her,

she's angry with me too...

I asked her, "like how?"

she told me, "I'm angry at mama, cos, mama will make me cry!"

then, I smiled (to myself)... haha!!!!! (damn psycho, right?)

so, I told her, it's ok that, she's angry with me, just like I'm also angry with her, whenever she purposely provokes me, and upset me...

sometimes...

then I told her this,
mama told you a secret, mama likes to make you cry, you know why?

cos, whever you cry, mama know that you love mama...

sick huh??

ya, I'm that sick, but I'm glad that I tell her...

and I told her that, sometimes she purposely make me angry, is also she wants to know if I still love her...

(she's still feeling insecure, eversince the arrival of her brother!)

and tonight??

haha, sometimes, I feel that she speaks pretty... maturely...

tonight, I asked her what are the things that she did, that make her feel good, or what are the good things that she's done for the day...

(ya, read it somewhere, it's good practice, ie. at the end of the day, let the child think, talk, or even write down about her good-doing, and good-feeling)

guess what's the first thing she told me?

I thought it'll be the doughnut, but nope...

she told me, "singing"... (ya, cos, in the evening, I took out my chinese nursery rhyme and was singing happily in front of her, and that, she took her turn to sing too... gosh! I actually thought that chinese nursery songs are far better than those english's, they're always very cheerful... and very life-packed!)

I asked her what else,

she told me "dancing", I said, "you danced?" (I asked on purpose, she... normally dances quite a lot, almost everyday, not proper dance, just small move, here and there!)

she said "yes", and smiled... (ok, we're all lying in bed, dark, I didn't really see her smile, but then...)

I then asked her, "what about the doughnut?"

she actually chuckled... (yep, that's when I feel that she's very mature in her thought... but somehow childish too, haha!)

and she said, "ha... this one, don't have to mention LA~!"

oh? actually I don't quite understand why she said that...

maybe she's shy about that?

or, maybe it's just so by default, that, whenever we go to that mall, she'll have doughnut?

but then, I told her, she doesn't get that like every day, it's still something special, right?

she still insists that, it's not something worth mention...

hm... maybe... maybe...

she really is much much more "mature", in quite a lot of things...

I know... she's been the one and only child for nearly 3 years...

somebody said that, single child, tend to be more mature than their age, right??

anyway...

baby, mama love you...