bedtime talks...

ya, she's like me,

loves bedtime talk...

ie. chitchat till we fall asleep...

last night, just last night,

I told her not to misuse the "I'm not feeling well" thing...

cos, she's been using that, whenever I leave her in school,

later she'll tell me, she's in fact sleepy, and bla bla bla...

I told her,

you can feel angry,

you can feel sad,

you can feel "pekchek",

you can feel frust(rated)!

you can feel sleepy, of course,

but if there's nothing wrong with your body, you don't simply say you're not feeling well, else, mama will be worried...

then, she told me, sometimes when mama's angry at her,

she's angry with me too...

I asked her, "like how?"

she told me, "I'm angry at mama, cos, mama will make me cry!"

then, I smiled (to myself)... haha!!!!! (damn psycho, right?)

so, I told her, it's ok that, she's angry with me, just like I'm also angry with her, whenever she purposely provokes me, and upset me...

sometimes...

then I told her this,
mama told you a secret, mama likes to make you cry, you know why?

cos, whever you cry, mama know that you love mama...

sick huh??

ya, I'm that sick, but I'm glad that I tell her...

and I told her that, sometimes she purposely make me angry, is also she wants to know if I still love her...

(she's still feeling insecure, eversince the arrival of her brother!)

and tonight??

haha, sometimes, I feel that she speaks pretty... maturely...

tonight, I asked her what are the things that she did, that make her feel good, or what are the good things that she's done for the day...

(ya, read it somewhere, it's good practice, ie. at the end of the day, let the child think, talk, or even write down about her good-doing, and good-feeling)

guess what's the first thing she told me?

I thought it'll be the doughnut, but nope...

she told me, "singing"... (ya, cos, in the evening, I took out my chinese nursery rhyme and was singing happily in front of her, and that, she took her turn to sing too... gosh! I actually thought that chinese nursery songs are far better than those english's, they're always very cheerful... and very life-packed!)

I asked her what else,

she told me "dancing", I said, "you danced?" (I asked on purpose, she... normally dances quite a lot, almost everyday, not proper dance, just small move, here and there!)

she said "yes", and smiled... (ok, we're all lying in bed, dark, I didn't really see her smile, but then...)

I then asked her, "what about the doughnut?"

she actually chuckled... (yep, that's when I feel that she's very mature in her thought... but somehow childish too, haha!)

and she said, "ha... this one, don't have to mention LA~!"

oh? actually I don't quite understand why she said that...

maybe she's shy about that?

or, maybe it's just so by default, that, whenever we go to that mall, she'll have doughnut?

but then, I told her, she doesn't get that like every day, it's still something special, right?

she still insists that, it's not something worth mention...

hm... maybe... maybe...

she really is much much more "mature", in quite a lot of things...

I know... she's been the one and only child for nearly 3 years...

somebody said that, single child, tend to be more mature than their age, right??

anyway...

baby, mama love you...