My Maids

1. A maid who vacuum the floor

2. A maid who help me dry the cloths (too bad, no maid to fold/iron the clothes yet), especially lately, the weather's been cool, wet almost all the time, all my clothes cannot be line-dried…

3. Lately I've employed another maid who help me to cook, damn useful, especially when baby's pretty annoyed by the sound of vege-frying (the sizzling sound from the wok), what more to say, this one, sometimes, I can skip not to use a single drop of oil (especially while cooking meat/fish), and no oil splatter, ie. less kitchen counter top cleaning daily - Cosway Chefel Flip n Cook

In the pipeline,

I'm thinking of employing another maid who help me to clean those stubborn dirt/stain - Karcher Steam Cleaner

^_^

With all these maids, my life - from working wife + do housework, to stay-at-home-mom + do housework a lot a lot more easier…

a Challenging month ahead

Gosh, I know this is going to be challenging,

Baby's already showing sign of teething… serious!! Serious teething symptoms…

Excessive drooling, wakeful nights (for the past 2-3 days), and one of my other NIGHTMARES, ie. biting!!

I've come across some breastfeeding mothers, who've shared their experience over their blog… (not into very detail though) and I know, it will not be something easy…

Even now, she doesn't have any single tooth, it hurts (and ya, her pediatrician said "it hurts a bit", you're right!!)

And I think I've just experienced a slight breast rejection, due to my reaction - which those experienced mothers advised not to, and I did… :(

You should not say 'ouch', and you should not even try to push her away, and that's what I did…

And next thing is… she's whining for the next 1 hour in bed, crying VERY SADLY!!

Give her back, she doesn't want, keep crying (I've been thinking that we're consider lucky, as she's not so a cranky baby, since birth, ie. she rarely cry non-stop)

So, she just lied in bed, crying… crying… crying…

And she's on my breast, she starts to bite, (ya, without the tooth and the bloody scene part yet)

And I told her not to, (as if she understands)

And I loose my patience… and I started to feel nervous…

Yes, I know, this is the beginning of the teething chapter, and I'll have a damn challenging month ahead…

To continue, or not to continue… whatever decision I'll take, the process in between is going to be full of blood, sweat and tears (maybe both of ours)

(WHO SAYS BREASTFEEDING IS BEST??)

Will I decide to wean her off now?

Serious I don't know… and I can't decide yet…

Cos, another side of me is, "other mothers can do and overcome, why can't I?" (that's the problem, "why can't I??" and that's usually the motivation that push me forward and forward to handle anything difficult in my life)

Maybe I shall start writing to those mothers, and ask for the detailed advice…

Cos, the tips and general advice that I've got so far is,

"just tell her NO, a couple of time, they'll learn!"

Ya… in between, from start telling, to she learns, is like how??

Arrghh…

We'll see...

my cloth diaper review

I've posted a review to this online website kasihkusayangku.com
Well… ok, it's for moms, and moms-to-be… (not for guys)
In fact, when I posted that review, I don’t have any ulterior motive,
Simply I've nothing better to do :)
And I like to write anything… any single thing that comes into my mind…


Below's the review:


i've had a few KS CD, i've to say, for local brands (GH, lunatots, freshbots, crazymomy) this is the best ones, i'll call it, the M'sian version of BumGenius.
However, i notice, the outer layer of PUL is different between blue/red and the rest of the colour, and i prefer the blue/red ones, the yellow especially feels a bit hard, but it's just the outer layer, overall performance still good.


I wish KS will come out with more and more colour choice, and maybe consider XL sizes, i like to collect different colours of CD, if KS will have more new colours - like maroon, lavander, brown - i'll be the first customer to buy...


KS is very good for day use (i've not tried night use, but i'm confident it can serve the purpose, like i said, it's the m'sian version of BG) after trying to many brands, i know what type of CD can pass for night use, and i know KS will do the job - that's why lo, need more colours, for me to improve my 'system'


lastly, the edge of the sides - gussets, are good for containing the mess, vs. another brand, they actually make the crotch area smaller, will sure fail to contain mess
and the velcro tape is one of the strongest i see... ie. baby will not be able to take it out so easily.. even for adults


therefore, MORE COLOURS MORE COLOURS, PLEASE!!


And guess what I got in return,
The owner of the shop's quite delighted to see my review and asked me if I want to be their tester..
As more diapers will be coming up… but before they're launched, she needs testers… and that she'll send me the 'new' CD sample for testing...
Since I'm using the CD on baby, so, it doesn't matter if I gain, or not gain anything… so, I offered my 'services'…
And I've been doing stress-test on the KS CD on baby for night time use…
Frankly… so far so good… going into the 9th month, she's quite a heavy wetter at this stage, the imported Happy Heiny's already failed the night nappy task, therefore, I've to 'promote' this KS CD and 'demote' the HH for day/evening use...
(I was a bit worried that the fact will disappoint the owner, but well… then, I'll keep the good news till later)
Kekekeke...

you tweet, i tweet~~

See.. I've ditched quite a couple of games on facebook… it's kind of a trend lately, ie. everybody's playing fb's games…
Gosh… it's pretty time consuming I've to tell you, cos,
Some games, you've gotta sit there to manage - for eg. The restaurant city, you gotta 'feed' your employees when they run out of energy (mainly playfish type of games)
Some games, you've to login from time to time, to continue your job - fashion wars, mafia wars (mainly zynga type of games)
I was 'determined' to have some 'achievement' in these games, but finally I gave up…
Cos, it's simply time consuming and I don't get anywhere, first, my network's not that big, second, I don't intend to increase my network just to 'help' in these games


So… I ended up ditching those games, keeping only 2 - restaurant city + café world…
And what else do I do, I've been tweeting for the past 1 week..
Ie. twitter.com, and I've been exploring all different twitter aps…
And I've been retweeting, sharing info on twitter…
My brother commented, "阿姐好像tweet得很凶"
I laughed…
And I told him, "ya…"
I've been twitting a lot, and why I move from fb to twitter?
An account which I've signed up for a while and only now I start looking into it?
Cos, it's quite a good tools for me to use and to 'show my existence' to the outside world (considering the fact that I don't go out that often anymore, or interact directly with people anymore, as I don't work anymore)
And why twitter not facebook?
Simply because there're a lot more twitter apps, compared to fb apps…
I can tweet, and then, it's updated in the fb at the same time, and therefore, lately you can see that I've been updating and sharing info on my fb quite a lot too… :)


Verdict: I still prefer to login to twitter to tweet, rather than using those apps,
I've installed tweetdeck - uninstalled,
I've tried opera twitter widget - so far that's the best, I actually prefer this than any extra apps..
And I've enabled tweetfeed - so that, when I update my blog (the public one) it'll be fed to my twitter's tweet… haha, that's why it's pretty fun…


Well, I guess, in the mean time, I'll still continue to tweet, as I can simply post anything,
If interesting, people comment,
If uninteresting… just uninteresting… and I continue to tweet…


So, find me at twitter.com/choong94
cheers

The Flower Shop without Roses (薔薇のない花屋)

before i start, i haven't finished yo!!

ok... let's start...
in the beginning,
i saw a girl in a video, talking to her boyfriend, or a man she loved...
(with music in the background, no naration, no dialogue)
next, i saw the same girl, lying in the hospital bed,
next, a man ran to the girl, lying in the hospital bed,
next, the man ran out, oh.. the man has 'kaboom' hairstyle,
next, the man carry a baby, change its diaper, feed it...
next, the man cut his hair...

then, present time...
oh... then, i figured out, the mother of the baby died, and the man raised the kid by himself...
(all these while, i thought it's a boy, and i think, that's purposedly done!)

then, i paused the video...
thinking... gosh, looking at this,
listening to the soundtrack..

this is going to be a tear-jerking show man!!
i've gotta get ready of my box of tissue...

however, i've watched 3 episodes now, haven't really used any tissue yet!! ^_^
but i kinda guess how this story is going to progress... the only interesting part is Eiji's growing-up... (TBA)

lately i've watched quite a bit of katori shingo (who played Eiji's role) - from the Galileo that i've just finished, and this,
i've to say, from SMAP, besides kimura takuya, he's one of the one who, i've to say, good at acting...
though i personally also like nakai masahiro, besides kimura...
(though most people say kusanagi tsuyoshi is a very very good actor, but i've never managed to like him, cos, he's JUST TOO UGLY! 長得真的太太太抱歉了!)

when i 'update' him what i've been watching lately,
just like what i've mentioned in the beginning of this entry,
being a new father, he's like 'aiyo! aiyo!'...
ya, the setting of the beginning's already like, warning you that, this is going to be a teary dorama...

... to be continued...

JUST How Big is BIG!

ok... lately we've been having some 'activities', looking for houses (bigger condo, or, link-house)
though... i've called it quit...

however, i'm just wondering,
what's the most ideal place for us, for all of us,
i've to say i'm very - i'm serious, i'm really very contented with where i stay now,
food - convenient, especially cheap, and affordable tasty food,

school - kindy, primary, secondary, a couple of them near our area, having kids, this is very very important to me!

traffic - ooh, this one's amazing, from the area that we stay, there's a short cut, immediately bring us to the LDP highway, though, the LDP toll's unavoidable, but we skip the puchong road (gosh, i pity those who stays in bdr puteri)

location - i can go to KL, via kesas, or sg. besi easily (putting aside the crazy traffic, let's say, a beautiful sunday morning), and i can go to damansara, PJ easily, or i can go to shah alam, klang easily, in chinese, it's called 四通八達, ie. all four directions, what else can i ask for??

my condo - big not big, small not small, good enough for 3 of us, if not 4 of us (potentially) why? there's a 4th room, as stoeroom, to put all my "rubbish" - ie. BIG, and i can kinda do a speedy cleanup/mop/vacuum within 15 min, with baby watching me, getting more and more impatient - small enough,

security - after a few breakin in other units, the committee has stricten the security measurement and so far so good, the guards are pretty friendly too, but have done their job pretty well, and we've kind of a double layer security, as the housing area SURROUNDING us, has their own security - which after midnight, they'll narrow down the entry road, so far, i think the housing area around our condo is pretty safe, as most of the time, i can see their gates are wide opened in the evening, and there're people jogging in the morning and in the evening around the park in front of our condo,

facility wise - well maintained, not too limited, not too much (too much, higher maintenance fees, and not that i use them very often)
there's a little lovely common park in front fo the condo, reminds me of the lovely park in front of the punthill serviced apartment when we stayed in melbourne, putting the super duper hot weather aside, if m'sian can get slightly cooler, this place is just 100% perfect for me, an evening stroll after the dinner, what else can you ask for? ya, that's what we did in melbourne...

neighbourhood - this is really LUCK i've to say, irregardless what price you can pay/afford, to buy any property, you can't buy your neighbour (arguable though), luckily our direct neighbour, is just like us, YOUNG couple, non-KL-born, with 2 kids now, and other neighbours, are all pretty similar background as us, similar jobs, and mixture of races, that's why, our management committee is quite efficient in enforcing and improving certain standard in and around, though i won't call it "top notch" like what you can expect in those million dollar condo, but i'm happy, as i don't intend to go into that 'tai tai' territory, not now, not in the near future...
i like to have my own little world, nice, cosy, and sufficient...
in fact, if you ask me the ideal place - just like my PC, i need huge storage place, and a small cozy apartment, that's ideal for me... (in terms of PC, i just want a normal perfomance PC, but loads of HDD space)

what else can i ask for, serious!!!

we went to see the IOI's skyview residence, it scares it... (serious, it scares me, you won't know how scary it is in me!)
top down - they've 1 living area on the 2nd floor, big enough to put tables, couch, a pool table, and also a bathroom,
then, they've 3 rooms in the 1st floor, let's talk about the master bedroom, 1 walk-in wardrobe, i've to say it's gorgeous, you can simply chuck everything in there, but let me tell you, in the reality world, your wardobe will never look THAT neat, and 'uniform', so, forget it, and they've 1 small living area, to put couch, TV INSIDE THE MASTER BEDROOM, not to say big nice cosy bathroom with bathtub and showers, outdoor shower...
ground floor - standard, kitchen, living area, dining area, a guest room which is big and again, en-suite, then, SADLY, a detached so-called 'maidroom' ie. you've to go out of the house to get into that MAID ROOM...

yes, scary isn't it?
looking at this house, you know how sad our society is, and how sad it'll become!!
(call me pessimistic)
3 living areas - putting aside the fact that there's only 1 kitchen, ie. you can easily house 3 small families, who don't need to mix up with each other on frequent basis, most is, 'hi' and 'bye' when we bump into each other at the main entrance,
and imagine the master bedroom, if i live in there, i probably can survive not even come out of MY ROOM for the entire week, except the weekend, (cos i've the living area, i've the study area, i probably can put a mini bar there, order pizza, and eat for the entire week)
isn't that very SAD and scary??

and imagine, there're just so many rooms, living areas in the house, how big a family will i want?? if i were to ensure some 'closeness' among my children (imagine) ie. they'll interact, fight, discuss, argue, play with each other on a regular basis, and be close, be 'bonded', just like any brothers sisters of our generation...
i've to have at least a dozen of them, and i'm not kidding...

i don't grow up in a family who owns big houses, and i've never thought my house is small,
i grew up in those split unit (upper floor, vs. lower flr, 2 families) and i use to put up my my uncle's house, sharing the same 'floor' with my cousins,
i never think they're small...
serious, i may tell you, 'small', but that's because it's what you want to listen!!
but deep in me, i never think they're small... maybe big house, small house is never something in my measurement about people!! (I'M A SPIRITUAL PERSON, OK?? ^_^)

that's why places like skyview residences are just far too scary to me, maybe you think i'm just not there to enjoy good life, maybe i really am not, but serious, i don't intend to be one...
my good life, may not be your good life, but i'm just happy and contented at the moment...
maybe this is a symptom of 有女萬事足 (having a daughter means a million already)
but i do appreciate where i stay now...
nice view (i like to stay in high places, to look at the roads - since i was a teenager, maybe that gives me a feeling that, i can see 'everything') - our unit, happens to be able to see the road going out to the main road...
at night - at this time of the year, it's pretty breezy, though i complain it to be hot most of the time (who doesn't, we stay in m'sia) but it really gets chilly at night, and for a split second, you think you're out of m'sia...

oh, last but not least...
daily shopping wise, we've 2 hypermarts nearby, 1 mall nearby...
as i've always pro'ed the idea to have 'decentralized' things... for eg. decentralized bus station, decentralized shopping malls, decentralized whatever... i thought, this area that i stay is very much sufficient enough, IF decentralized, and the property developers (lucky enough to have 2 big developers, who do bother about their image in the market) have been working pretty hard to uplift the image of our area... again, not top notch, but i've to say, they've done a pretty good job...

all in all...
i've to say... i'm happy...
and before i end...
let me share with you, of something i've read since i was very very very small... small until i can't remember when, but i remember what i read...
虛榮心就像是蒲公英，風往哪裡吹，它往哪裡走，沒有踏實，沒有目的地，沒有根。
in english: vanity is just like dandelion, it goes wherever the wind blows/goes, no fixed destination, no root...
interpretation?
do it yourself ~_~

"Chee Na" Man Winter

nearly a week, here, chilly night,
DAMN HOT DAY TIME!
but chilly night…
ever since baby caught her cold (I guess, fully recovered now, except that, she’ll kinda have runny nose when she wants to sleep)
we’ve not been putting our air-conditioning to full blast!
but then, hey!! it seems better, we open all the doors, windows, put the thermostat to 25-27 deg.C,
and in fact, it’s just nice, cooling and comfortable…
approaching the morning, it actually gets pretty cold, if not chilly (cos, we have our window wide opened)

and sometimes, when I’m still awake, lying halfway, nursing, I looked out of the window…
looking at the quiet road (as the day’s not started yet)
it reminds me of winter…
winter’s just around the corner..
and it reminds me of the cold wave from upnorth beginning of this year…

I told him about my thoughts,
and I told him that it reminds me of winter, but definitely not ‘ang mor’ winter…
he then asked me, “where?”
I asked back, “I’ve not been to many cold ‘chee na’ man’s place, where else?”
“shanghai!”

yep, remind me of shanghai, when winter was approaching…
pueh! m’sian, even if one day snow, or gets damn cold, it’ll never resembles anything like the western countries, it’ll only be something like some china’s county.. and NOT EVEN JAPAN’s, ok!!!!!

ya, that’s m’sia!!
~_~

my own tantrum??

in response to my previous entry,
during the weeks (around 2 weeks) when baby’s not feeling too well (luckily she’s not that not-well, just mild cold) and when the air-conditioning’s ‘banned’ from being switched on, as it’ll cause the condition of her respiratory system worsen…
and when my body temperature also went up due to the non-existence of cool air-conditioning,
AND WHEN she refuses to sleep, or drink milk, and I was feeling so badly filthy, dirty, and sweaty… or sleepy!!
ya, I lost my temper,
lost my patience, and I’d choose to leave her alone for a while, then, she’d start crying, making the already bad night even worse…
so, after 3-4 nights of such straining situation…
and after seeing the doctor near my housing area…
and after consulting her if it’s really ok to put on the cool air-conditioning, she said it’s fine, cool but not cold!!
I told him, and I told myself (still telling myself) to withhold my ‘temper’ if she’s like that again, ie. doesn’t want to sleep, neither does she want to be nursed!! ie. just wanna look around, potentially play – IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!!

then…
after trying this ‘not to get angry’ for a couple of night, in fact, it gets better…
I was the first person who told him, “she’s just a baby”, when he started to get serious with her, then, he’s been throwing back this sentence to me…
ya, “she’s just a baby”, serious!! if I get angry, or loose my temper, I’m only punishing myself…
badly!

and today, I came across that article by this “parentingbabytosleep” owner,
I’m thinking, “ooh!! how true!!” and remind myself again…
that I should not get ‘serious’ with baby…
she’s not been sleeping too well for the past 2 nights, maybe it’s a little bit chilly (oh, because of this, remind me of my next blog idea)
or, maybe she slept too much during the day, or, maybe for some reason…
but then… ok lo… she gets up in the middle of the night, I kept telling her, “no play time”,
gladly, I didn’t loose control of myself…, she got back to sleep, like nearly 3 hours??
ghee.. that’s why, big mama and baby sleeps till afternoon…

maybe there’s a grey area between ‘getting serious’, and ‘discipline’, but arrgh… whatever… just do what I feel right, right?
there’s no hard rule!
as long as she’s happy, I’m happy and he’s happy…

ghee… that’s why I like dr. spock principal…
(www.drspock.com)

Sharing: Temper Tantrums

saw this entry from one of the subscribed blogs, the blog is "parentingbabytosleep.blogspot.com"

anyway, below is the excerpt that the owner extracted from the book she read, which I thought it's quite good to share, as I've just experienced it... (to be blogged later)

Temper Tantrums (except from book)

Having no more room to store hurt is the explanation for temper tantrums. A temper tantrum is spillover. Imagine that every child has a cup inside to store the unreleased hurts. The cup fills with unreleased hurts. Then one more hurt happens, and the child explodes with crying, anger, frustration, or rage. Our efforts to reason, comfort, or to fix are useless. We don't know why the child is behaving this way, and we don't know what to do. The hurt we did see didn't seem to warrant this intense response. The tantrum is the release of the accumulated hurts we didn't see.

Tantrums push our buttons. We may feel anxious, angry, or embarrassed. The child's release of painful feelings triggers the pain of our unreleased hurts. Once their cup spills, children lose control. Since we can't usually calm the child, it helps to focus on keeping ourselves calm. Children depend on adults to be their safety net. A child lost in a tantrum needs the adult to stay calm and keep him from hurting anyone or anything while the hurt empties out.

Crying and tantrums are not misbehaviors or manipulation; they are healing behaviors. Tantrums appear to be manipulation because the most common trigger for a tantrum is the disappointment and feeling of loss a child experiences when we say "No." The "no" is the last straw, the final drop that unleashes the hurt. Children grieve the loss they experience when we deny their request. If this "no" is the hurt that occurs when there is no more room in the cup, the cup spills.

Whenever we say no to a child, either we can expect a little crying to grieve the disappointment or we can expect a tantrum.

There is a bright side to tantrums. Releasing the pain of emotional hurt clears the way for emotional connection. Any parent who has been with a child after a full-blown tantrum has probably experienced the "rainbow after the storm." Once the child releases the pain, the child's delightful, natural nature returns. The child is usually calm, cheerful, affectionate, and cooperative.

Looking for a Limit

Have you ever heard the expression "cruising for a bruising"?

Do you ever have days when it feels like children are pushing the limits and being demanding? When a child's stored hurts cup is full, the child might push for the "No" that will be the final hurt that spills the cup. The child is not cruising for a bruising. The child is looking for a limit. You do yourself and the child a service if you set a limit. Trust and know that the child will release the stored hurts and feel better when the cup is emptied.

kaki's patah again!

I just got a new pair of specs today – ya, in conjunction to that,
wallop TGIF’s mudpie again… getting to like IOI’s TGIF more and more… it’s quite a good place to hang out with friends, or just with him (and baby)
and scoop on the yummy mudpie!!

take a look at it, it’s actually not so a cake (absolutely not a cake) but chocolate sauce on top (dripping down) on big chunk of mocha icecream (yummy!!)
like what I’ve just told him, this thing serves my craving 2-in-1, ie. chocky and icecream!! gosh!!

back to the topic,
it’s one of the ‘kaki’ of my specs (don’t know what to call it) was broken the other day…
for nearly a week I thing, and for nearly a week, I was surviving with a pair of bandaged specs

it’s not at the hinge, but where the ‘kaki’ slot into this little tiny pin, to be connected to the frame of the glasses,
immediately what I could think of when it happened, is to grab the handy toothpick next to our workstation (che!) and bandage it,
bandage it heavily and I’ve been wearing it out, don’t think people notice (caljes, you notice or not?)

at the same time, as usual chinese’s practice, we keep the older pair as SPARE (don’t know whose idea was it actually)
so, I happily go dig out the OLDER pair

oops, didn’t realise, the older pair, also kinda spoilt on the same side of the kaki…
and then…
I had a short section of “self-reflection”…
hm!! both pairs also ‘injured’ on the same side, then, it must be the way I wear specs…
yes, the way I wear, I tend to hold the ‘kaki’ near the hinge (where it’s spoilt) and press it downward on the ear, but also, make sure the front is ‘jerked’ up!
and that’s on the left side of mine..

there you go, that’s the result of such small act..
I suppose, this new pair will not be able to escape the same destiny..
cos, I’m doing this, right now!

sweeter and sweeter

kakakakaka, what I mean is, my sweet tooth…
every since my birthday indulgence (neh, I got to finish the whole tub of icecream by myself, sitting in front of TV, watching DVD – transformers, and GI Joe, with him and baby)
gosh, ya, indulgence after baby came to our life ^_^ sinful  but good…

and ever since…
I’ve been having this little mini minor craving about icecream, and chocolate…
~_~
goodness!

there’s one afternoon, while cooking, with baby watching..
I actually dug out the mini cornetto (leftover) and finished THEM.. kakakakaka, felt so good… ^_^

and last Friday, went to TGIF to cure my craving, love their mud pie…
tomorrow??
since he’s going to be out of the house for this weekend (meaning, no usual Sunday brunch with friends) so, I got to go to mall tomorrow night… before his weekend team building activity… kekekekekeke…

I’m just getting greedy, should I have Secret Recipe’s cake? or back to TGIF mud pie??
or, penang village – dinner, then, think about either Secret Recipe, or TGIF…

oh ya, and guess what’s in my mind now??
Death by Chocolate by Cadbury, Yogitree’s Chocolate Truffle Torte, and 7 sins of Chocolate by “Delectable by Su”…
of course, Yogitree’s my first choice, “Death by Chocolate” is too faraway (stayed in my memory, used to have it when I was in UK), 7 sins, tried it, but didn’t really fall in love with it, that day when we’re in The Garden @ Midvalley, I ended up settling my craving at Yogitree… ^_^

don’t let me see any chocky ok??
I’ll finish it for you, in a split second…

and oh ya… I’ve been kinda missing Pink Sage’s Greasy breakfast too (compared to Decanter Damansara, it’s the closest version I can find, to match the Mornington’s “Breakie to Die For”)
though.. my friend said the place is too small… however, I thought it’s kinda cozy, and the food is good.. the pancake is good to…
and in fact, Sunday morning, you get to be VIP – since not many people in town, and not many people in town wake up so early on a Sunday morning, you get to park right in front of the shop… kekekeke!!
wonder when I’ll be going there again – Greasy Breakfast, here I come!!

pawpaw

I’ve to write about this product, I just have to…
first, baby was having some rashes on her right cheek (can be seen in some of the photos I’ve posted to date)
I thought it’s just normal rash, then, one day, doctor said, it’s eczema…


ya, when I thought it’s just some rashes, and it’ll go away,
the first doctor we went to, prescribed a pretty expensive ointment, which I rarely put on her, why?? cos, it’s not edible, it’s not supposed to be swallowed, and you should only apply it for her, at night..
fine… but baby’s at the stage when she likes to rub her eyes, her face, and put her hands into her mouth..
that’s why I ended up not using that ointment,
and the rash still stays on her face…


second doctor then mentioned, it’s eczema (oh, according to the midwife, it’s the ‘IN’ problem for babies, “oh, no, my baby has eczema!”)
she mentioned that, I can just put some lotion there..
so, I put some lotion for a few days, after her bath…
however, the redness still kinda persists, though, I can actually live with it (not sure about baby though ^_^)
then, suddenly I ‘itchy hand’ again… I went online shopping – tinytapir.com to check on creams…
and decided to give it a try…
another reason that I’d want to give it a try is also because my friend in Oz mentioned to me about pawpaw cream (though I do not know which brand she’s using)
I’ve found another brand on another online store, but then I decided on this one, as this one claims that, it doesn’t have any petroleum byproducts in there…


and from the description – of course, first thing is, to cure nappy rash,
extras: crack nipple also can heal, other rash also can heal, bla bla bla, seems to be a magical ointment…
so, I bought it, for such a small tube, RM18, affordable…


I immediately put on her red cheek cheek, and goodness, the next day, the rash is gone… the result, I’ll have to say impressive…
then… we found that her neck has rashes too… maybe heat rash, or maybe… as half of the time, her chin kinda touches her chest, and due to sweat, there’s some rashes at the neckline there, and it’s getting more serious…
I put powder after her bath, didn’t really solve the problem…
so, I want to… again, see how powerful this pawpaw is…
I put pawpaw on her neck…
again, after 2 application, the rash’s gone…
AMAZING NEH!!


I wiki pawpaw, seems like it’s pronounced as pah-paw, but then, haha, I like to say ‘pao pao’ to her!!
I’ll say “let mama put paw paw for you” ^_^
try it!! (I mean the cream, if you’ve similar problem)

when communication breaks down...

... especially it's across 2 generations,
i hope and i sincerely hope, i'll be my baby's parents, an understanding parents in the future,
that she'll be willing to share things with me, and that she knows very clearly, i'm there for her, and i'll listen to her,
and that i'll understand her...
and i'm proud of her, proud of her choice of life...
and i pray...


one of the mommy blogs that i've subscribed shared this story...
she's a teacher in school, and there's one kid with some problem (she didn't describe the details of the problem, but as a concerning teacher, she notices that)
and she spoke to him,
all he said is, "i just want to see my mother's smile"
how sad, and how true...
she then called the mother of the boy, talked to her, and shared what her son told her...
the mother of the boy, immediately broke into tears...
and shared her concern with this blogger,
she said, she's been so stressed about life,
about the kid's performance, ie. that affect her performance as a mother overall... (ya, like my caljes friend just told me, mothers are STRESSED!!)
and that caused her to be a strict mother (i supposed)
which she rarely smile in front of him...


i read many articles, saying that,
kids are very sensitive towards the feeling of their parents (maybe especially mother)
if i'm stressed, and if i'm unhappy, i supposed my baby can feel it...
and that's when she starts to behave funnily, and maybe cranky at night...


push the forward button a little bit...
when we're adults, we still have parents (though, i left only with 1 parent)
in their eyes, we're always kids
and in fact, deep in ourselves, regardless how we intend to deny (if we do intend to), we're still a small kid...
[let me side track a little bit, talking about japanese drama, there's one drama called "eien no ko" (永遠の仔) - the main message of this drama is basically saying that, no matter how time pasts, there's still a little kid inside us, this is specifically talking about abused kids when they grow up]
and that's the underlying reason,
why we're always trying to prove ourselves in front of our parents, though, it can be many ways...
some try to excel in their study, their work (the good way)
some try to make problem, or maybe indulge in damaging activities (the bad way)
it's all trying to prove ourselves to our beloved parents,
or, to attract their attention,
or to get them to accept just how and who we are...


i remember my childhood friend mentioned to me,
what children want, is not lots of toys, (or lots of other material things)
but lots of kisses, and hugs...
(oh, maybe that's why i've been giving baby too much)


the worst thing is... (i sincerely pray that, i won't turn out to be like this)
we start thinking that, we're your parents, and that you've to do what i said, be somebody i expect you to be...
if you're not as what i expect you to be,
you're not a good son/daughter...
period!


putting myself, in the kids' shoe,
be it a baby, a toddler, or even an adult...
i think, it's pretty sad... to have such type of parents
cos, your voice is never heard
your saying is never regarded as saying - as it's regarded as bad words
your doing is never regarded as something appreciable - as it's just another bad act as children of this sort of parents
or, maybe even your job is not approved,
your purchase (of any big things) is not approved,
or, maybe even your spouse is not approved!!! (good gosh!!)
how sad!!!!


ya, maybe you'll ask me to put myself in the parents shoe...
that's why i'm writing this blog, and that's why i've been saying...
i do i do i do hope,
and i do i do i do pray that, i'll not turn out to be like one of them (i mean that sort of parents)
as children, we're always looking upon our parents, for guidance, for assurance, for security...
and if the parents start to behave as such, i really do not know, how communication can be continued...
and followed by that,
is basically loads of complaints from both sides,
and that's~~
WHEN COMMUNICATION BREAKS DOWN!
how sad!

facebook friend?

i wonder how many friends on our facebook (fb) are real friends?
hm... anyway, i keep my friends on other network, kekekekeke... (here lo, not on fb)
fb is to play games...


the other day, one of the so-called 'old' friends, or, rather old schoolmate (also not direct friends though, it's friend's friend) ping me on fb,
told me she's back in her residing city,
well, it started like this, when she came back to m'sia...
she ping me, told me, i was not at my PC to response, but not that i really bother...
she told me she'll be in KL.. bla bla bla...


then, after a few weeks, she ping me, told me, she's back to her residing city, and the purpose of that ping is,
to ask me for another friend's number, in the country that she's residing...
and i was like... @_@ why ask me???
first, i'm here, far far away here, in m'sia...
and you're THERE, far far away to the southeast...
and THERE, you've your other friends...


oh, then, why she suddenly asked for that friend's number, i suspect, it's because, she saw that friend's photo, with another friend of her (all mutual friends, in a way) ON FACEBOOK..
and maybe she wants to poke her nose in too, in this sort of activity...
but why not ask that other friend in the photo?? who happens to be her friend, stay in the same county, same city...
hm..
spooky... and weird, but then, i don't bother to response, what more to say, i saw the IM msg, many many hours later...


that's the reason, i don't login to my internet chat often, you just get this type of messages pretty often,
and then again, i hate login in as 'appear offline'... i don't want to be those weirdo, or spooky individuals, who appears offline, then suddenly whala!!! ping somebody and ask how they are, bla bla bla...


i used to tell myself, (especially when i was dealing with that big office politic started by my ex colleague, a.k.a. 2FACE)
if i were a swordman, i'll kill my enemy straight in front, not from behind...
ie. if i don't like you, i'm sure you'll know very well, and if i like a person, i'm also sure, the person know very well..
why hide?
why spook??
why manipulate and try to portray as good?
don't like means don't like
like means like
don't give a damn means don't give a damn
as simple as that,
that's why i adore Boston Legal's Alan Shore, and Denny Crane,
and that's why i like Denny Crane's line "I'm a simple person"
haha!!!


back to the friend's story...
anyway, i further checked with my friends THERE,
and as i'm writing here, seems like she managed to get the phone number of that 'friend', from her directly, via FB...
ooh, happy, but sad, how ironic!!
you need to get your friend's phone from fb, and that's friend??
O.o i wonder

separation anxiety

since there've been 2 queries (cheh!!) of the topic, based on my last post,
i feel obliged to explain...

well, when we brought baby for her follow up check on her mild cold,
i asked doctor,
describing to her that, baby, not sure it's because she's not been feeling well, or it's part of the development at this stage,
as long as i go out of her sight, she'll start crying...
doctor told me, it's "separation anxiety"
then i asked doctor, how long will it last, she mentioned, it can last till they're going to kindy... oh!! O.o

after coming back from the clinic, both of us kinda talked about it again,
he mentioned that, i've separation anxiety too, oh... cos, the following day, he'll need to go to other countries for assignment, 3 days,
i disagreed with him, and clarifed that, i've pre-departure blue/anxiety...
when i was in schlumberger, i used to go for offshore trip on a seismic vessel, 6 weeks duration,
and every single time, before i left...
well, i didn't notice, but my colleague mentioned to me that, i seemed to have some 'blue'...
ok, i accepted it...

then, i quit SLB,
then, i worked in IT firms, didn't need to travel too often (it's countable trip, mainly to s'pore)
then, i quit, and joined him on his regional assignment...
every single time, before we left a place, be it from home to the destination, or from destination 1, to destination 2,
i kinda got stressed up, don't ask me why,
it's anxiety, i supposed...
maybe it's separation anxiety to a certain extent, but it's between me, with the place that i'm currently in...

so, i pointed out to him that, if i were him (gotta go for trip next day)
ya, i'll be having some anxiety...

anyway, does that explain the title??