Kind ~ Happy

I once came across an article (oops... which I am not sure if I have mentioned over my blogs before or not)
it says...
"the more kind-hearted a person is, the happier that person is"

Well... what I am going to say is... mm... not because after reading that sentence and that it changes my mind, but rather... I have somehow agreed to what the sentence is saying, and that, when I came across this very sentence... BLINK!!

Another friend, long time ago, told me, if you're angry, or unhappy, you're merely taking other's mistake to upset yourself...
So... why looking into other's mistake, and make ourselves unhappy, and angry..
mm... I guess, it's solely because of this "I" that's making the whole world so miserable...
Sometimes, even we perform those so-called great deed, or self-sacrification deeds, it's simply for a self-jusdification... most of the time, we still think about ourselves, then, we perform those deeds...
"mm... if I don't do it, I am a bad person"
"mm... if I do it, people will think that I am good"
"mm... mum/teacher taught me, in such circumstances, I have to do this"
"mm..."

side dish: there's one story of Dr.House, where a voluteering/world doctor (who's also kind of a star or wellknow doctor or something) caught an unknown dicease when he's in Africa. When that doctor was being hospitalized, he kept wanting to go back to work, and insisted that, without him, so many other people in Afrida will die. Everybody thought that he's important. Of course, here come the sarcastic Dr.House who'll just pick on him, and try to find out something 'negative' about this world doctor and try to make his life difficult, even thought he's HIS patient. When people argue that, this world doctor is really very important, to the whole word, such a VIP person, cos, he saves many people's life, Dr.House just answered, "so, you're saying that, McDonald is more important than your mother" :-) kaka, I like that!!

Anyway... that is out of the topic...
(Let me drive back to the correct lane first)
Ok..

Ya... just now, when I was doing some housechores, I suddenly started to think...
mm... ya... I am not happy, simply because I'm a sinful person...
isn't that very true...???
I think, I am sinful, because, I pick on others, I see their bad habits rather than their good side...
I therefore, not forgive them, and keep linger on how bad they are, and make myself more and more unhappy...
and throughout the days and nights, I tell myself more and more, to justify my feeling... then comes one day..
I don't feel THAT unhappy anymore, and I finally reach a conclusion that, I am the victim, and that I am actually right, and that the person is actually the evil/bad one... and so on...
and then one day.. my heart is rotten, and hardened... and YAY!! I'm deep down in the pit of sin...

That's why, I started to think... that 2 sentences that I mentioned...

My mother is a very happy and cheerful and err.. blur lady... why??
becuase, I can see that she forgives, and she forgives and then, she forgives...
and then, she prays... her life doens't belong to herself anymore, and... "she" doesn't belong to herself anymore...

Even though sometimes... this type of people with such characters, may irritates you..
but then... deep down in my heart, I know that, it's simply because it's a place I can't reach, it's a place I don't understand... and that, it challenges my "I" status.. and that somehow makes me upset...
see... that's the thing... cos, I'm a sinful person, so, I keep feeling unhappy, sometimes...

mm...
therefore I started to think again... and again...
if you're feeling unhappy...
look into the mirror, touch your heart, ask "what's wrong with you??"
rather than sitting down there, talking loud about your principle..
and start counting how much the world owe you and upset you...

my opinion is...
the world(a.k.a. people/things/happenings around you) will continue to upset you, regardless to zillionth, you have counted...
however... looking into the mirror, touching your own heart, and pray...
it's a simpler thing to to :-) (I am a lazy person)
what happened to the world's wrong-doing.. doens't really matter...
what matters is what's happening inside you...
inside me...