Anyway… I’ve to say… I’m lucky to have a period of blessed pregnancy…
I enjoyed my pregnancy…
Though I still throw my anger, but I simply enjoy throwing my anger…
My colleagues/friends advised me not to do that… else, “baby comes out, sure very bad temper”…
I’ve my own theory…
If you’re angry about certain things, or at certain people and you hold it… keep it to yourself… baby really may comes out, very bad temper…
UNLESS you’re able to really control your emotion, your way of thinking and become not angry… everything also ‘let go’… then, it’ll be fine…
I just answered them, “nah… I need to teach the baby what’s right and what’s wrong…” (ya… 胎教嘛！), ya, that’s in work… there’s RIGHT and WRONG… very straightforward…
For eg. Things like our “favourite” colleague 2face’s doing, it’s just WRONG, you cannot just close 1 eye and pretend that it doesn’t happen… and live with it…
(by the way, actually there’s new “season” about 2face, after the last finale… I shall blog about it some other time…)
Or, for eg. One of our business partner, or rather, vendor… this girl, she liked to comment things like this to me, about our company, about my colleagues, and liked to poke into my work…
- She said, our sales people need to be “educated”,
- One day, I was pissed, as she came to give me some festive gift, but at the same time (maybe she thought she’s given me some gift, she can then have the “pass” to go through my stuff) she was flipping through the documents on my table… asking if there’s anything for her company… I regretted not telling her off there and then, as my reaction came slow… only after she left, I realized what she did was not right… and therefore, I lost my temper a bit
Arrgh… as usual, I deviated from my own thinking most of the time…
Back to breastfeeding…
I’m grateful and thankful that, I’ve a good pregnancy (no morning sickness, no midnight leg cramps, no special food craving, or whatever)
And I’m grateful that, I’m actually enjoying my breastfeeding sessions… (despite all the complications that happened to my assets)
And… at this stage (at this stage only), I’ve to say my motherhood is so far so good…
Not sure about parenthood later… cos, parenting is slightly different…
Baby’s still small… things are simple… I do not really lack of sleep problem (probably also due to my nature, that I normally do sleep at odd hour) and I know… most likely all mothers out there don’t do this… but…
I actually catch up with my loss sleep when I’m nursing…
She eats, I sleep… and she falls asleep, and we both sleep… so, in fact, 1/3 of the day, she’s sleeping on my lap, or, technically, in my arms…
Then, she’s hungry, wakes up, I switch side, nurse again, I sleep… she falls asleep again… for about 1/3 to 1/2 of the day… in between, she sometimes wakes up and stays awake for around 45 min to 1 hour, which is the time, she’s most happy and alert of the day (usually it’s in the morning, like 8-9 o’clock) and that I’ll play with her and communicate with her… ya, I know that’s very important for her, and I’ve to stay awake… anyway, after a while, she’ll get hungry/sleepy… and both of us will go back to the same cycle…
That’s why I got “enough” sleep, and that’s why I still have my own precious private time, ie. sitting in front of my computer…
Or… when we’re both supposed to be “wake up” time… we’ll go to the living room, I’ll nurse when she’s hungry, she eats, I watch TV/DVD/my downloaded movies… etc.
In between…
I’ll do my daily housechores a little bit here and there, for eg. Preparing the water for her bath, launderette, dinner… etc.
I’ve to say, thank God, so far so good…
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