When an Organization's too forgiving...

Ok ok, I know I'm supposed to be forgiving, and I'm supposed to forgive 7 times x 7 times, and x 7 times again… (if you know what I mean!!)

Anyway, I'm not talking about those type of forgiveness…

I was just thinking the other day…

When an organization's too forgiving to its non-performing staff…, ie. you're actually paying a dormant, non-contributing staff, with the revenue that you make, which, if you're good, it can be given out as bonus, to those PERFORMING AND CONTRIBUTING STAFF…!!

Ya, that's my theory…

And if this organization's basically not too strict, or demanding enough on every of their staff… ie. those who can perform get more work, and leave alone those who're not performing…

Not performing, ie. you make neither no contribution, nor mistake… to these non-performers, they think they're smart/safe hiding there…

And that works for an organization's that's forgiving, like I've said…

However, if there's strict measurement in the organization, these people, will not be able to hide for long…

When you actually allow these people to hide in your organization, let me tell you,

You're not going to go anywhere, I mean, your business…

It'll get to a point, where all appraisal exercise is just a show to put on, yearly… and all appreciation's just for those who're close to the management, there's no REAL crediting, and punishment… people who're getting below average are still getting their decent-enough pay, right???

Yes, this type of organization will just not get to anywhere they want, though they may have BIG dream!!! Look at Google, for eg. Why are they good? (I seriously think that they're good!!! In any aspect!) cos, they put strict measurement onto any of their staff, if you're not contributing, better pack and leave…

Same goes to the management of a country… and come on!!

Look at our country…

Corrupted people are forgiven from time to time, that's why, WE'RE NOT, AND WE'LL NEVER GET ANYWHERE!!!

Irregardless what BIG and HUGE ambition you put on, during the national day, or, during whatever plan!!!

You and and us, as long as we're here, we're just not going to get to anywhere!!

Cos, the "top management" people, are just very forgiving people, including forgiving themselves, with mistakes, over and over again, plus forgiving those "bad managers"… from time to time…

If there's any so-called punishment… oh! Come on!! We all know that, it's just A SHOW!

That's why, we're just not going to reach any ambitious farview that we've set for ourselves!!

Get it?

a bye, I've to say

today, I had lunch with my boss… I ‘notified’ her regarding my post-natal plan last week…

I’ve wanted to inform her of my intention since end feb, which I thought will be good enough, for this ‘1 month notice’… however, looking as how good she treats me, and how she expected me to perform even better this year… I just do not know how to start my conversation…

So, in the end… since the time it’s nearer and nearer… I’ve no choice but to face it and inform her…

I used the most coward way to tell her…

I’m not a person who’s good at verbal conversation, but I thought, I’m pretty good in my text…

Therefore, I scheduled a lunch appointment with her… today… yep… I described it to my colleague  a very coward way…

Whatever it is… she understands my priority… 

And we just discuss how the transition shall happened, to create less impact to the team…

I voiced out my concern on the “impact” that may/may not happened to the team’s work… she asked me if I’ve thought about her…

Ya… I can see that, she’s quite upset about me quitting, but I’m also feeling grateful that, she’s accepting it well….

As she understands that, everybody has their priority in life… and I know that, if I were to put my work as the top most priority over other things, I may not forgive myself in the future…

Well… I’ve to say, after voicing out my intention, I feel much more relieved and relaxed…

We didn’t discuss much regarding work, but more on parenting and so on….

As I’ve told her my very main concern which lead to me quitting the job is that I know I won’t be able to trust anybody to take care of my baby… yep, nobody…

I mentioned that, yep, family is very dear to me, the job is also very dear to me… however, I’ve to make a choice between the two… (the lesson of 5 balls: Health, Integrity, Family, and Friends are glass balls, most of the time work is a rubber ball and it can bounce back…)

( http://www.lifemeetswork.com/pages/template3.asp?pageID=138 OR

http://piasanedrin.blogspot.com/2008/04/balancing-our-five-balls-in-life.html OR

http://karenjasper.blogspot.com/2007/09/lesson-of-five-balls.html )

After last year’s experience, I know very well, what my choice will be… therefore, it’s better to let her know my decision earlier… than to give her a resignation letter in the middle of my maternity leave…

Luckily I’ve 2 friends who advised me to do so, ie. Inform earlier, than later… after much consideration, I agreed to their suggestion, as… this industry is small,  even though I don’t foresee myself back coming back to the workforce in the near future, but it’s better to set my reputation right (if I ever do have one… forgetting about all the benefit and perks that I can claim, while still being ‘employed’ during my maternity rest)

I’m never the type of people, who can handle well about separation, and leaving…

I realized that, during my university time (maybe it sounds late, but maybe it’s also due to the fact that, I’ve been blessed with minimal separation during my pre-uni time)

One of my other friends told me, while we’re bidding goodbye to each other… going back to our own home countries… and not knowing when we’ll be seeing each other again…

Knowing that, I was feeling a bit blue… he said, “separation, is for us to meet more new people, new friends in our life”…

Ya, somehow, I take it as something I’ll remember for life…

Remember?? In my very old blogs, I did mention…

Sometimes, in our life, we do meet people, or hear something from the movies/programmes which we’ll remember for life…

I don’t aim to be the best in whatever I do…

But I do hope that, at certain point of your life, I’ll be the somebody to give you motivation and inspiration to move on…

And I wish, this is not too much to wish for… ^_^

“我們的選擇，決定了我們是那一種人“

I did it... it's for my future

Today… finally I said it…
I said it!! I’m relieved… and pleased with myself… else, my future will be in hell…

This morning, we’d a unit meeting…
When I see my boss’ new structure in our team, the first thing I asked, “is this finalized??”
My boss said, maybe, maybe not, as there’s another person to be hired…

I saw her plan, it’s similar to the beginning (Q1) of last year, when she first planned for our unit…
The following is my word, and my message to her, and to my colleagues… yes, in front of them, I said it… no fear, and I’ve not wronged anybody…
I told my boss, “last year, we’ve the similar structure, and I couldn’t work with her, that’s the reason, I eventually take back everything and worked alone, I’d rather stick to it”…
But my boss is worried about anybody to stand-in, if I’m not around, I told her, that she does not have to worry, as… TO-BE-BOSS always claimed that, she KNOWS EVERYTHING… so, why worry??
I did use the words “she knows everything” (eliminated the “she claimed that herself”)
Followed by that, I said, “I’d rather it to be like the latter structure, ie. I do everything myself, so that I can keep my time and effort focus, rather than spending it, on unforeseeable and uncontrollable circumstances…”

Of course, on the other hand, to-be-boss was saying, “I’m fine with everything in fact!!” (yes, as she said, she’s always fine with everything in front of us, when in front of boss… however, when we turn out back to her, she’ll tell boss that, she doesn’t want to do Microsoft licensing, and she doesn’t want to meet customer… irregardless boss has spent so much time and effort to train her and invested in her… and THAT give me the bullet… if boss allows her “not to” do this and that, then, boss shall not force me to work with somebody I despise that much!!! Of course, I don’t use the word “despise” --- that’s what I called “2-face”)

So, now, my boss officially knows that, I don’t have chemistry with to-be-boss… if you were to trace the time line, since last April, I’ve already stopped working with her, and since last August – September, I’ve already stopped interacting and talking directly to her…
Who wants to talk to 2-face?
Who wants to deal with people who lie?
Who wants to even be with somebody who eavesdrops?

And I feel so sorry for the new joiner who’s decided to leave 1 week after she’s being ‘mentored’ by the to-be-boss, as to-be-boss was very intimidating to her, directly telling her that since she’s no knowledge at all on what she’s going to deal with, why boss wanted to employ her and bla bla bla bla… whatever disgusting sentences and self-praising words that’ll come out from her mouth… and within the 1 week of mentoring, to-be-boss continuously trashed and criticized her work, giving her no guidance on purpose… etc…
Well… I really do not want to spell it out, and that’s the first and foremost reason, I do not want to deal with her, or have anything gotta do with her… cos, I always believe that, if I were to interact with such personality, I’ll one day, deteriorate myself, and downgraded myself to her level (which I already am, by writing this blog, however, I give myself allowance, only in blog-form)

Therefore, I’m pretty pleased with my own ‘performance’ and truthfulness this morning… by speaking out the truth, as I really do feel sad that, while my other colleague and I were pretending to be good with her (or at least, not against her) that, indirectly encouraged this behaviour and that both of us were also quietly condoning her intimidating bully!!! My other colleague was the BIGGEST victim…

Before this meeting, I had a short conversation with my boss… when my boss was asking me, if there’s any ‘politics’, I told her, there is, it’s just that, it doesn’t concern her…
While I seek for consultation from him, he said, he WILL at least make an investigation…
If there’s 1 person, who’s problem with to-be-boss… the 1 person, could be the problem him/herself, if there’s 2 person, maybe the fact is still weak, however, if there’s 4 person, or 5 person, who really cannot work with this to-be-boss, then, something really is very very wrong…
That’s also the reason I’ve decided to speak out…

As while I was so frustrated to hear news about her, and all her sick behaviour in office, including calling my other colleague bad names, which she later denied, while questioned by my boss… and with my frustration, I kind of tell the story to my other friends, every one of them came back to me and tell me that my boss didn’t do a good job…
The thing is, I like her, VERY MUCH, and I think, she’s a very good and different type of boss, sometimes, she’s like my elder sister, and sometimes, she’ll give me good advice, about work… about family, and etc. as she usually have very different insight about problem solving, in a very fresh and kid-like manner however, also with some maturity of thoughts… (which is very different from other possible good bosses who always advised you based on their lengthy experience, where you just think that, they’re just too old) ... in one way, I defended her, while I hear those response, in another way, when you repeated hear the similar comment from different people, you know that, maybe something is wrong, and yes, you’ve gotta do something… so that, it won’t look too bad for a person who I adore (my boss)

At the same time… I know her situation, for eg. When my other colleague told me of her suffering, I couldn’t do a thing, cos, to-be-boss didn’t mess with me, as I have stopped looking at her or hearing her since looooooooooooong time ago…. And since I’m not the first person who suffered under her irritating intimidation, I can only advise my colleague to handle it properly… twice, she brought it up to boss, but both time, it’s been denied… first time, it came with the traditional Chinese way of threatening, ie. 1st, you cry, 2nd, you start to talk and scold nonsense, blame people, 3rd, you wanna hang yourself… (一哭二鬧三上吊)
Who can and who will know how to deal with this type of person????? PLEASE TELL ME THEN!!
On the second occasion, when she called my colleague bad names and poke into her work, told her that, her work was incorrect, without any evidence… when brought to boss, to-be-boss SHAMELESSLY denied it… and case-closed…

Today, after the meeting, I told my colleague, next time, we’ll either ignore, or, we’ll handle it ourselves, there’s no need to bring it up to boss anymore, it’ll soon, be a very petty manner…
We just cannot condone such behaviour anymore…
But at the same time, I also advise her, saying that, we still need her…
2 things, to-be-boss is best at doing and we need it…
1. driver for lunch, not for us (as if we care to sit in her car) but for boss… cos, none of us like to drive, and she’s smart enough to always offer when boss is around, but whenever boss is not around, she gives tones of excuses to make others drive
2. to be the super suckup!!! Yes, only she’ll be the best and number 1 person to say all the suckup words and terms to boss… frequently, directly, shamelessly, and brainlessly too… we can’t…

And this evening, I’m again, pretty pleased… as when I asked one of my other colleague, who knows our unit pretty well, that, if there’s somebody in the unit which I really have problem to work with, who will it be, he guessed it correctly… I asked ‘why’, he said, 1 is so motherly nice… and another one, from the look, you can see that, it’s very cunning, of course, easy guess…!!!!!!

Last but not least, I’m relieved…
I’ll definitely hate myself, if I shut up this morning!!!

Process

Well… everybody knows I’m back to work… since a few months ago…

Anyway...
I’ve been wanting to write something here but couldn’t find time…
However, I guess… after yesterday’s event, it’s time for me to start my session here…
Sessions about my work…. Sessions about my colleagues, sessions about my office and so on…

My work…
Don’t ask me for details what I do…
When I reported myself to work in the 1st March this year, I couldn’t tell what department I’m reporting to… ^_^

Then, I slowly learn that, I gotta do pricing and costing for my internal colleagues…
That’s fine with me, but something that I hate doing I’ve to take on… which is nego, and bargain…
However, don’t get me wrong, I’m not a purchaser ^_^

Gradually…
I found out that, I’ve to help on marketing event, cos, I’m answerable to those vendors that I deal with...
I found out that, I gotta follow up on project (which is quite ok, cos I’ve done it before)
I found out that, I’ve to help the sales people to close the deal within certain timeline… again, cos, I’m answerable to those vendors that I deal with
I found out that, I’ve to basically take up those jobs that nobody’s a clue who’s the right person to do…
In the end, I realised… it’s all because what my department is called and it kinda sync with our company’s vision ie. “to be the partner of choice” and my department is called “partner management”, a.k.a…. everybody is our partner, and that we’ve to help… the vision sound great and grand… but the work is not easy…
However… it’s all fine with me ^_^
Maybe it’s because…
Well… frankly… I don’t really need to work (ya, don’t tell him about that ^_~)
I choose to go back to work, cos, I want some satisfaction and inspiration…
And the funny thing is, I actually put this in my CV… one of my line is, “to get inspirsed and to inspire others”
ya, I know, you don’t get to see things like this in a proper CV… therefore, I’ve always told people my boss is a brave woman….
She dared to take me up and out, after my 3-year hibernation and irregardless of my CV ^_^

… to be continued