9/11

Last night I was watching the documentary of this event, made by BBC and other producton companies...

What can I say?? it's... shocking!! 驚心動魄... well... I know many people out there, have seen the clips, when the 2 buildings collapsed, many time... however... this is the first time, I follow from the first minute to the last... :"-(
the production studio made this documentary, from the morning, the few minutes before the hit, to the last minute...
showing how different people in different office in these 2 buildings started their day..
what they were doing prior to the hit, and then... the hit... it even showed when the plan hit right throught floor 81 when a guy was talking on the phone, seeing a plane speeding into his face...

Well... I won't say much about this documentary... (it's worth watching, if you have the chance)
what I see is, after the hit, all sorts of reactions from those people in the buidlings...
some, became the leader of the small groups (colleagues in the office) and asked everybody to leave, regardless what...
some, still sat there and listened to the PA system, asking them not to move but stay on to work...
some, keep calling different authorities, to figure out what happened, and wait for further information to react...
some, having felt that something had gone wrong, maybe sixth sense... started to call home, and tell the husband/wife, that she/her loves him/her, and that, she/him loves the children...

In the middle of the evacuation process...
one, already gave up in the very beginning, sat there, regretting his life, kept thinking that, he shouldn't have even been to this place and work such demanding/buggering work.. (a job that... maybe pays well, but he didn't like) however, there's one person decided to stay with him and then... I suppose they're in heaven now...
some, (building construction personnels, those that work with their hardhats on all day), forgot about all existing problem they've had with other people, and really act like a hero, a real humble hero.. they gave up their life till the very last minute, just to save others out of those debris in the office... I remember one of the survivor said during the interview... that, he's actually spoken to that very hero, face to face, and that's the last time he saw him... :"-(
and he said... at that moment, there's no classes difference between blue collar workers or white collars, and that, at that time, accountants or lawyers had already lost their mind and didn't know what to do...
one, in the middle of his escape, heard somebody cried for help, he decided to detour and finally saved that person from the other side of the pile of debris, and now, they're brothers...

There were lots of heroic acts during that events...
and there were lots more 'normal mortal' acts during such event as well...
ironically... one of the chinese survivors that's been interviewed... he tried to keep some others who were left behind company, but in the end, he ran... and he survived...
he later told, to the public... admitting that, there's this cowardness in him, at that time... that's why, he didn't bother to stay behind, spending his time to encourage those who's given up hope... and ran away...
but then, ironic... as... I thought... most chinese will act like this.. very typical...
:"-(

Sometimes... I think...
if we're lucky enough... that our whole life live in a peaceful environment.. our REAL personal will not be tested...
otherwise... I'm not sure... including myself... and those we've already known... friends, colleagues, relatives, families...
even though during the day, for eg.
this person always acts like a hero, leader,
this person always acts like a charity person, good person,
this person always get top award, good praise from boss,
this person always seems to be most caring and concerned about his own close family...
.......
I'm not sure... on such day, during such event...
whether this person, will still be the same person...
whether we will give up very early
or, whether we will be the one who help others,
or, whether we will be the one who help others, till we give up our lives,
or, whether we already know where we will end up (die) and regretlessly help others,
or, whether we will just run quietly and humbly, so that, we won't pick up any 'help' signal from surrounding, or stopped by others who need help,
or, whether we will still laugh at the matter and go through the whole thing optimistically, regardless the end result (dead or alive)
or.....

that's why... chinese has a saying...
時勢造英雄!! (vs.時勢造狗熊!! this is my own, or somehow a social understanding from chinese)
ie. Heros are made during hard time...
(vs. Cowards are made during hard time)