See… it ain't easy to be a DAUGHTER-IN-LAW, ie. DIL,
Never!!! Since 5000 years ago, or more…
And will never!!! If you ever happened to be a chinese… it'll be even more difficult, ie. even more pekchek…
I won't drill into the details… ok, everybody's her own story to tell…
And I supposed, that everybody includes the husbandSSSS the mother-in-lawSSSSSS and etc…
So, no story to be told here, just a page for me, happened to be a DIL, yes, cos, I'm married, can I escape that? No, I can't!!!!!!!!!! … to rant!!!
See… being a DIL's never easy, why??
Cos, when you're pekchek, you can't really tell…
You can't tell that you're pekchek about anything,
Especially anything and everything regarding your IL, I MEAN ANYTHING~~~~~ OK?? GET IT???
Cos, if you do show a little bit of pekchek-ness…
You'll be grilled (just like prawns) and questioned, and interrogated, and side-lined, and condemned (for not being a good DIL) and THAT'LL MAKE YOU EVEN MORE PEKCHEK!!!
BELIEVE ME~~~
Therefore, throughout my years, I've learnt not to speak much, cos, there's no SPACE for me to really speak…
Never~~~~~~~~
Cos, once you really speak, even the person who you've been sleeping with, so many years, ie. HUSBAND, their son!!! Will also demand an answer, an explanation, or, even an apology, if not, basically just, "take it or leave it, they're old, ok??"
Yes, who doesn't know that they're old!!!???
But what's beyond MY limit, is beyond, fullstop!!!
I'm not sure if all, but I'm pretty sure, it's close to 80-90% of DIL in the world,
You'll be in the clan, ie. the pekchek clan,
You may deny it, you may have experienced it, which now, you've overcomed, but then, you will, or already have the pekchek-ness ONCE in your life-time…
It's either you've grown to accept life as it is,
Or you've started to just deny it, sweep it under the carpet, cos, they're OLD!!!!!!!!
See!! That's why, the whole thing's just pure pekchek!!!
You can't say, you can't really voice out anything, can't tell how you really feel, can't even tell if you're not really happy, or you don't agree with it…
Cos, after you tell, that's it, your life will be made even more miserable, cos, they'll just fail/refuse to understand your point of view!!!
Or does it matter to them? No, it never does…
Though they may pretend that they do, but frankly, they really don't!!
Sometimes, people do it, just simply their social conscience tells them to do so, but deep down in there, they don't really bother about it, or agree with it, cos, the most important is the "ME"!!!
See!! You can't tell them, you don't want to eat the food, WHY? Why don't want??
You can't tell them, you feel like being alone, WHY? Why you want to be alone??? We don't really bother you too much!
You can't tell them, you're busy, seeing that you're busy, they'll still ask, "are you busy?", and expect you to respond to them… can't they just say, "after you finish your work, can you please…?"
You can'te tell them to just leave your kids alone, from oversimulating them, oh!! Cos, they're the LOVING GRANDPARENTS, they probably think that, they OWN your kids, more than you do!!!
You can't tell them what the kids can't eat, or cannot eat, they've their very own theory, and they simply will not know how to respect what you've voiced out to them, and they think that, by practising their power, ie. not agreeing with you, (low-life, lower level) and going against your will, is simply THRILLING!! Cos, they're more powerful, and they seriously think that, you seriously can't do anything about it!!!
You see!! I really hate it, when I even have to tell you WHY, that I'm not feeling good, I'm not feeling happy,
The very main reason can be, it's because of YOU~~~ get it??
But I can't tell it to your face, right?
Even if I do, well, you won't really bother, you'll just start practising your SUPERIOR power onto me, only us, the pekchek clan…
See!!!! In this part of the work, we, the pekchek clan will always be the loosing ones…
You must be telling me that, there're lots and lots of pitiful old people and bla bla bla… yes I know, of course I know…
But hey!!! Do I intend to make them like those pitiful people? Even by telling me this, you're accusing me of my intention,
No… I don't,
I just want my own life, my own space, not having unexpected expectation, or too much of an expectation, not having to have to answer to every single move/words that I've to do and say…
No, I still have to explain, cos, I'm MARRIED!!!
That's why, once, I saw a report, married men are happier, but it's the other way round for women,
UNMARRIED women, are far more happier…
And I truly and fully and absolutely agree with it…
No wonder, there're women, who're willing to get donation of sperm, just to have their own baby…
Yes, my baby's my life, and my baby's my real happiness… again, in this part of the world, it can only be "achieved", by officially married… (again, without much condemnation!)
Again, I guess, at anytime, I can find 10 pekchek soul, when they think of the past, if not the present, or even the future, (don't give me that past, present, future story, ok?)
They'll feel pekchek…
It's just that, we've learnt to keep it to ourselves, and now, thanks to all the tweeting, blogging things…
Yes, there's one small channel for us to rant, rant, and rant…
And after ranting, you can find some similar pekchek souls…
And that's it…
Life still goes on, and we're still pekchek once in a while…
Pekchek till either I die first, or you die first LO, what else?? That's life…
See!!! When we see a man we adore so much, that we wanna get married to him,
And of course, during that time, all negativities would be conveniently ignored…
If I could travel in time…
If I could travel in time…
Probably I'll take the easier way out…
Ie. skip the "socially" married part, ESPECIALLY IN THIS PART OF the world…
Am I happily married ever after?
Well… yes, officially I shall say so…
Unofficially, I shall give thanks to God,
In my dream? I wish life's much more simpler,
And it's just the 3 of us…
If I can ever get out of this part of the world, with my own capability…
I WILL~
