a bye, I've to say

today, I had lunch with my boss… I ‘notified’ her regarding my post-natal plan last week…

I’ve wanted to inform her of my intention since end feb, which I thought will be good enough, for this ‘1 month notice’… however, looking as how good she treats me, and how she expected me to perform even better this year… I just do not know how to start my conversation…

So, in the end… since the time it’s nearer and nearer… I’ve no choice but to face it and inform her…

I used the most coward way to tell her…

I’m not a person who’s good at verbal conversation, but I thought, I’m pretty good in my text…

Therefore, I scheduled a lunch appointment with her… today… yep… I described it to my colleague  a very coward way…

Whatever it is… she understands my priority… 

And we just discuss how the transition shall happened, to create less impact to the team…

I voiced out my concern on the “impact” that may/may not happened to the team’s work… she asked me if I’ve thought about her…

Ya… I can see that, she’s quite upset about me quitting, but I’m also feeling grateful that, she’s accepting it well….

As she understands that, everybody has their priority in life… and I know that, if I were to put my work as the top most priority over other things, I may not forgive myself in the future…

Well… I’ve to say, after voicing out my intention, I feel much more relieved and relaxed…

We didn’t discuss much regarding work, but more on parenting and so on….

As I’ve told her my very main concern which lead to me quitting the job is that I know I won’t be able to trust anybody to take care of my baby… yep, nobody…

I mentioned that, yep, family is very dear to me, the job is also very dear to me… however, I’ve to make a choice between the two… (the lesson of 5 balls: Health, Integrity, Family, and Friends are glass balls, most of the time work is a rubber ball and it can bounce back…)

( http://www.lifemeetswork.com/pages/template3.asp?pageID=138 OR

http://piasanedrin.blogspot.com/2008/04/balancing-our-five-balls-in-life.html OR

http://karenjasper.blogspot.com/2007/09/lesson-of-five-balls.html )

After last year’s experience, I know very well, what my choice will be… therefore, it’s better to let her know my decision earlier… than to give her a resignation letter in the middle of my maternity leave…

Luckily I’ve 2 friends who advised me to do so, ie. Inform earlier, than later… after much consideration, I agreed to their suggestion, as… this industry is small,  even though I don’t foresee myself back coming back to the workforce in the near future, but it’s better to set my reputation right (if I ever do have one… forgetting about all the benefit and perks that I can claim, while still being ‘employed’ during my maternity rest)

I’m never the type of people, who can handle well about separation, and leaving…

I realized that, during my university time (maybe it sounds late, but maybe it’s also due to the fact that, I’ve been blessed with minimal separation during my pre-uni time)

One of my other friends told me, while we’re bidding goodbye to each other… going back to our own home countries… and not knowing when we’ll be seeing each other again…

Knowing that, I was feeling a bit blue… he said, “separation, is for us to meet more new people, new friends in our life”…

Ya, somehow, I take it as something I’ll remember for life…

Remember?? In my very old blogs, I did mention…

Sometimes, in our life, we do meet people, or hear something from the movies/programmes which we’ll remember for life…

I don’t aim to be the best in whatever I do…

But I do hope that, at certain point of your life, I’ll be the somebody to give you motivation and inspiration to move on…

And I wish, this is not too much to wish for… ^_^

“我們的選擇，決定了我們是那一種人“