How I still wish, it's a dream...

It’s not easy for all of these to set in me…
I think, it’s mainly because I’ve always been faraway from home, since I was 18…
Sometimes, I’ll wonder, why I have not received any sms from my mother…
Or, why she hasn’t called me at the end of the day, or during the weekend…
It’s not easy… as it’s already becoming a habit between my mother and me… for the past 5-6 years… even while I was away…
Irregardless which country that I was heading to, with him, the first thing that I do, was to get the pre-paid phone card in the destination, so that I’ll be able to sms my mother… from time to time…
My mother would always update me of the little daily activities back at home, or what’s my cute nephews have done…

But now… the sms never comes anymore
Or the phone never rings anymore…
Sometimes, while I was daydreaming, or while I just got up from my long night sleep, or afternoon nap… I tend to forget what’s happened for the past 3 months…
For eg. Last Friday, when I just got back from my work, late night, for a split second, I was wondering, why I have not received any sms from my mother today…
Then… when I realized… the sadness started to set in me again…

I know… I know, it’ll take a long time, probably longer time that it’s supposed to be… as I’ve always been faraway from home…
Therefore, I need more time to learn the fact that… the owner of the handphone, and the person who used to exchange sms with me every single day for the past few years…
Has left us…