It is a short film, ie. 15 minutes duration, however, pretty impressive. At least to me.
Again!! I didn't start from the beginning, when it caught my attention, the lady (the leading actress) who is the mother of a 2-year-old baby girl, on parol, was arrested again by police for stealing.
When the officer asked her about her 2-year-old baby, and mentioned that the children welfare is looking into the matter, the lady insisted that the baby girl was taken care of by the lady's mother as she didn't want the children welfare people to take her daughter away from her. The story went on... the lady was put into the detention cell, cause they just cannot release her, and the lady in the cell, worrying about her baby girl at home, ALONE!!
She kept trying to make calls to her err... boyfriend or ex-husband (I am not so sure, as I didn't start from the beginning of the show) and also her mum, to ask them to go to her house to have a look at the baby.
Boyfriend, never got through the phone, and mum? finally the old lady went to her apartment, the baby already stopped crying. Her neighbour (who hated the lady as according to her, the lady always brought different men back to her place) told the old mother that there was men in the apartment, when the mother asked if "a man has came by". Therefore, the mother left the place.
The lady was getting more and more worried in the detention cell. I was thinking, why didn't she just tell the officer that the baby girl was left home alone.
In the end, the lady gave up, called the police officer and her case officer, told them the truth, and went to see the baby... picked up her body. :-(
I was thinking... sometimes, human is easily blinded, blinded by self-justification, blinded by self-satisfaction. As a mother, she definitely loves her baby girl a lot and that's the reason she didn't want to give her up to the children welfare people, even though she's on parol, even though she's taking drug, even though she's taking different men home, even though she's not having constant and proper income. But she LOVES her baby, as every mother does.
However she was blinded by her own love to the baby, and that cost the life of a 2-year-old girl, and later, of course cost herself another imprisonment, for probably child-abuse, or child-ignorant, or whatever it is.
That somehow reminded me of a story I was told when I was a little child, mm... probably by grandma. (grandma always told us bedtime story, and then we'd start entertaining her by singing and dancing on her bed, ya, that time double-bed was our stage)
The story is pretty simple, probably finished by 1 or 2 lines...
Let's see...
Long time ago, (well, it'll always start with 'long time ago') 2 mothers were fighting for a baby, both claimed to be the mother of the baby. Nobody could solve this case so, 2 of them were brought to the king. After looking into the situation, the king suggested the baby being cut into half and each of them will have one. One of the mothers quickly applauded the idea, and thus the king knew who the real mother was.
Well... a very simple story, but it worked for small kids, when we were.
Human, is very weak. We are always blinded easily by loads of stuff surrounding us, outside us, and inside us. Particularly anger, jealousy, envy, greed, oh... what's the seven sins again?? :-) ka!! then.. this leads to another topic called 'SE7EN' huh??nah!!!
Anyway, ya, human, everybody, IS easily blinded.We are blinded by our own pride, that we forget how to love.We are blinded by our own greed, that we forget about family values.We are blinded by our own anger, that we forget to be considerate.We are blinded by our own gluttony, that we forget we need to take good care of our own health.We are blinded by our own envy, that we forget to give is REALLY to gain.We are blinded by our own lust, that we forget there IS real love in the world.We are blinded by our own laziness, that we forget the rest of the world around us have been working very hard.
Anyway, of course I am not in any authority to talk about "SE7EN" :-) that's my own err... "thought" and therefore, I chose to use some 'layman terms' :-)
Ah!! I am far from the movie topic again, however, I guess that's how human brains function right?
(err....)
2006-03-27
2006-03-26
Schadenfreude
OK, I admit it, I watch it for James Spader's Alan Shore!!!! Ya!!!! for James Spader!! :-)
Anyway,
This episode was about him defending Heather Locklear's Kelly Nolan a.k.a Black Widow.
OK, no story about Boston Legal, but, this term Schadenfreude,
I particularly like to mm... think about it.
The Wikipedia's definition is:
Schadenfreude is a German expression (from Schaden: damage, harm; and Freude: joy) meaning pleasure taken from someone else's misfortune or shameful joy. The word is often capitalized, however since all German nouns (proper or common) are capitalized it should be possible to spell it lower case in English.
It is usually believed to not have a direct English equivalent. For example, Harper Collins German-English Dictionary translates schadenfreude as malicious glee or gloating. An apparent English equivalent, derived from Greek, is epicaricacy. This word does not appear in most modern dictionaries but does appear in Nathaniel Bailey's Universal Etymological English Dictionary (1727) under a slightly different spelling (epicharikaky) and gives its etymology as epi (upon) + chara (joy) + kakon (evil).
Taken in a broader sense, it could apply to the feeling of being “blessed” because there are always people who are worse off than ourselves. Instead of compassion or pity for those less fortunate, we are thankful that it is they instead of us. However, it is never used in that sense in German, where it always carries a negative connotation. German actually draws a distinction between "secret schadenfreude" (a private feeling) and "open schadenfreude" (Hohn) which is outright public derision. Ultimately though, in the english language Schadenfreude is commonly characterized as "sick pleasure".
I guess... most of the time, most of us are Schadenfreude, not much directly related to the above explanation, but more related to this particular Boston Legal's episode. Alan Shore was pleading to the juries, if it's out of Schadenfreude that they wished to convict Kelly, then, they had to really think about it, as this case has no evidence at all, and the whole case was brought to the court, out of the Schadenfreude of the society.
As it is, that's what most of us do sometimes. (on purpose, or accidentally) Therefore, we hear ourselves, we hear others commenting negatively about other people every day, every hour. I believe it is because of this little devilish feeling that makes most of us, commiting such act, every day, every hour. It is because, by doing this, we, almost!! will feel justified with our own wrong doings. By saying who and who is bad, by saying who and who is incapable, by saying who and who is impolite, by saying who and who is useless, by saying who and who is not friendly, not kindhearted, judge them... YA!!!! and Yeh!!!! we feel great!! Schadenfreude!!
Therefore, it's time to remind ourselves "Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her." (John 8:7)
Isn't it??
Anyway,
This episode was about him defending Heather Locklear's Kelly Nolan a.k.a Black Widow.
OK, no story about Boston Legal, but, this term Schadenfreude,
I particularly like to mm... think about it.
The Wikipedia's definition is:
Schadenfreude is a German expression (from Schaden: damage, harm; and Freude: joy) meaning pleasure taken from someone else's misfortune or shameful joy. The word is often capitalized, however since all German nouns (proper or common) are capitalized it should be possible to spell it lower case in English.
It is usually believed to not have a direct English equivalent. For example, Harper Collins German-English Dictionary translates schadenfreude as malicious glee or gloating. An apparent English equivalent, derived from Greek, is epicaricacy. This word does not appear in most modern dictionaries but does appear in Nathaniel Bailey's Universal Etymological English Dictionary (1727) under a slightly different spelling (epicharikaky) and gives its etymology as epi (upon) + chara (joy) + kakon (evil).
Taken in a broader sense, it could apply to the feeling of being “blessed” because there are always people who are worse off than ourselves. Instead of compassion or pity for those less fortunate, we are thankful that it is they instead of us. However, it is never used in that sense in German, where it always carries a negative connotation. German actually draws a distinction between "secret schadenfreude" (a private feeling) and "open schadenfreude" (Hohn) which is outright public derision. Ultimately though, in the english language Schadenfreude is commonly characterized as "sick pleasure".
I guess... most of the time, most of us are Schadenfreude, not much directly related to the above explanation, but more related to this particular Boston Legal's episode. Alan Shore was pleading to the juries, if it's out of Schadenfreude that they wished to convict Kelly, then, they had to really think about it, as this case has no evidence at all, and the whole case was brought to the court, out of the Schadenfreude of the society.
As it is, that's what most of us do sometimes. (on purpose, or accidentally) Therefore, we hear ourselves, we hear others commenting negatively about other people every day, every hour. I believe it is because of this little devilish feeling that makes most of us, commiting such act, every day, every hour. It is because, by doing this, we, almost!! will feel justified with our own wrong doings. By saying who and who is bad, by saying who and who is incapable, by saying who and who is impolite, by saying who and who is useless, by saying who and who is not friendly, not kindhearted, judge them... YA!!!! and Yeh!!!! we feel great!! Schadenfreude!!
Therefore, it's time to remind ourselves "Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her." (John 8:7)
Isn't it??
2006-03-16
My Own Bible Reading Collections, John 9:14-41
John 9:14-41
14: Now it was a sabbath day when Jesus made the clay and opened his eyes.
15: The Pharisees again asked him how he had received his sight. And he said to them, "He put clay on my eyes, and I washed, and I see."
16: Some of the Pharisees said, "This man is not from God, for he does not keep the sabbath." But others said, "How can a man who is a sinner do such signs?" There was a division among them.
17: So they again said to the blind man, "What do you say about him, since he has opened your eyes?" He said, "He is a prophet."
18: The Jews did not believe that he had been blind and had received his sight, until they called the parents of the man who had received his sight,
19: and asked them, "Is this your son, who you say was born blind? How then does he now see?"
20: His parents answered, "We know that this is our son, and that he was born blind;
21: but how he now sees we do not know, nor do we know who opened his eyes. Ask him; he is of age, he will speak for himself."
22: His parents said this because they feared the Jews, for the Jews had already agreed that if any one should confess him to be Christ, he was to be put out of the synagogue.
23: Therefore his parents said, "He is of age, ask him."
24: So for the second time they called the man who had been blind, and said to him, "Give God the praise; we know that this man is a sinner."
25: He answered, "Whether he is a sinner, I do not know; one thing I know, that though I was blind, now I see."
26: They said to him, "What did he do to you? How did he open your eyes?"
27: He answered them, "I have told you already, and you would not listen. Why do you want to hear it again? Do you too want to become his disciples?"
28: And they reviled him, saying, "You are his disciple, but we are disciples of Moses.
29: We know that God has spoken to Moses, but as for this man, we do not know where he comes from."
30: The man answered, "Why, this is a marvel! You do not know where he comes from, and yet he opened my eyes.
31: We know that God does not listen to sinners, but if any one is a worshiper of God and does his will, God listens to him.
32: Never since the world began has it been heard that any one opened the eyes of a man born blind.
33: If this man were not from God, he could do nothing."
34: They answered him, "You were born in utter sin, and would you teach us?" And they cast him out.
35: Jesus heard that they had cast him out, and having found him he said, "Do you believe in the Son of man?"
36: He answered, "And who is he, sir, that I may believe in him?"
37: Jesus said to him, "You have seen him, and it is he who speaks to you."
38: He said, "Lord, I believe"; and he worshiped him.
39: Jesus said, "For judgment I came into this world, that those who do not see may see, and that those who see may become blind."
40: Some of the Pharisees near him heard this, and they said to him, "Are we also blind?"
41: Jesus said to them, "If you were blind, you would have no guilt; but now that you say, `We see,' your guilt remains.
14: Now it was a sabbath day when Jesus made the clay and opened his eyes.
15: The Pharisees again asked him how he had received his sight. And he said to them, "He put clay on my eyes, and I washed, and I see."
16: Some of the Pharisees said, "This man is not from God, for he does not keep the sabbath." But others said, "How can a man who is a sinner do such signs?" There was a division among them.
17: So they again said to the blind man, "What do you say about him, since he has opened your eyes?" He said, "He is a prophet."
18: The Jews did not believe that he had been blind and had received his sight, until they called the parents of the man who had received his sight,
19: and asked them, "Is this your son, who you say was born blind? How then does he now see?"
20: His parents answered, "We know that this is our son, and that he was born blind;
21: but how he now sees we do not know, nor do we know who opened his eyes. Ask him; he is of age, he will speak for himself."
22: His parents said this because they feared the Jews, for the Jews had already agreed that if any one should confess him to be Christ, he was to be put out of the synagogue.
23: Therefore his parents said, "He is of age, ask him."
24: So for the second time they called the man who had been blind, and said to him, "Give God the praise; we know that this man is a sinner."
25: He answered, "Whether he is a sinner, I do not know; one thing I know, that though I was blind, now I see."
26: They said to him, "What did he do to you? How did he open your eyes?"
27: He answered them, "I have told you already, and you would not listen. Why do you want to hear it again? Do you too want to become his disciples?"
28: And they reviled him, saying, "You are his disciple, but we are disciples of Moses.
29: We know that God has spoken to Moses, but as for this man, we do not know where he comes from."
30: The man answered, "Why, this is a marvel! You do not know where he comes from, and yet he opened my eyes.
31: We know that God does not listen to sinners, but if any one is a worshiper of God and does his will, God listens to him.
32: Never since the world began has it been heard that any one opened the eyes of a man born blind.
33: If this man were not from God, he could do nothing."
34: They answered him, "You were born in utter sin, and would you teach us?" And they cast him out.
35: Jesus heard that they had cast him out, and having found him he said, "Do you believe in the Son of man?"
36: He answered, "And who is he, sir, that I may believe in him?"
37: Jesus said to him, "You have seen him, and it is he who speaks to you."
38: He said, "Lord, I believe"; and he worshiped him.
39: Jesus said, "For judgment I came into this world, that those who do not see may see, and that those who see may become blind."
40: Some of the Pharisees near him heard this, and they said to him, "Are we also blind?"
41: Jesus said to them, "If you were blind, you would have no guilt; but now that you say, `We see,' your guilt remains.
My Own Bible Reading, Matthew 13:18-23
Matthew 13:18-23
18: "Hear then the parable of the sower.
19: When any one hears the word of the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what is sown in his heart; this is what was sown along the path.
20: As for what was sown on rocky ground, this is he who hears the word and immediately receives it with joy;
21: yet he has no root in himself, but endures for a while, and when tribulation or persecution arises on account of the word, immediately he falls away.
22: As for what was sown among thorns, this is he who hears the word, but the cares of the world and the delight in riches choke the word, and it proves unfruitful.
23: As for what was sown on good soil, this is he who hears the word and understands it; he indeed bears fruit, and yields, in one case a hundredfold, in another sixty, and in another thirty."
18: "Hear then the parable of the sower.
19: When any one hears the word of the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what is sown in his heart; this is what was sown along the path.
20: As for what was sown on rocky ground, this is he who hears the word and immediately receives it with joy;
21: yet he has no root in himself, but endures for a while, and when tribulation or persecution arises on account of the word, immediately he falls away.
22: As for what was sown among thorns, this is he who hears the word, but the cares of the world and the delight in riches choke the word, and it proves unfruitful.
23: As for what was sown on good soil, this is he who hears the word and understands it; he indeed bears fruit, and yields, in one case a hundredfold, in another sixty, and in another thirty."
My Own Bible Reading, Philippians 4:6,7
Philippians 4:6,7
Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down.
Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down.
My Own Bible Reading, Ecclesiastes 5:10-12
Ecclesiastes 5:10-12
Whoever loves money never has money enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income. This too is meaningless. As goods increase, so do those who consume them. And what benefit are they to the owner except to feast his eyes on them? The sleep of a laborer is sweet, whether he eats little or much, but the abundance of a rich man permits him no sleep.
Whoever loves money never has money enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with his income. This too is meaningless. As goods increase, so do those who consume them. And what benefit are they to the owner except to feast his eyes on them? The sleep of a laborer is sweet, whether he eats little or much, but the abundance of a rich man permits him no sleep.
My Own Bible Reading, 2 Timothy 2:22-25
2 Timothy 2:22-25
22 Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
23 Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels.
24 And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful.
25 Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth,
22 Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
23 Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels.
24 And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful.
25 Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth,
My Own Bible Reading 1 John 4:2-3,20
1 John 4:2-3,20
2:This is how you can recognise the Spirit of God: Every spirit that acknowledges that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God,
3:but every spirit that does not acknowledge Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.
20 If anyone says, I love God, yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.
2:This is how you can recognise the Spirit of God: Every spirit that acknowledges that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God,
3:but every spirit that does not acknowledge Jesus is not from God. This is the spirit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.
20 If anyone says, I love God, yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.
Something stays in your mind forever, even though it is just a joke
I have been looking for this joke inside out the internet and finally I found it. It is still funny even though I read it for the second time, or even the third time. I first came across this joke in one of the FHM UK magazine
"Driving to the office this morning on the motorway,
I looked over to my right and there was a woman in a BMW doing 90 miles per hour with her face up next to her rear view mirror putting on her eyeliner!
I looked away for a couple of seconds and when I looked back she was halfway over in my lane, still working on that makeup!!!
It scared me (I'm a man) so badly that I dropped my electric shaver,
which knocked the bacon roll out of my other hand.
In all the confusion of trying to straighten out the car using my knees against the steering wheel,
it knocked my mobile from my ear,
which fell into the coffee between my legs,
splashed and burned my 'Meat'n two veg',
causing me to scream,
which made me drop the cigarette out of my mouth,
ruined my shirt and
DISCONNECTED AN IMPORTANT CALL!!!
BLOODY WOMEN DRIVERS !!!
Submitted by
CalamjoEdited by Curtis"
"Driving to the office this morning on the motorway,
I looked over to my right and there was a woman in a BMW doing 90 miles per hour with her face up next to her rear view mirror putting on her eyeliner!
I looked away for a couple of seconds and when I looked back she was halfway over in my lane, still working on that makeup!!!
It scared me (I'm a man) so badly that I dropped my electric shaver,
which knocked the bacon roll out of my other hand.
In all the confusion of trying to straighten out the car using my knees against the steering wheel,
it knocked my mobile from my ear,
which fell into the coffee between my legs,
splashed and burned my 'Meat'n two veg',
causing me to scream,
which made me drop the cigarette out of my mouth,
ruined my shirt and
DISCONNECTED AN IMPORTANT CALL!!!
BLOODY WOMEN DRIVERS !!!
Submitted by
CalamjoEdited by Curtis"
2006-01-09
Where does he go??
My father's father passed away on Friday morning, ie. 2 days ago.
this is the first time I come the closest to death, death of our loved ones, our family.
My father's father left us in a very quiet but lonely way, I think.
He was admitted to the hospital but at the final moment, nobody was around. Nobody expected it to be at the moment when we're all not around.
Maybe he chose that moment, that's him, always. Took care of himself very well, and he would never want to add additional burden, be it emotional or otherwise.
However this is very lonely for him, my father's father.
Back in his bedroom, there are still 2 bottles of talcum that are not used yet, not opened yet. It seems like the talcs are still waiting for the owner to come appreciate them, but, my father's father, is gone.
When I was on the road, I wondered, where's my father's father now? Being a Catholic, I pray, we pray that he'll soon finished his journey to heaven, and be there, peacefully, merrily!!!
this is the first time I come the closest to death, death of our loved ones, our family.
My father's father left us in a very quiet but lonely way, I think.
He was admitted to the hospital but at the final moment, nobody was around. Nobody expected it to be at the moment when we're all not around.
Maybe he chose that moment, that's him, always. Took care of himself very well, and he would never want to add additional burden, be it emotional or otherwise.
However this is very lonely for him, my father's father.
Back in his bedroom, there are still 2 bottles of talcum that are not used yet, not opened yet. It seems like the talcs are still waiting for the owner to come appreciate them, but, my father's father, is gone.
When I was on the road, I wondered, where's my father's father now? Being a Catholic, I pray, we pray that he'll soon finished his journey to heaven, and be there, peacefully, merrily!!!
2005-09-11
Mixture of Thoughts and Feelings, for the day
From: The video program, "Free to Be Me" - John Powell
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Lord God of my life: Here I am again, filled with a thousand thoughts and feelings, disires and plans, joys and sorrows.
I see two worlds, painfully distant from each other. They are the worlds of psychology and theology: the worlds of the human and the divine. I see so many of my brothers and sisters trying desperately to make a saviour of psychology. They are always playing "growth games." They dig into the darkest corners of their minds and the softest parts of their hearts. What they are doing is mostly good, but so much of the pain goes on and on. And sometimes it seems like a case of the blind leading the blind. I want to say to them:"You are not just body and mind. You are spirit, too! You can't make it without God. You can't truly fulfilled unless your spiritual hungers are also filled." We are, as you said, Jesus, the branches of your vine. Cut off from you, we begin to die, inch by inch, day by day. There is an emputiness in us that only you can fill.
But I also see the world of religion. I see some of my brothers and sisters trying to be religious without being fully human. They seem a little rigid and narrow at times, wanting ot be holy, but not human. They seem to be winning a place in heaven, without realizing or enjoying the beauty of earth. They keep the ten commandments, but their observance looks so joyless. Such a world seems small and the air in that world is state.
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Today, I came across this article in the church. The part about the worlds of psychology and theology, and the world of religion caught my attention, and thus caught my thoughts.
I just think that, human, including myself, is just one type of weird creature, for a reason nobody knows. We, like to be err, separatists (well, I'm not quoting from anybody, just that, this word suddenly came out) to distinguish ourselves, as in solely ME, or at least when ME can't be promoted, We, make a WE. The purpose?? to be different, and from the differences shown, WE are unique, and WE are right, and slowly, growing into I am unique (well, for a good self-esteem, there's no wrong in saying this) and that I am right.
At the same time, We, like to say RIGHT, and do WRONG!! again, including myself. (even though I keep reminding myself not to commit such sin, however, sometimes it's just too difficult to avoid this, hm!!! i know, this is just another lame excuse)
The world is getting more and more complicated, and human behaviour has MUTATED to a more complicated form, my opinion.
In fact, life should be simple and just... SIMPLE!!
First, I came across a news yesterday, that a military personnel died of some accident during a military practice. So, the fiancee of that person cried to the world (it's broadcasted day and nite on that news channel) and begged the government, or the local council (whoever has the authority, which I am not very well-versed of it) grant her to right to get the semen from the decease, so that she can have the hope of bearing the child of the person she loves.
At first, I was pretty caught up with the news/story, as it's really a tragedy, due to human's error. (They did the drill, using a very old, nearly obsolete tank, that's a brake that couldn't function well anymore and ya, nobody bothers to check before the drill, that show how serious people are in their work, and while carrying out their duty!) However, towards the end of the day, I was thinking, ya, it's an accident, the loved one has passed away. (I mean, I really know what's happened, and really, it's a sad thing to hear) But, I started to think twice, is this natural?? Why!!??? Nowadays, human likes to do things against the natural way??
WHY???
(Mm, I have to stop here, coz, I do not mean to have a piece of discussion/argument about 'things'/'deeds' against the NATURAL WAY. I do not wish to discuss about things that I know, it will not reach a conclusion, and I know clearly that whoever, on whichever side, will not give in!)
Second, WHY?? do people won't let the past go?? Most of the people, would rather let the past keep haunting them, then, moving forward and lead a good life. Why??
Third, WHY?? do parents not let their children grow up and be independent?? Some parents I came across do make direct comments, or rather hint that without them (the parents), the children may face difficulty in their life. Why??? if it's bound to be some hiccups down the path of life, that's our destiny.
However, Fourth, WHY?? do some children have the guts to leave their old and weak parents alone, in a helpless dark condition?? and WHY??? do some children/parents, teach their children, things that they won't even do it themselves??? Why??
What IS?? the natural way??
Anyway, there's always some quotes that'll catch my attention, mostly some bits and pieces that I have managed to catch when I watch some TV programmes, or movies.
"Everybody has his/her own piece of sky" (ie. as parents, or siblings, or elderly, or friends, we should not worry/concern too much about a person, to the extent that we would do certain things for them, instead of they, themselves solve it, or carry out their duty, or learn their path)
"When we just started our working life, there're so many things that we desired and wanted, until we've even forgotten about our real selves. Perhaps, one day, when we've decided to give up all that we're going after, then, we'll find true happiness and satisfaction" (Ya, due to peer-pressure, we're always after something that we, truly won't need)
Now only,
I found out that, most education system, teaches people to be intelligent, and smart, and whatsoever, but, not WISDOM.
I found out that, most students, or even teachers, do not know that, we go to school, IS for the purpose to learn how to be a good person. (or, to be a human) [Oh Ya!! I talked about this, is because, I came across the 'online learning' topic one fine day! :)] And I guess that is why, most young students, as well as the parents are getting more and more stressed up, and stirred up nowadays. The result has been mistakenly as the root, of learning.
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Lord God of my life: Here I am again, filled with a thousand thoughts and feelings, disires and plans, joys and sorrows.
I see two worlds, painfully distant from each other. They are the worlds of psychology and theology: the worlds of the human and the divine. I see so many of my brothers and sisters trying desperately to make a saviour of psychology. They are always playing "growth games." They dig into the darkest corners of their minds and the softest parts of their hearts. What they are doing is mostly good, but so much of the pain goes on and on. And sometimes it seems like a case of the blind leading the blind. I want to say to them:"You are not just body and mind. You are spirit, too! You can't make it without God. You can't truly fulfilled unless your spiritual hungers are also filled." We are, as you said, Jesus, the branches of your vine. Cut off from you, we begin to die, inch by inch, day by day. There is an emputiness in us that only you can fill.
But I also see the world of religion. I see some of my brothers and sisters trying to be religious without being fully human. They seem a little rigid and narrow at times, wanting ot be holy, but not human. They seem to be winning a place in heaven, without realizing or enjoying the beauty of earth. They keep the ten commandments, but their observance looks so joyless. Such a world seems small and the air in that world is state.
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Today, I came across this article in the church. The part about the worlds of psychology and theology, and the world of religion caught my attention, and thus caught my thoughts.
I just think that, human, including myself, is just one type of weird creature, for a reason nobody knows. We, like to be err, separatists (well, I'm not quoting from anybody, just that, this word suddenly came out) to distinguish ourselves, as in solely ME, or at least when ME can't be promoted, We, make a WE. The purpose?? to be different, and from the differences shown, WE are unique, and WE are right, and slowly, growing into I am unique (well, for a good self-esteem, there's no wrong in saying this) and that I am right.
At the same time, We, like to say RIGHT, and do WRONG!! again, including myself. (even though I keep reminding myself not to commit such sin, however, sometimes it's just too difficult to avoid this, hm!!! i know, this is just another lame excuse)
The world is getting more and more complicated, and human behaviour has MUTATED to a more complicated form, my opinion.
In fact, life should be simple and just... SIMPLE!!
First, I came across a news yesterday, that a military personnel died of some accident during a military practice. So, the fiancee of that person cried to the world (it's broadcasted day and nite on that news channel) and begged the government, or the local council (whoever has the authority, which I am not very well-versed of it) grant her to right to get the semen from the decease, so that she can have the hope of bearing the child of the person she loves.
At first, I was pretty caught up with the news/story, as it's really a tragedy, due to human's error. (They did the drill, using a very old, nearly obsolete tank, that's a brake that couldn't function well anymore and ya, nobody bothers to check before the drill, that show how serious people are in their work, and while carrying out their duty!) However, towards the end of the day, I was thinking, ya, it's an accident, the loved one has passed away. (I mean, I really know what's happened, and really, it's a sad thing to hear) But, I started to think twice, is this natural?? Why!!??? Nowadays, human likes to do things against the natural way??
WHY???
(Mm, I have to stop here, coz, I do not mean to have a piece of discussion/argument about 'things'/'deeds' against the NATURAL WAY. I do not wish to discuss about things that I know, it will not reach a conclusion, and I know clearly that whoever, on whichever side, will not give in!)
Second, WHY?? do people won't let the past go?? Most of the people, would rather let the past keep haunting them, then, moving forward and lead a good life. Why??
Third, WHY?? do parents not let their children grow up and be independent?? Some parents I came across do make direct comments, or rather hint that without them (the parents), the children may face difficulty in their life. Why??? if it's bound to be some hiccups down the path of life, that's our destiny.
However, Fourth, WHY?? do some children have the guts to leave their old and weak parents alone, in a helpless dark condition?? and WHY??? do some children/parents, teach their children, things that they won't even do it themselves??? Why??
What IS?? the natural way??
Anyway, there's always some quotes that'll catch my attention, mostly some bits and pieces that I have managed to catch when I watch some TV programmes, or movies.
"Everybody has his/her own piece of sky" (ie. as parents, or siblings, or elderly, or friends, we should not worry/concern too much about a person, to the extent that we would do certain things for them, instead of they, themselves solve it, or carry out their duty, or learn their path)
"When we just started our working life, there're so many things that we desired and wanted, until we've even forgotten about our real selves. Perhaps, one day, when we've decided to give up all that we're going after, then, we'll find true happiness and satisfaction" (Ya, due to peer-pressure, we're always after something that we, truly won't need)
Now only,
I found out that, most education system, teaches people to be intelligent, and smart, and whatsoever, but, not WISDOM.
I found out that, most students, or even teachers, do not know that, we go to school, IS for the purpose to learn how to be a good person. (or, to be a human) [Oh Ya!! I talked about this, is because, I came across the 'online learning' topic one fine day! :)] And I guess that is why, most young students, as well as the parents are getting more and more stressed up, and stirred up nowadays. The result has been mistakenly as the root, of learning.
2005-09-08
A Brand New Peaceful World??
I have never had the urge to read newspaper, really, if you ask me. As it's all about sad news, 90% about accident, crime, conflict, war, and 10% or less than 10% of 'congratulations'. I do keep wondering, why, why is the world in such a way at present??
There have been more and more people foregoing and compromising religion for their lifestyle. I was thinking, if we all have a belief, regardless the extent of dedicatioin we give in, will this make any helf. There have also been people fighting and attacking neighbourhood for their own sake in the name of their God, but, really, how true can this be.
I am ashamed to say that I am never that dedicated a believer myself, as to commit myself with all the 'practices' but there is one thing that I am sure, is LOVE and humble myself in front of GOD. I then started to think, if this is a common practice, will this world be more peaceful??
There have been more and more people foregoing and compromising religion for their lifestyle. I was thinking, if we all have a belief, regardless the extent of dedicatioin we give in, will this make any helf. There have also been people fighting and attacking neighbourhood for their own sake in the name of their God, but, really, how true can this be.
I am ashamed to say that I am never that dedicated a believer myself, as to commit myself with all the 'practices' but there is one thing that I am sure, is LOVE and humble myself in front of GOD. I then started to think, if this is a common practice, will this world be more peaceful??
2005-09-06
Definitely for my own record
This is a telephonic exchange between a hotel guest androomservice at a hotel in Asia.
It was recorded andpublished in the Far East Economic Review:
Room Service: "Morny. Ruin sorbees."
Guest : "Sorry, I thought I dialed room-service."
RS : "Rye. Ruin sorbees..morny! Djewish to odor sunteen??"
Guest: "Uh..yes..I'd like some bacon and eggs."
RS: "Ow July den?"
G: "What??"
RS: "Ow July den - fry, boy, pooch?"
G: "Oh, the eggs! How do I like them? Sorry, scrambled, please."
RS: "Ow July dee bayhcem - crease?"
G: "Crisp will be fine"
RS: "Hokay. An San tos?"
G: "What?"
RS: "San tos. July San tos?"
G: "I don't think so"
RS: "No? Judo one toes??"
G: "I feel really bad about this, but I don't know what'judo one toes' means."
RS: "Toes! toes!..Why djew Don Juan toes? Ow bow singlishmopping we bother?"
G: "English muffin!! I've got it! You were saying 'Toast.'Fine. Yes, an English muffin will be fine."
RS: "We bother?"
G: "No..just put the bother on the side."
RS: "Wad?"
G: "I mean butter - just put it on the side."
RS: "Copy?" G: "Sorry?" RS: "Copy...tea...mill?"
G: "Yes. Coffee please, and that's all."
RS: "One Minnie. Ass ruin torino fee, strangle ache,crease baychem, tossy singlish mopping we bother honeysigh, and copy....rye??"
G: "Whatever you say."
RS: "Tendjewberrymud"
G : "You're welcome"
It was recorded andpublished in the Far East Economic Review:
Room Service: "Morny. Ruin sorbees."
Guest : "Sorry, I thought I dialed room-service."
RS : "Rye. Ruin sorbees..morny! Djewish to odor sunteen??"
Guest: "Uh..yes..I'd like some bacon and eggs."
RS: "Ow July den?"
G: "What??"
RS: "Ow July den - fry, boy, pooch?"
G: "Oh, the eggs! How do I like them? Sorry, scrambled, please."
RS: "Ow July dee bayhcem - crease?"
G: "Crisp will be fine"
RS: "Hokay. An San tos?"
G: "What?"
RS: "San tos. July San tos?"
G: "I don't think so"
RS: "No? Judo one toes??"
G: "I feel really bad about this, but I don't know what'judo one toes' means."
RS: "Toes! toes!..Why djew Don Juan toes? Ow bow singlishmopping we bother?"
G: "English muffin!! I've got it! You were saying 'Toast.'Fine. Yes, an English muffin will be fine."
RS: "We bother?"
G: "No..just put the bother on the side."
RS: "Wad?"
G: "I mean butter - just put it on the side."
RS: "Copy?" G: "Sorry?" RS: "Copy...tea...mill?"
G: "Yes. Coffee please, and that's all."
RS: "One Minnie. Ass ruin torino fee, strangle ache,crease baychem, tossy singlish mopping we bother honeysigh, and copy....rye??"
G: "Whatever you say."
RS: "Tendjewberrymud"
G : "You're welcome"
What a beautiful story..... Three Tree
Once upon a mountain top, three little trees stood and dreamed of what they wanted to become when they grew up. The first little tree looked up at the stars and said: "I want to hold treasure. I want to be covered with gold and filled with precious stones. I'll be the most beautiful treasure chest in the world!"
The second little tree looked out at the small stream trickling by on it's way to the ocean. "I want to be traveling mighty waters and carrying powerful kings. I'll be the strongest ship in the world!"
The third little tree looked down into the valley below where busy men and women worked in a busy town. "I don't want to leave the mountain top at all. I want to grow so tall that when people stop to look at me, they'll raise their eyes to heaven and think of God. I will be the tallest tree in the world."
Years passed. The rain came, the sun shone, and the little trees grew tall. One day three woodcutters climbed the mountain. The first woodcutter looked at the first tree and said, "This tree is beautiful. It is perfect for me." With a swoop of his shining axe, the first tree fell. "Now I shall be made into a beautiful chest, I shall hold wonderful treasure!" The first tree said. The second woodcutter looked at the second tree and said, "This tree is strong. It is perfect for me." With a swoop of his shining axe, the second tree fell. "Now I shall sail mighty waters!" thought the second tree. "I shall be a strong ship for mighty kings!" The third tree felt her heart sink when the last woodcutter looked herway. She stood straight and tall and pointed bravely to heaven. But the woodcutter never even looked up. "Any kind of tree will do for me." He muttered. With a swoop of his shining axe, the third tree fell.
The first tree rejoiced when the woodcutter brought her to a carpenter's shop. But the carpenter fashioned the tree into a feed box for animals. The once beautiful tree was not covered with gold, nor with treasure. She was coated with saw dust and filled with hay for hungry farm animals. The second tree smiled when the woodcutter took her to a shipyard, but no mighty sailing ship was made that day. Instead the once strong tree was hammered and sawed into a simple fishing boat. She was too small and too weak to sail to an ocean, or even river; instead she was taken to a little lake. The third tree was confused when the woodcutter cut her into strong beams and left her in a lumberyard. "What happened?" The once tall tree wondered. "All I ever wanted was to stay on the mountain top and point to God..."
Many many days and night passed. The three trees nearly forgot their dreams. But one night, golden starlight poured over the first tree as a young woman placed her newborn baby in the feed box. "I wish I could make a cradle for him." her husband whispered. The mother squeezed his hand and smiled as the starlight shone on the smooth and the sturdy wood. "This manger is beautiful." She said. And suddenly the first tree knew he was holding the greatest treasure in the world.
One evening a tired traveler and his friends crowded into the old fishing boat. The traveler fell asleep as the second tree quietly sailed out into the lake. Soon a thundering and thrashing storm arose. The little tree shuddered. She knew she did not have the strength to carry so many passengers safely through with the wind and the rain. The tired man awakened. He stood up, stretched out his hand, and said, "Peace." The storm stopped as quickly as it had begun. And suddenly the second tree knew he was carrying the king of heaven and earth.
One Friday morning, the third tree was startled when her beam was yanked from the forgotten woodpile. She flinched as she was carried through an angry jeering crowd. She shuddered when soldiers nailed a man's hands to her. She felt ugly and harsh and cruel. But on Sunday morning, when the sun rose and the earth trembled with joy beneath her, the third tree knew that God's love had changed everything. It had made the third tree strong. And every time people thought of the third tree, they would think of God.
That was better than being the tallest tree in the world.
There's always something that'll make me cry
Each time when I receive some emails from friend, or come across some poems somewhere I go, there is always something or some stories that'll tingle my heart, makes me cry.
For my own record, this is the one of them, something famous, something worth remembering and to be passed on.
It's Foot Print by Margaret Fishback Powers
One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.
"Lord, you told me when I decided to follow You,
But I'm aware that during the most troublesome
times of my life there is only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why when I needed You most, You leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."
I've always thought that, most people are brought up to be a blamer. We blame others for our own failure in achieving something in our life, or our work. We blame on things, on conditions, on tools and We've failed to look at ourselves and evaluate ourselves.
That is why coming from a background (a working background that had trained me) with 'no blame' culture. I have learnt not to blame, but, resolve.
But, this poem, really does tell me a lot about myself, about human nature.
2005-08-19
Looking at myself
The other day, I was 'reviewing' myself. I was thinking, hm! there're two main things (with subcategories) that err..... contribute to ME, or..... K, that I am made up of.
Food and Music.
I love food, and therefore, when I 'appraise' myself, most of my ideas, ideology, or philosophy is based from food, my opinion about things, about people, can be linked from food as well.
For eg. one night I was watching this food/eating programme on TV, and they're showing some thai food, mostly assembled variation of TomYam. At that very moment, I thought about one very "Hot and Spicy" actor, ie. Christian Bale. Yummy!!!
I mean, looking at Christian Bale, is just like, emm..... like putting my favourite (yes, FAVOURITE, top of my food list) thai food in front of me, make me drool, make me nose-bleed (cos, it heats the inner me up) if I eat it, well, make my face red, make me sweat, etc.
Later on that night, I was thinking of more examples, like Pierce Brosnan remind me of Italian pasta, smooth and warm, and delicious.
What else??
Oh, music, ya, I've stages in my life, during my teen, I listened to cantonese pop, then, slowly, I moved on to mandarin pop, then, after I finish my Uni, I started off with J-pop, and now, gosh!!! seems like I only listen to Gorillaz!!! Love Damon Albarn!
Food and Music.
I love food, and therefore, when I 'appraise' myself, most of my ideas, ideology, or philosophy is based from food, my opinion about things, about people, can be linked from food as well.
For eg. one night I was watching this food/eating programme on TV, and they're showing some thai food, mostly assembled variation of TomYam. At that very moment, I thought about one very "Hot and Spicy" actor, ie. Christian Bale. Yummy!!!
I mean, looking at Christian Bale, is just like, emm..... like putting my favourite (yes, FAVOURITE, top of my food list) thai food in front of me, make me drool, make me nose-bleed (cos, it heats the inner me up) if I eat it, well, make my face red, make me sweat, etc.
Later on that night, I was thinking of more examples, like Pierce Brosnan remind me of Italian pasta, smooth and warm, and delicious.
What else??
Oh, music, ya, I've stages in my life, during my teen, I listened to cantonese pop, then, slowly, I moved on to mandarin pop, then, after I finish my Uni, I started off with J-pop, and now, gosh!!! seems like I only listen to Gorillaz!!! Love Damon Albarn!
Yummy!! CSI: Miami...mi...mi...mi...mi...mi...
Last nite I watched the CSI: Miami Season 3. A new guy had been recruited, and I was thinking like "Cool!!!" as since Tim Speedle died in the past season, this CSI: Miami had been a little bit female-dominant. Not to say that I hate the idea, but I'm just kinda little bit 'tradition' about cop's drama, there've to be more males. However, I still think that, I prefer Miami version than the rest. Coz, I think David Caruso err... is kinda cute.
At first, I thought he acted a little bit sissy, as in, like a woman, an old woman. Well... it's just the way he moved. That's my first encounter with CSI.(At that time, I couldn't even differentiate between the three CSI franchises, I was too engrossed with Jack Bauer in 24) Then, the more I followed these series, I start to like Horation Crane. He is always very sweet and kind to everybody, especially the victims, the victims' families, and even his subordinates. I don't remember seeing him yelling and shouting at any one of them. Mm, that's what I like about him. Huh!!! I guess people may call me weird for that.
At first, I thought he acted a little bit sissy, as in, like a woman, an old woman. Well... it's just the way he moved. That's my first encounter with CSI.(At that time, I couldn't even differentiate between the three CSI franchises, I was too engrossed with Jack Bauer in 24) Then, the more I followed these series, I start to like Horation Crane. He is always very sweet and kind to everybody, especially the victims, the victims' families, and even his subordinates. I don't remember seeing him yelling and shouting at any one of them. Mm, that's what I like about him. Huh!!! I guess people may call me weird for that.
2005-08-17
Inter human relationship 01
Mm this is what I wanna talk about today. I was doing my laundrette this morning, and it suddenly crossed my mind that, I should 'suggest' to him that he should buy this particular brand of detergent in the future, coz, I love the scent of it.
Then I started talking to myself in my heart. Why is there always conflicts when 2 or more different people from different places live together. First the upbringing of each individual is always different (unless we're looking at one family together, well, this is excluded in this subject). Second, which I think most importantly is that, most people like to superimpose their opinion on others, ie. they think that what they've been practising is always right. Well! Who doesn't.
So, I was telling myself that people should SUGGEST to others and not demanding others to do this and that.
I want less conflict in the family, I want less conflict in a country, and I want less conflict in this world. We should always start from a small scale.
Then I started talking to myself in my heart. Why is there always conflicts when 2 or more different people from different places live together. First the upbringing of each individual is always different (unless we're looking at one family together, well, this is excluded in this subject). Second, which I think most importantly is that, most people like to superimpose their opinion on others, ie. they think that what they've been practising is always right. Well! Who doesn't.
So, I was telling myself that people should SUGGEST to others and not demanding others to do this and that.
I want less conflict in the family, I want less conflict in a country, and I want less conflict in this world. We should always start from a small scale.
His Fangs
OK then, let me tell you what features I first saw on this guy on the big screen. (Of course, later I did some researches and confirmed its origin) that attracted me.
1. I noticed this 'scar' underneath his right eye. Well then, I later found out from other fans that he did get injured when he was small. I didn't follow up with him since the beginning of time and therefore, yes, I needed to do some research. While there maybe some people find this as a flaw on such beautiful face but I was deeply attracted to it.
2. His teeth. I called them 'fangs'. Again, later through further study, he actually did something to his teeth it used to be even more outstandingly as fangs. But I love them. Thus, I hope he won't think of straightening them even further.
Unexpected Great Discovery
How I started?? Well, it's all very unexpected, I discovered Christian Bale by accident, when I went to watch Batman Begins without choice. I was never a Batman's fan however, from then onwards I became one.
It was a great experience, all alone in the movie theatre, just me and Bale. (Smile!)
Later, I went back to watch "Empire of the Sun" and I was so fascinated by the young little Bale's acting. Following that were the 'follow up' many viewings of Batman Begins in the theatre.
And here I am today.
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