No! it's not about PMS of course… ^_^,
It's just a lame explanation of my current mood, ie. not-so-high… (or, BAD) as previously blogged…
Women… in a way are just so blessed… cos, we've a biological excuse, to be in bad mood, or whatever mood you call it, once a month, ie. officially, we can show tantrum, throw temper, once a month, 12 times a year, not bad huh?? (not exactly 12 times, though… ^_^)
Well… haha… I'm not saying that, I'm in such situation yet, I mean, the biological condition, however, I guess… it's that prequel thing… starting…
So, I'm easily agitated… easily upset… easily…
Even the fact that, the light's too bright, or the aircon's too noisy…
All the day-to-day-same-thing, becomes enhanced… during this "season"…
Ahem…
I remember one of my roommates used to tell me,
After she snapped at some poor victims, that, she knew it's simply because of this biological thing, however, she just couldn't help it… haha… how cute!!!
Ok… we won't exploit it… it's still under control…
However, not showing it, and letting it off to people is one thing,
Feeling it, and deep down, you just don't feel right, is another thing…
That moment,
I'm not sure how people feel, when they're down, or, what they want to do, or what they not want to do, when they're down…
But then, just now, just for a moment,
I wish…
I wish, I'm somewhere else!!!!!!!!
Just somewhere… or, maybe become somebody, how nice, right??
If I can just "take a break"… like that…
Suddenly, I'm in london, walking around hyde park,
Or, suddenly I'm in tokyo, a student…
Whatever…
Just that split second, I wish…
I'm somewhere else…
I wouldn't want to deny that, I've this type of feeling once in a blue moon…
I just need to be alone, face it, talk to it, and maybe… I shall be fine…
Then, wait for the next round… ^_^…
Is it because of that PMS thing? Frankly, I can't tell… or, is it because of my motherhood?
I don't think it really matters much, as long as, I face it…
Face it, recognise it, THAT, I've this type of down feeling…
I'm not a superhuman, and yes, I'm just a human,
Sometimes, I really want to be alone, quiet, and all quiet…
Though, I may not do anything…, but I enjoy the quietness…
And again, maybe I can start dreaming…
That, I AM… SOMEWHERE...
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