finally… she sleeps… soundly...

For the past 2-3 nights, yes, roughly 3 nights I guess…

Baby's not been sleeping well…

She's been tossing and turning in bed… testing my patience…

Cos, that's what she'll do…

Drink milk -> turn away -> turn back to me -> kick kick kick -> 'ngek' for a while > drink milk…

Then, the procedure gets repeated… for another 5+5 time…

Yes, I counted…

Cos, I actually lost my patience, when she 'ngek' and kicked…

Yep, she could just kick non-stop… and it gave me nut…

And I 'piak' her for a couple of time…

That's what I told her, which I always tell her…

"you want to sleep, you sleep, you don't want to sleep, then, don't sleep, don't kick and ngek"…

Well… cos, I actually didn't know what she wants..

I know, the chicken pox is giving her uneasy feeling…

The thing is, she didn't really scratch, or showing any uneasy feeling, and therefore, I didn't know what I can do for her…

I sat up, carried her, LOVINGLY!!

She turned away, and started struggling… wiggling.. And tried to sit up..

I let her sit up, she tried to crawl, in bed… and started 'ngek'-ing again…

I let her back to sleep, next to me, she still 'beh song',

So, in the end, I also 'beh song',

Piak!!!

And as usual, following the 'piak', is the great sense of guilt!!

See!! I guess, all mothers… will eventually develop some dual personality kind of things… cos your mood just have to swing, that fast!!!

Anyway…

Since she could just turn and toss non-stop…

There'll be a time, where I'll just hold her back and 'forbid' her from doing such thing repeatedly…

She'll then, start to cry…

That's where I can get my clue,

Sometimes, her cry will be soft, and weak, that's when she's really ready to fall asleep…

But for the past 3 nights, whenever I do that, her cry will actually get louder and louder!!

And yes!! That's when I really didn't know what to do, cos, I didn't know what she wants..

Sit? Nope!

Sleep? Nope!

Drink milk? Nope!

Play? Err… maybe yes, but I won't want to encourage that…

Anyway…

I'm glad that her little birthday celebration went well tonight…

And that both of us were so 'cheered'… as well as her, I guess.. ^_^

And she's sleeping soundly now…

Happy birthday, my baby!!