CONAN

Not, it's not about the comic/manga, or the anime…

It's about the real human version of the  movies,

Movie 1, 2 to 3,

Movie 1, 2 - Shun Oguri, and whoever there…

Movie 3 - Mizobata Junpei and whoever there…

Well… I've to say, say, say, cos,

After I saw movie 3, that's it…

I was like… arrgh…

It's not like I dislike mizobata junpei, or whatever, but then,

It's also not like shun oguri's the best person to portray shinichi,

BUT, at least, shun oguri's tall, or… rather long… vertically, somehow, resemble how it is in the manga…

I don't know how the production team select the so-called "right actor/actress" to portray these shows… adaptation from manga, especially those famous ones…

But when it gets to movie 3, ie. mizobata junpei,

That's it…

Like I said, it's not like I dislike him,

I like him, a nice little young policeman in Shinzanmono,

But then, when I watched movie 3, I thought, something wrong…

That's it, he's SHORT… maybe in real life he's not THAT short, but then, after seeing shun oguri, seeing him, as shinichi, it's a HUGE contrast…

And of course, I don't even wanna bother to mention about whoever who portrays Mori Ran,

See… I actually like the Mori Ran in the comic,

Clean and clear, sweet and understanding, straightforward, no sappy sappy…

But then, 2 generations, irregardless it's Kurokawa Tomoka, or Kutsuna Shiori…

My goodness~~

Both I feel like giving them a slap, in fact, I dislike kurokawa tomoka more, for some reason, just like Suzuki Anne, for some reason, I think both of them, have such a common look as to be a japanese actress… yes, may sounds a little bit harsh, but then, seriously… their look is just sooooooooooo "not appetizing"…

On the other hand,

I thought, from movie 1-3,

Both Jinnai Takanori who portrays the biggest moron in the story, ie. Mori Kogoro, and the inspector, by Ibu Masato, are pretty close to how the comic is… especially Jinnai Takanori… ^_^

Anyway… just some of my opinion…

There you go,

1st generation,

Shun Oguri and Kurokawa Tomoka,

2nd generation, (goodness!)

Tomato

Tomato, yes tomato…

Pasta - tomato based, marinara, bolognese, tomato based…

Twisties - tomato flavoured, yew… I can't take the other flavours, regardless how nice it is that you tell me…

Fries - must eat with ketchup, no ketchup, nah… fries won't taste nice, don't give me other sauces… no matter how much you like those sauces…

Sames goes with potato chips - yes, I can take sour cream and onion, but I'll love it very much, if you give me tomato flavour…

Other than that??

Well… funny thing is, I love all tomato flavoured food, but not the tomato itself, especially when it's badly prepared… ie. sour, sour and sour only…

Ok, I like cherry tomato…

But then, baked tomato? Not really… stir-fried tomato…

Hm… maybe I shall try a better type of tomato...

The Depressed...

ok... lately I heard of someone, having depression...
well... it's not like I don't feel compassionate about this person, but then, well... since this is a person who's famous of lying, lying and lying, boasting all the time,
I'm just not sure, if this is just another act that, she's putting up...
and that, to show a little bit of "compassionate" per se, I won't mention who this person is... ^_^

see... later, then, I was so "joboh", that, I went to read some psychology/mental health related topic...
ooh... then, I learnt something,
apparently, yes, somebody who loves to lie, and makes up story... is either already having some sort of depression, or WILL have depression eventually...
cos, when somebody who's a chronic liar, (ok, some psychological term) who basically simply lie about anything, without feeling any guilt, and out of convenience, and habit... will one day, realized that, it's all JUST A LIE... and that's when depression set in...
and the root cause?? well... low self-esteem,
they lie to get attention,
they lie so that, people think that, their life's so interesting...

well... seriously, there're people, for some reason (seriously again, I don't really know why) think that, other's life's just soooooooooooo interesting, and that, their own life's nothing happening... and therefore, they dropped into the deep trough in emotion, by lying, by making up stories...

ok... all these traits, jive with what I've observed, known, and recognized of this very person that I've mentioned... and that, she's said, having depression...
still of course, while others probably trust her story, I'll still have some sort of reserve... cos, like I said, this person's chronic liar...

anyway, we're out of each other life now... and that probably you think that, I shouldn't bother...
well... in a way, but then, I do have to take note of myself... as lying, does lead to depression, or vice versa, that's worth taking note...
and of course, my opinion?? whoever encourages this person's lying habit, shall hold part responsibility...
cos, when somebody's building up his/her own dream world, ie. lied world, fantasy land... and that, you actually condone it, indirectly encourage it... maybe you didn't know, or maybe you've already know, that, some part of this person's a lie, or brag, or boast... and it's become habitual, and yet, you don't point it out... you're helping the behaviour to be getting worse, aren't you??

and worst of all is,
one day, you're the one, who actually point it out to this person, that HEY! EVERYTHING'S A LIE!!
imagine??

if that's me??
yes, I'LL BE DEPRESSED!
(that's what I mean, I do need to take note as well... for whoever I care, I love, and maybe, myself...)

Backpacking

I love backpacking, though, I won't dare to claim that, I'm one hardcore backpacking person...
well... only a few points, I like planning my own trip, and I love staying in hostel... hostelworld.com is my favourite accommodation booking websites...
I've joined tour before, mainly those day-tour, well... if it's those city tour, where you hop on and off the bus, it's still not too bad, while those guided tour... well, I've joined 2, mainly in Suzhou and Hangzhou... I've to say, it's not THAT bad... but afterall... I hate waiting for the other people, or, mainly not knowing what's ahead, and that, I've to pay full attention to what the tourguide's saying, right?? if you've paid some $$ to join the tour, you kinda think that, if youi don't know what the tour's about, that's a waste of time and money...
but if you've planned a trip on your own, probably you'd had known that, what's ahead and where you're heading, and what you'll be seeing, or tasting..., that's what I like...
Anyway... I've come across an article, (if I've not remembered wrongly, it's by Betty Wu, 吳淡如) that... if you'd like to see if a relationship will work, go for backpacking... just go for a trip...
Frankly, a couple of my friends, both he and she, have done backpacking before, and they're kinda together, married... some with kids, some just started the family... I guess, if any couple who can survived a backpacking trip, they'll be able to survive a marriage... IF you've done a backpacking trip before, you'll know what I mean...
A backpacking trip ain't easy... you don't get to stay in posh hotels, get all the good service, you'll have to really plan ahead, and be able to tackle the obstacles... like looking for cheap/decent places for dinner/lunch, looking for cheap/decent transports to take you to the next destination, if the man/woman next to you, will only BE WITH YOU when everything is nice and good, when everything's well taken care off... better think twice... if he/she can't even take a hardship, together with you, or, will keep on arguing in the trip, you know, this person, will likely blame you, or complain much, when life isn't smooth... isn't it??
I won't say, if backpacking works for a couple, ie. happily toured different places, then, the marriage will work out, but then, I've always thought that, it's worth a try...
I've read news, where after the 311 tsunami in Japan, the divorce rate went up... cos, during the disaster, a lot of husbands ran out of wherever they are, and left the wives and children behind... yes, those women, after surviving, realized that, they don't need this type of husbands.. (tell me who needs?)
of course, I'm not sure if really I'm in such disaster scene, what'll happen to me, or to him, or our child... but then, we've always wish that, we'll always be together, be it live or death... just together...

she wants to sleep without me???

Ya, seems like it's been a loooooooooooong time I've not talked about baby in this blog, ie. english… mostly in my chinese blog… ^_^

Anyway,

Since I'm lazy to type/think in chinese, so, I must as well…

Just now,

She said that, she wants to sleep in the sofa, settled herself in, with my towel as her blanket, surrounded herself with all her soft toys, (gifts from friends mostly)

She tucked herself in nicely…

So, I was thinking, hm… if she can fall asleep on her own, that'll be a good change, for both of us, (ya, in a way)

I told her, I'll be going back into the bedroom and sleep, if she wants to come into the room, then, she should come in, walk slowly and carefully…

Leaving her with him, in the living room, him… in front of the PC…

I purposely put on our small table lamp in the room, (usually it's totally darkness)

Then, I thought I shall fall asleep, before both of them come join me…

But I heard her happily singing and chitchatting with him, not showing a sign/intention of sleeping, (hey!! It's already past midnight, girl!)

And also, I just realized,

I've been having her with me, beside me, closed to me, attached to my boobs… (yes, she's kinda 90% weaned now… usually, she'll fall asleep on her own, and just this week, finally, I've seen/experienced baby sleeping through the night… ya, during the transistion, ie. weaning, ie. boobs to no boobs… she's taking her own sweet time to get used to the decreasing in my milk supply, and frequently getting up in the night, to look for the never-satisfying booby milk… it was tough, for both of us…)

For the past 2 years plus… without fail…

THEN… I don't think, I can sleep without her…

Anyway, I know very well, I can't sleep if she's not sleeping…

I've a sleep problem, too, right?? ^_^ sweet one, to me, though…

After a short while, feeling somewhat lonely in the room by myself,

I came out to call her in,

She's getting him to pat her to sleep, in the sofa…

Of course, he wish, he can go back to the big nice comfy bed, but she didn't want him to go…

Then, we've to try using the tough way now…

Off the light, off the aircon, off the fan…

And both getting in the room,

With slight effort…

Finally, she's in…

Ya, this woman! She's in fact very tired,

Our friends came over for dinner, though she didn't really play with their boy, but then, she was happily running around, "mopping" the floor by crawling around, with her soft toy underneath her tummy…

However…

Well… seeing her in such a high mood, yes, though past midnight…

We didn’t have the heart to force her to go to bed, (ya I know, what "bad" parents)

At the same time, this was the first time I heard her saying that, she wanna sleep in the sofa, outside in the living room, we just wanna go with the flow, to see what she's in mind…

Nah… I think, she's just doing it for fun…

Cheeky girl...

more Kamiki Ryunosuke

You want more Kamiki Ryunosuke??

Since I've written quite a bit about him, oops, it's in chinese,

神木隆之介

This is when I saw him, many many years ago, when he's so tiny and small, and cute, yes, if I can have such a cute brother.. (not that, my brothers were not cute, ok?)

"INSTALL"

And now??

Wow!! He really has grown up WELL~~~

Some fan's compiled version/video:

No Sixth Sense

Sixth sense?

You have? I don't,

You want? No I don't…

Life should be just as it is, not knowing what's tomorrow, not knowing what's next, and every moment, treasured…

Sixth sense?

If I have, the afternoon my mother left us,

I wouldn't be enjoying that peaceful afternoon, colouring my hair for a small photo session,

And half way in the midst of the process,

The bad news come…

Ever since, I've never really "seen" my mother,

As what my little brother's little girlfriend had... (yes, she's sixth sense)

Have you ever really made plan for yourself?

I mean long term plan,

And how many of you have really achieved your plan?

Maybe you have, but no, I don't…

I've heard there're people who'll like to achieve certain things, or be certain people, own certain props, and so on… by certain age…

Their life's as planned, just as planned, nothing  more, nothing less…

Interesting?? Now, don't introduce me to this sort of people, they should be out of my radar…

I don't think I can bear talking to a person, who doesn't have hope, and faith… no, they don't, that's why they can only live with their own plan…

Another reason being,

Oops… I've always failed in my own planned…

Failed in a way, but end up even better in a way,

Who's to give credit?? God of course!!!!!!

I've tried making study plan before, but it always ended up as,

I spent time on it, and wasted time at the same time…

After a couple of rounds, I gave up planning…

Then, I gave up planning…

I live life as it is,

Thinking, praying, thinking and praying…

I'm not sure if you'd like to know what's going to happen in the future…

But I don't, if I do know, I don't think, I'll want to live anymore…

What's there in life for you to hope for, pray for, endure, and learn???

Haha, even though you may not see any connection,

But I like this phrase,

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

the courage to change the things I can,

and the wisdom to know the difference." ~ Reinhold Niebuhr

And lately, I found a quote for engraving on our ipad,

"If we pray, we will believe; If we believe, we will love; If we love, we will serve." ~ Mother Teresa

Ya… funny, not enough space, so, the engraving is only 2/3 of the sentence...

Yoichiro vs. Kazuyoshi (ie. Shinzanmono vs. Joker, Yurusarezaru Sousakan)

Ok… guess you know, I've been watching "Joker, Yurusarezaru Sousakan" lately…

Hm… surprisingly a pretty good show…

Yes, I've been picking all those detective/police shows, from my dorama collection…

First, cos, I've lost interest in watching those love stories, or family dramas… the only thing, mostly the only thing that will interest me, is mysteries, and crime thriller…

Luckily, lately japanese has been making more and more this sort of dorama…

^_^

So, while I was watching "Joker"…

I suddenly thought of… if it's "Shinzanmono"'s Yoichiro, what will he do…

"Joker"'s pretty much a very dark show, very…

In fact, I shall not compare…

Cos, "Shinzanmono"'s talking about everybody's a secret to hide, and at the same time, everybody's something/somebody to protect…

While "Joker", it's about those criminals, where law & order can't even put them to conviction…

Yes, plenty of them out there, and yes, plenty of those asshole lawyers help them to get their ass out of prisons…

(those lawyers were just as good as those criminals… na! don't tell me they're just doing their job!! Which one is more important, your bloody job, or your humanly conscience??)

And of course, "Shinzanmono" is slightly more comedic… (and sad at the same time, but it's more about the love between individuals, as compared to "Joker", which is about the very evil side of individuals…)

And that!!!!!!

"Joker", definitely and superly dark show… which… for once, I kinda like it…

For a while, after becoming a mother, I kinda avoid this sort of dark show… sometimes, those shows are just too dark for me to watch… especially in the presence of baby, right??

But then, this one's kinda good…

I was thinking, for those criminals in "Joker", probably even Yoichiro won't be able to help??

Most of the time what Yoichiro did was to question and question and question,

Question all sorts of questions to the suspect… and that the suspect starts to get panic… and that, starts to feel guilty…

But then, the reason why "Joker" is super dark, is that, all those criminals, do not have even slight mercy of those people they kill, and they simply kill for fun…

I once watched a documentary on CI (Criminal Intent)…

Apparently, the degree of crime can be represented by numbers… (go dig out that documentary yourself, I don't want to mention it here… it's just sick and saddening… and, scary!)

Therefore, I'll say, to those similarly top listed type of criminals, but they're let loose because of the stupidity of law… yes, the so-called law…

Which, it's just simply practised by bunch of ball-less and lame lawyers… who practise by the book… bla bla bla…

"Joker"… is about these sort of criminals…

If they're let loose… what are you going to do??

It's not wise to let these criminals to run around on the street, right??

So, Kazuyoshi Sousakan… will handle it…

What I kinda like (in a way, it also shows that the scrip writer still did not dare to go overboard, ie. challenge the society, and make the ultimate vigilante!) is that… Kazuyoshi said something like this, "I'm also a person, who's run away from justice, therefore, I'm just the same as you" (ie. the criminal)

THAT, reminds me if those vampire shows… sometimes, you need a vampire, to kill those other vampires…

Another note, Kazuyoshi always "take care of" those criminals, with a very sad look… cos, as what he later explained to Kudo, is that, no one human, shall have the right to judge another human… but then, these criminals, shall not be let loose in such manner…

Ie. he's no choice but to stand in to handle the matter…

And that, he'll say to those criminals, "you'll not have tomorrow!"

Yeh~~~

Comparing to "Uramiya Honpo"… I guess…

This is slightly a more "acceptable" solution…

Solution of handling those criminals which the stupid law can't even put them into jurisdiction…

Hide and Seek

Baby's been into playing hide and seek with us…

And for your information, no!! I don't like this game…

Especially playing with a baby… a small baby, who can't even differentiate betweeen a safe home and a outdoor/outside, which is full of dangerous potential…

And THAT…

We've decided, we'll not entertain her "hide & seek" request…

We'll just walk away, and make it so-not-fun for her…

Cos, yes, I'm very very terrified by those news, where kids gone missing…

Imagine!!

No, I don't even dare to imagine…

And I pray pray pray to God every day…

That the beautiful guardian angel will come look after my baby… and be by her side…

No!! I hate "hide & seek"!!!

More Notes on Bambino! (バンビーノ!)

ya... I just recalled one or two more notes on this dorama... (yes, somehow, this drama's lots of lifely meaning in it...)

1. Miyuki asked Ban, "who do you think, pay your salary?"...

Ban didn't get her question, and was like, "ha??", she then said, "do you think this restaurant/or its business pay your salary??",

"No! it's those capable workers, who pay your type of incapable workers...",

Oh!! how true, exactly as what I've said before... to my ex-coworkers... when a company, who's actually making some business, having some good revenue, yet can't afford to give out performance bonus and etc., ie. cos, all the "supposedly-our-bonus", is used to pay those incapable, dormant, sleeping workers, who sit there, do nothing but only all the talking, yakking, gossiping, sucking up, and back-strabbing, yes, something like all the BCC in his/her email??? yes, those workers... THAT's why, sometimes, a GOOD performing company/business, can't even give out some performance bonus, as token…

2. When Ban's finally got to work in the kitchen, able to cook his pastas... he's overjoyed... but then, quickly... he was "disoriented" when he met his old schoolmate, his senior... the guy asked him if that's what he wants for his life?? work work work all day, even during holiday, you gotta sleep, just to patch back your loss of sleep while you're working nearly round the clock in the kitchen?? yes, you do like cooking, but is that going to be your work, and your life's basically about your work, and nothing else?? you used to watch a lot of movies, and you seems to be very pro in giving review, so, what movies are you watching now??

all the questions, Ban couldn't answer...

he then told his co-workers, ie. the other cooks in Baccanale, that, he couldn't retaliate... he couldn't say a thing when the senior questioned him... and THAT he lost all his passion, just out of sudden, in the kitchen... he used to love to cook pasta, serve pasts so much so much, but then, suddenly, he didn't like everything anymore...

the rest, ie. Yona-chan, Yuki, Kuwa, all saw through him... and concluded that, cos, he's achieve what he wants, ie. work in the kitchen... be a professional cook, so, he's lost his aim in life, he's kinda lost his aim...

life lesson?? yes, we all need an aim in life, it can be anything, but yes, something, or a lot of things (better be something than a lot of things, else, you'll be disoriented again, unless you're the master of prioritization)... your aim can be seeing your kids grow up, or your family happy and sound... (oops, have I just mentioned my aims?? haha!) or you aim can be sitting behind the door, as the manager of the team, or the company...

or your aim can be moving to another country, and have a better life...

or your aim can be having even bigger and bigger house, or retire somewhere... that you like...

an aim...

an aim in your life, always...

that's why, in work, your boss always set a target for you, right?? that's the point...

yes, I know the importants of aim or target, but I actually didn't know that phase that Ban's just gone through... is an after-effect of achieving target... before you've found yourself another target...

yes, I didn't know, that's the reason, that's the cause... and if I don't know the reason, then, I'll think that, I really have lost interest in what I've always loved to do, and what I've always loved to be... and I may switched... I may change... but now... if you've already known the reason... then?? make sure before you're totally down and disappointed, about the job, about yourself, about life... quickly look for another aim/target... hey! it may not be an easy job... but then, haha... looking for a target/aim to achieve, IS an aim by itself?? ain't it?? ^_^ therefore... Gambaru Yo~

THAT! Truly IS a skill! (if you want to pick up, and be hated/despised by almost the whole world!)

1. You suck up to your boss - truly seriously absolutely horrible suckup… serious, you praise him/her every single day, when there's windows of opportunity… and you buy presents to him/her… you become his/her driver for lunch, only when he/she's around… not when he/she's not around… (that, you'll make sure your co-worker do the driving!)
2. You praise whatever your boss say, everything he/she says is CORRECT… and you've already known…
3. You trash your co-worker's work, whenever there's chance…
4. You praise your own capablity whenever there's chance… loudly, in front of your boss especially…
5. You comments a lot a lot a lot a lot, damn a lot, on other people work, pick on them… implying that you can do a better job… but then, you'll never ever get your hands dirty by even correcting them, or take over and do it yourself, you'll NEVER dirty your hands…
6. You take all your business partners business card, take all opportunities to attend events, functions, seminars, so that you can take those cards, THEN, you go back to office, and BRAG to everybody else in the office, THAT, these people know you, that, you're good friends, and these people will do whatever it takes, for you, cos, you guys are close… ALL THE BUSINESS CARDS'S OWNERS ARE YOUR BEST FRIENDS, AND KNOW YOU VERY VERY WELL… ya, you insist that… make sure you insist, and you always repeat that to people!!! (WHEN LIES TOLD A ZILLION TIME, IT'LL BECOME TRUTH… ya! That applies to moron, ok?? Only the wise know the real truth!)
7. When you attend meeting, you brag brag and brag, you tell people to quicken the meeting process, cos, you're so busy!! Ya, you make sure you tell people that you're busy, busy, busy, and really pretend that you're damn busy!
8. When you need to make commitment, you'll go all the way, to call your co-worker in the office (the one who's doing the real work) even though, that means, you need to be constantly on the phone with the co-worker, like call-in for 20-30 times, just for that meeting you sit in?? To make sure that, it's the co-worker who SAYS those thing, not you!! REMEMBER? YOU'LL NEVER GET YOUR HANDS DIRTY, NEITHER WILL YOU GET YOURSELF INTO ANY COMMITMENT! If there's anything wrong, it's the co-worker's fault… if it happened to be a success story… oh! It's your credit!!
9. Even if one day, your co-working "see beh tahan" you, and leave the job, you'll make sure you'll pester your boss (that's the point of sucking up to him/her, right?) and give him/her all sorts of reason, of course, one of the reasons is, YOU'RE SO BUSY!! So that, your boss will go and hire another new worker for you… oops! Yes, for you, in fact, not even for your boss… you're the real boss… hehehe… yes, you're the real boss… you know it very well… even your so-called boss, needs to listen to you, being manipulated by you…
10. Even if one day, your co-worker who may have joined other team in the same company, as long as it's the same company… you'll make damn sure that, he/she will have to cover your fat ass… to do the "old" job, carry out the "old" task, as long as a new worker's not joined… cos, you're always so busy!! (yes, others are not that busy, you're the ONLY one that's busy!!!)
To simplify,
Never dirty your hands,
Never make any commitment,
Always pretend that you're busy, and say it out loud, when you enter a hall, you start to mention it at the other end of the corridor,
Always trash other people work, but no matter what, never help them with their work, though, you'll continue to brag that you know the work very very very well, damn well…
Remember?? Remember ok?? Rules of thumbs…
These, truly is a skilll…
Seriously, truly…
Where no human can adopt all… can learn all…
Yes, no human can…
Cos, that needs damn high level of lying skill, planning skill, shouting skill, thick face skill, back-stabbing skill… and lastly, when "attacks" come, crying skill, of course!!!
Seriously, truly…
It's not easy to find one with such skill…
And somebody need to thank me for branding this skill set…
a.k.a. THE 2FACE SKILL!
BRAVO!
CONGRATS!

do you tell people...

When you've no money?

I mean, when you're buying something…

At least, you show that, you don't have enough…

For eg.

Buying a mouse (the computer mouse, not the real mouse LA!)..

I don't intend to get a super mouse, cos, I only need it for my work..

Therefore, upon entering, to cut it short, and not wasting time (in my opinion) I'll just tell the assitant, give me the cheapest mouse…

That's type A, say..

Type B, of course, the other way round,

You only have budget for the cheapest, or probably the second cheapest mouse in the shop,

But then, you pretend to look around, ask some question, (cos, you want to avoid asking, "which one is the cheapest?" and that, you think other will think that you're cheap!) and then, finale.. you took the cheapest one! ^_^

So, which type are you?

I believe...

Ok… I won't share the "original" details… and if you're one of those atheist or super against what I'm believing, stop here please…

I've some questions… (well… not really me, but somebody, ahem…) and due to my limited knowledge, though I've tried my best to answer… but then, I gotta asked my little angel… (ok, that's an old angel, my new angel now is my baby… ^_^ wa haha!!! Yes, she's an angel, and she's a gift from our Almighty God… and I pray every day that, God will send a guardian angel to her, and I believe so…)

Back to the topic… so, there's some questions I asked, and there's some answers (mostly satisfying, or I'll say, just like what I've known… I mean, what I've known, or what I've figured out, or, what I've learnt throughout my years as a not-so-active catholic… is not too wrong… is not too far off!)

There come the answers...

About "judgement day"…

Please read…

http://www.usccb.org/nab/bible/matthew/matthew25.htm

Ok I'm not sure if I've picked up the right light, ie. the right message, but the footnote:

14 [31-46] The conclusion of the discourse, which is peculiar to Matthew, portrays the final judgment that will accompany the parousia. Although often called a "parable," it is not really such, for the only parabolic elements are the depiction of the Son of Man as a shepherd and of the righteous and the wicked as sheep and goats respectively (Matthew 25:32-33). The criterion of judgment will be the deeds of mercy that have been done for the least of Jesus' brothers (Matthew 25:40). A difficult and important question is the identification of these least brothers. Are they all people who have suffered hunger, thirst, etc. (Matthew 25:35, 36) or a particular group of such sufferers? Scholars are divided in their response and arguments can be made for either side. But leaving aside the problem of what the traditional material that Matthew edited may have meant, it seems that a stronger case can be made for the view that in the evangelist's sense the sufferers are Christians, probably Christian missionaries whose sufferings were brought upon them by their preaching of the gospel. The criterion of judgment for all the nations is their treatment of those who have borne to the world the message of Jesus, and this means ultimately their acceptance or rejection of Jesus himself; cf Matthew 10:40, "Whoever receives you, receives me."

AND the jist of it, ie. BELIEVING…

The answer I got was,

To read the whole chapter of, 1st Letter of St. John,

http://www.usccb.org/nab/bible/1john/intro.htm

(forgive me, I've not read yet… and I will…)

AND, regarding confession,

Yes, I know this will raise argument…

But then, let me finish first…

Cos, the answer I got, it's exactly like those that I've been reading of a counseling professional… (who's actually a buddhist) THAT… to overcome your fear, your worries, your whatever… (negativity) is to FACE IT!

And for us, catholic, to face it, is to confess it…

A lot of people are so against it… irregardless this confession… or the counseling part, to really face it, (watch INCEPTION, again, the same blogger actually psycho-analyze the whole show… which I can barely understand the jist of it… but then, I thought it was a damn good piece of work!)…

You may claim that, you've face it, you've overcomed it,

But doesn't the same fear, same negative type of feeling, or anger, or whatever frust, still come back ot you??

Cos, you've not realeased yourself from it…

There comes, the real confession… yes, that's the way I understand…

Real or not real… I'm not the spokeperson, but that's the way I understand…

In the end, your argument's not about repentance, not about your sin, not about your trying to overcome it… trying to face it…

In the end… your argument's will just be… who's the power?? Why should THAT person be given the power? Why can't I just forgive myself, and bla bla bla bla… so, that's not the point…

Cos, you still do not really face your fear, your worries, your weakness…

To face it, to overcome it, and to share it…

Anyway…

So, back to "anyway"…

Like I say, that's the way I understand…

And I've always like what Mother Teresa's quote…

Again, it's the jist of all things, isn't it?

It's between me and God anyway…

Judgement or not?

Confession or not?

Believing or not?

And whatsoever…

Really it's between me and God, and it's between you and God…

"People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.

If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.

For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway."

— Mother Teresa

Lastly, John 10:9

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I am the gate. Whoever enters through me will be saved, and will come in and go out and find pasture.

And… good for the someboy who've asked me… that, I bothered to think… and bothered to find answer, and that, the answer's given… assuring to myself… as a catholic…

And… I've to say praise to The Lord, that He's given me this gift, to believe in him…

Hey!! To be able to believe, and to have faith… IS A GIFT…

Forever & ever… pueh!

I used to think that, I'll like white coffee forever, after ditching the so-called "ang mor" coffee… (ya, unless I ask for double-shot of expresso, else, it's so little kick, and probably a little bit bland for me!)

But then, I don't know why, out of sudden, just a couple of days ago… I suddenly feel that, even the white coffee's nothing much left in me…

Ok, I still drink, "old town", "gold choice", "chek hup", among my favourite brands… but then, seriously, I don't find joy in drinking them…

Instead… somehow I got hooked onto chinese tea… (good move huh?)

It all started when I was spring cleaning my fridge, and (did I tell you about that?) I dug out the green tea from china, which we bought from shanghai back in 2004… (yuk! You may say, "still got taste?" well… tea is tea, I'm not that particular about stronger, or less aromatic, and whatsoever, it still has that tea taste, come on!)

And also, it all started when I thought of seriously drinking tea…

Well… "pai seh" to tell you, in fact, I've been struggling with teapots and so on…

I've been using the ikea teapot, 2 version, both are good, in a way, yes very good, ikea's stuff is basically value for money… but then, I'm more to the lazy type, the same thing (chore), if you expect me to do it over and over again, day by day, I'll feel fedup, and I may just ditch the "habit"… ie. washing the teapot with tea leaves everywhere… I mean, you gotta scoop it, somehow somehow…

Therefore, one day, I decided to grab those "tea bag" from Daiso…

And yes, it works…

NOW! I just need to pour the tea leaves into the teabag, which is big enough to give "room" to the leaves to steep… yes, apparently tealeaf needs room… ^_^

And now… I'm into tea… forever? Not sure, I can't tell…

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Then, I used to… well… I was pretty particular about certain font types… ie. I've favourite fonts from time to time, and that sucks… you know why? When I've favourite fonts, I need to have that particular font, basically everywhere in my apps… excel, words, outlook, browserS, bla bla bla… so, I've to change from time to time, though it was not on frequent basis…

Whenever I'm into one, I thought, it's FOREVER, that's why, I bothered to change, right???

Then… one day, out of sudden again… all these fonts don't matter to me anymore…

Long time ago, I even went to the extent to go into all my old blog entries, to make sure that, all the fonts are STANDARDIZED!! All the way to year 2005, scary huh???

Again, a good switch!!!

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Ok… of other things, like what sets of plates and bowls to use, ie. ikea vs. "chiplak", and bla bla bla… I thought, it'll be forever, but then, it only last for a while…

Each time, I told myself, THAT's the best dining solution, ie. dining, and ease of washing…

But then again, next day, I changed my mind…

Conclusion??

Adult loves using the word FOREVER!! (deep down, we all know that, nothing can be forever!)

Just like what Charlie's mother told him, (Charlie and the Chocolate Factory) that… adults likes to use forever, but then, they don't really mean it…

Maybe…

Maybe you take "forever" less seriously than I do…

But then, ya… that's why… I say, there's nothing's forever… cos, I take it seriously, and I know… seriously… nothing's forever…

Bambino!バンビーノ!

Ok… I was supposed to (I wanted to) blog about this in chinese, but then, suddenly, I feel lazy in typing in chinese… therefore…

Another reason is, I actually mentioned and talked about this to him, ie. english… ^_^

Ok… I lazy… therefore, I copied, off wikipedia,

Cast

• Jun Matsumoto as Shogo Ban
• Masachika Ichimura as Tekkan Shishido (chef and the owner of Trattoria Baccanale)
• Yuki Uchida as Miyuki Shishido (manager and a daughter of Tekkan)
• Kuranosuke Sasaki as Atsushi Kuwabara (souschef)
• Ryuta Sato as Nozomi Katori (pasta chef)
• Karina as Asuka Hibino (chef for antipastos)
• Osamu Mukai as Masashi Senoo (apprentice chef)
• Hosshan. as Toshio Oda (pastry chef)
• Ayaka Komatsu as Kozue Minagawa (waitress, became an assistant chef later)
• Kazuki Kitamura as Tsukasa Yonamine(Yona-san) (chief of waiters)
• Kei Yamamoto as Susumu Shindō (chef and the owner of Trattoria San Marzano, which Shogo used to work for in Hakata, Fukuoka)
• Kazue Fukiishi as Eri Takahashi (Shogo's girlfriend)
• Kimiko Yo as Satoko Ban (mother of Shogo)
• Keiko Toda as Kyōko Nogami (one of steady patrons for Baccanale)
• Hiroyuki Ikeuchi as Yasuhide Hayama (former chef of Baccanale and Asuka's boyfriend)

Now, I'm going to talk…

When I started this show, it didn't really impress me, like all the other shows that I've watched lately, for eg. Shinzamono…

But then, this show, somehow's special, it's so much life-related topic, and meaning in there, and that, a couple of time, I actually felt sad, watching how Ban's gone through in Baccanale…

Note 1: the pasta… goodness… I'm a pasta lover, always… my friend bought me 1 big huge pasta dictionary before, ya, not that, I actually make full use of it, but then, the point is, I'm a pasta lover… but then again, seeing how Baccanale did its pasta… I was thinking, "arrgh… so homemade…", nevermind, the actors actresses were good, they made the pasta (after eating them) look so yummy and eatable, and yes, the heavenly pasta…

Note 2: though this is a show about food, about how Ban "grows up", as a man, and strong and brave man!! But then, they've conveyed so much about life… for eg. For Ban to become a man, ie. he's to be trashed to the very bottom, and stand up again, (I mean, spiritually, and emotionally)… apparently, if a man's not gone through all these, he'll not be a man, get it??

Note 3: (I like this) Shishido (the owner) told Ban about this, regarding food, regarding "ryori", or culinary, or cooking, whatever you name it… Shishido said, ryori is a difficult department, it's very complicated, when a cook prepare the food, it's his emotion, his intention, and probably the expectation of the patrons… plus the ingredients, bla bla bla bla bla… yes, that makes thing sounds super complicated… though, I'm a person who prefer to simplify it, food is just food, you cook, and you eat, ^_^… though, once in a while, I don't mind seeing the subtleness on how japanese like to "complicate" things…

Note 4: it's nice!! I mean, really nice, to see Yuki Uchida… I do like her… just that, her luck's not too good? Maybe?

Note 5: VERY IMPORTANT ONE!! ^_^ haha… I just want to mention that, the role of Yonamine (ie. Yona-san, Ban calls him!) by Kazuki Kitamura's superb… I mean, that role's so important in there… a person, something like a mentor, but not really Ban's mentor… who always give hint, or guideline… to Ban… to help him to think through… and overcome the emotion/attitude barrier… his words, can be a single word like "smile", like "love"… simple, yet, took Ban a loooooooooooong time to realize, and to learn… I like him… I mean, I don't really like Kazuki Kitamura, I think he's really not considered good looking, but then, finally I like him in this role… superb!!!

Note 5: talking about life huh?? When Ban complained to Kuwabara about his job (as a waiter in the main hall… that's the beginner step to work in Baccanale, even if you intend to work as a chef eventually!)… Kuwabara lectured him, and said, not everybody (or, mainly everybody) will like his/her job… therefore, the aptitude regarding the job's important, everybody else, just like Ban, maybe disliking the job, but still go through it, day by day, still trying to figure out about their life, about their job, and how they should handle it…  bla bla bla… isn't that true? How true!!!

Note 6: of all part, Ban just joined Baccanale as a cook assistant (training time! But that makes him wanting to join the team, forever!), then, to become a waiter in the main hall, then, to the part, where he's to help Oda for his dessert department… I actually find, the part of Ban and Oda's pretty enlightening…, cute… and somewhat, meaningful too… ^_^

Note 7: in fact, this show has a lot of "big" star… ie. those who, eventually become a lead role in their own dorama series… like Karina, Ryuta Sato, Sasaki, etc.

Note 8: though I'm a fan of Jun Matsumoto, but then, I don't think he's at his best in this show… ya, sounds like a pro saying and commenting right… I seldom find my "idols" not at their best… but then, seriously this round… maybe that's the reason why I was not impressed in the beginning, and then, I'm still not that impressed, by Jun, now… mainly I'm more bought in by the other characters…

Note 9: their theme song, by Arashi… gosh!!! This is the thing with jpop, mainly from johnnys… their songs… are always so cheerful… looking at the OP, and listening to the song, does make my day… I mean, it does cheer me up, especially after getting up from bed, still sleepy… but have to face the daily housewife/mom's life… (ok, I'm not complaining, but then, I'm just sharing with you, how a housewife/mom's life is… on a day-to-day basis…)

There you go! Their song…

Recommended? Well… it depends, I'll recommend, if you're those type of detailed person… or if you like pasta,

But then, if you wanna see the best of Jun Matsumoto, I won't recommend…