Wrong Wind!

ya, super wrong wind, since last night,

well, I guess, gabriel's teething, that's why, it's such a wakeful night, for him, and mochiron, for me! •﹏•

see!! the wakefulness was sooooooooooooo bad, till I carried him, he didn't like, kept struggling, then, I'd no choice, I brought him out to the living room and put him on his bouncing net,

since he saw that, he's out, so, he's kinda happy and settled a little bit,

I was just worried that, he'll wake up his father and sister... that'd be even worse for me!

so, I bounced him bounced him bounced till he appeared to be drowsy again,

and I brought him back to the room and sleep...

that's last night!

and the whole of today, he's basically very fussy and unsettled! ≧﹏≦

soooooo difficult to please him!!!

that's the start of the problem,

and THAT gave me a bad start of the day,

so, today, after getting up, when I changed baby's pyjamas and diaper, I saw her having a HUGE pile of poop in her diaper, smeared all over the diaper, nearly 90% of diaper was covered by her smeared poop!!!!!!!!

immediately, it exploded!

it happened that, the part-time cleaner came, and I conveniently ditched her on her changing pad, and she also, exploded, cos, she knew that I was soooooooo upset and unhappy, the moment, I let her "GO", she was like, cried soooooooooooooo loud..

and the next 20 min. is basically war between mother and daughter...

she continuously shouted, jumped, cried, and said, "I don't want to cry, I don't want to cry!", but she still cried, sooooooo loud, and continuous,

it made me even more upset and agitated!

I told her to stop crying,

and she just couldn't stop, whatever I said, (of course, in very angry and loud tone too!!! and all sorts of bad words came out, mostly, "if you continue to cry like this, I'd rather go to die!") was provoking her, to cry even further, even more, even louder! and more dramatic...

till I said, I don't want to talk to her anymore, cos it didn't help,

and from "I don't want to cry!", became, "mama! talk to me, I want mama talk to me!"

but like I said, whatever I said, just provoked her further... ≧﹏≦

and?? gabriel? from crying and cranky mode, cos, the sister cried soooooooo dramatically, he actually stopped and watched!

damn! X﹏X

everything stopped, when she started to change her line a little bit,

she said, "I want mama hug me!", cry cry cry!!!

so, I angrily told her, "you want mama hug, you can come near to mama!",

so, she came, and she hugged my legs, and I carried her!

though I was still angry,

THEN, it switched!

now, gabriel took back his turn to cry, so, I put her down to the boang chair!

luckily, this time she was quiet!

maybe she's already regained her "sanity"

THE GOOD THINGS ABOUT KIDS IS...

after 3 minutes, or even less, she's forgotten our "war", and started to talk to me, and smiled, and danced, and played...

and me?

shamed to be an adult, right??? memory's too good!

that's why, I've always thought, our babies, are here to teach us lessons...

just today, saw this on my facebook's subscription, dr. mercola...

isn't that sweet?

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new. – Rajneesh, Indian mystic, guru, and spiritual teacher