God sends her to train my...

Patience! Is the word!!!

Yep, I've problem with patience, ie. I'm not that a very patient person, anything, people, things, happenings…

Many time, whenever I went for confession (those were the days), I did confess that, patience, I didn't have, and I still don't have…

However…

I guess, parenthood… either make you an even more impatient parent, or, a more patient parent, it's either this, or the other way…

And I do praise to God that, having a baby… is a training path for me to handle my patience, or tolerance level… well, to me, they're more or less similar…

When she refused to sleep at night, I lost my patience, I actually smacked her, sometimes, pretty hard, on her thighs…

And it's of no use, she still refused to sleep…, then, I let her be… and it got better…

When she's trying to sleep at night… (oh you see, it seems like my baby's a sleep problem!)

She'll sometimes kicks me, scratch me, poke me, bla bla bla…

Ya, THAT, I sure loose my patience… but then again, however furious I feel, she's still the same…

So, I told myself to stop… (not that, I've perfected the "skill" now, but well… learning in progress…)

That's regarding sleep… my latest strategy is… I will keep quiet, throughout her whole bedtime routine, total darkness, and total noise-less… I know a lot of people may "advise" that, one should not train his/her baby to sleep in such environment, else, when they grow up, they'll have difficulty in sleeping in any other environment besides total darkness and quietness, but… what can I do, she's already NOT ABLE to sleep, when there's distraction…

There was a period of time, she liked to do her signature "octopus" face, ie. she'd squeezed her tightened lips together, and showed me that, she's "beh song", or, when she wanted something done, and then, she'd start whining and whining and whining…

Well… she still does that on and off lately… however,

I switched my mood from being impatient and dislike, to… well… "just let it be"…

THAT… somehow works, as, she, at least, has reduced the frequency of showing me face like this, from maybe 20 times a day, to around 3-4 times a day…

I guess… to deal my baby…

I don't know about other "tactical" things to do…

The only thing I know I'll sure need… is…

Patience!!

(learning… in… progress…)