We flew back from melbourne, midnight last Saturday… ie. we're at the airport, waiting for boarding, Friday night…
Everything seemed to go well…
Well… based on the experience while flying to melbourne, we're very proud of baby… cos, she's behaving, she's singing, and she's enjoying the flight there… seemed to know that there's going to be a holiday…
Ok… we're still proud of her, just that, we're… or, particulary, I, felt bad about handling the situation…
What situation??
Well… on the flight back, she cried,
Cried out loud, the shouting type…
Normally that's what she'd do, ie. "Arrr~~", followed by a heightened pitch, "wu ar~~~~~~~~~~~~"…
Twice…
I felt bad,
Felt bad for her… cos, I overlooked…
Expecting her to be still behaving…
Sleep time, she'll sleep, eat time she'll eat…
Things didn't turn out that way…
While I was prepping her to sleep… ie. by telling her repeatedly, she seemed to be still playing…
Yes, my mistake again, cos, I still have to breastfeed her to sleep, ie. she still needs my boobs…
Second thing, as she didn't get a seat of her own, she's technically on my lap ALL THE TIME, either facing me, or facing front… but ON MY LAP…
So, I was telling her, "baby, we're going to sleep already, they're going to off all the light, it's going to be dark..", but she still seemed to be in a playful mood… fine!
Then, I could see that, she really was very very sleepy, rubbing her eyes, em… she could hardly opened her eyes…
She's facing me, nursed… and fell asleep for a short while…
Twice… after falling asleep for THAT LITTLE SHORT WHILE, she'd sit up, eyes still closed, cos, she's really very tired and sleepy, and started crying… head swaying, cos, she's really very tired… (that's what made me feel bad, cos, I didn't manage to figure out why yet!)
And that, I kept forcing her to sleep, facing me, sit up position…
And I told her repeatedly, TO BEHAVE…
There's once, I even lost my patience, and smacked her on her thigh a couple fo time… (ya, bad me! Bad mother!)
That's what made her cry really loud…
Suddenly, I saw her, kept jerking, and leaning backward,
I then realized… oops… maybe… maybe she needed to lie down,
Yes, then, I realized, all night time, her real night bedtime sleep… she always has a nice bed to lie down…, on her back…
When we're in our friend's house, though all 3 of us, on a queen size bed, she still managed to sleep very very soundly… happily…
What's the problem now…
Yes, suddenly I realized, she needed to have a bed…
For a short while, a split second, I panicked…
And I even snapped on him, while he's trying to give suggestion…
My problem was, while I was trying to put her in various sleeping position, I did kinda try to put her lying back down, ie. her head on his lap, and legs on mine…
But she still made a fuss out of it, crying out loud, and that kinda made me ruling out sleeping on our laps…
And what more to say, even if she's willing to lie down, on our laps, how am I going to nurse her? Switching sides somemore???
Ok… I was desperate, or rather, we're desperate,
All 3 of us were desperate,
So, somehow, I managed to do it…
At the end of the day… ^_^,
He could hardly move, cos, we really did not want her to wake up and cry anymore… we wanted her to have a good sleep…
And I?? Yes, I managed to sleep, with her head on my lap, and her legs on his lap…
It's kinda stunt…
At time when she got up for breastmilk, depends on which side, I'll just "slide" her body on our laps, to suit the position of my boobs… ^_^,
And hurray!!!
She actually slept through… till we arrived safely in LCCT…
Woke up…
Happily and lively…
My dear baby...
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